112- Womb Closed,
July 8, 1983
Today I am remembering Vern’s prayer for the Lord to close my womb.
Lou had a disability. Our hearts went out to him and we welcomed him and his wife into our home on many occasions. He was a new friend at church, and he had said that he had a word from God that He would close my womb. I had faith that, although this sounded very unusual, I knew God was able to do this. It brought me peace for many months in this area that we were seeking the Lord about.
Lord, my appointment on Wednesday is with Dr. Staffer, a Christian associate of my regular doctor. I ASK that he notice my womb closed. (Sounds like an incredible request) It would make the testimony more believable. I also ask for You to tell the doctor if I have a hormonal imbalance or if I am beginning the change of life. I would like some counsel from him about this. Thank You.
Dan has been so loving and so faithful. Thank You for strengthening our relationship, for giving us Your love for each other.
*Yesterday at church Jan said, “Are you pregnant?” And I felt the Lord was telling me, “You are.”
*Two weeks ago a little boy at church, 7 year old Matthew, asked if I was going to have a baby!
*KathyS gave me two maternity dresses!
*I had spotting last Tues, but today I started my period.
*Oh! The doctor said my experience in prayer was just a symbol and not to rely on it for birth control.
*This morning on the phone, Karen said, “I wouldn’t be surprised if you were pregnant.”
I am shaken. I really thought this was settled. I guess I will soon know.
It’s not having another baby that is the issue. If that is what You want for me and for us, I will be ecstatically rejoicing from the depths of me. I really will, I will not resist in any way. In fact if there is new life in me, “welcome, little wee one! we love you already.”
The hard part is the humiliation and the jokes that will follow us and be thrown in our faces. And that hurts my spirit deep down.
I know You are able to do anything You want to do. By faith, I believe You are reliable, and that every circumstance You allow has purpose for Your kingdom and for my being conformed into the image of my precious Savior.
The man who had the word for me about the Lord closing my womb was only at our church a few months. Knowing him was a good experience because it has helped us recognize legalistic people and people who should be wearing a sign that says—beware of me! I’m a little ‘off kilter.’ You have seen Dan’s and my wholehearted faith in the Lord. But at the same time we needed to grow in the area of discernment of spirits.
Dan and I have gifts of mercy, so it was easy for us to bring this man into our world. But the gift of mercy really needs wisdom and Spirit leading or the mercy person will find himself with a houseful of homeless people or stray cats, and his hard-earned money in other people’s pockets and not his bank account.