108- Not A Speck 

July 4, 1983

I need love and deep peace, Lord. There’s not a speck of them in me.

You gave us a command to love:

2 John 1:5 …a new commandment…that we love one another.

Bible notes: The new law of Christ is the divine love as wrought into the renewed heart by the Holy Spirit.

Romans 5:5 …because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit…

Bible notes: This love flows out in the energy of the Spirit, unforced and spontaneous, toward the objects of the divine love.

I am reading these scriptures, carefully writing them, but not PRAYING and letting God do His work in my heart.

1 John 4:7-8 Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. He who does not love does not know God, for God is love.

I’m a hypocrite. Though I don’t hate, I’m stuck in unlove.

1 John 4:20-21 If someone says, “I love God,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen, how can he love God whom he has not seen? And this commandment we have from Him: that he who loves God must love his brother also.

Revelation: Lately, I begin the day often with a big chip on my shoulder—not wanting to love and let Christ live for me and through me—but ready to bite heads off. I am a hypocrite. I want all the goodies God has without laying down my rights and desires. It does not work. It makes me double-minded and unstable. It makes me inconsistent. It puts my flesh, ME, on the throne—not Jesus Christ. Thank You for showing me how much I need You, Jesus! I’m glad You commanded us to love and I feel You pulling me into Your love as I repent right now!