113- Praying, Surrendering, Hearing from God
Dan felt he needed more training in order for us to fulfill our goal to be missionaries to Japan someday. We were seeking God about a Bible school that would offer that curriculum. I was struggling with uprooting the family and yet really wanted to please God and please my husband. It was the surrender struggle–putting it all in the Lord’s hands and trusting Him to guide us into the best course of action.
August 16, 1983
Surrendering to You, Lord, I release our house, our living in Reno, our church and friends, our close-by relatives (Dan’s) and our far-away relatives (mine).
I open myself up—
*to deeper teaching of the Word
*to geographical move
*to a closer walk with You
*to being the wife of a student
*to embracing Dan’s furthering his education
I am claiming this:
Isaiah 32:18 My people will dwell in a peaceful habitation, in secure dwellings, and in quiet resting places.
I MUST keep full of the Word – or else I am not secure about Jesus being all I need and worthy of worship and service.
I am realizing that I am very fearful and anxious about the unknown…the next step…
moving… where?… we sent letters to four Bible schools.
I need grace for this Jesus.
Philippians 3:8 I count all things loss …and count them as rubbish that I may gain Christ.
John 10:11 I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd gives His life for the sheep.
Realizing that I am to shepherd my boys and give my life for them—really, lay down my life daily on their behalf, that THEY might be raised to fear God. I do choose that.
Having lately chosen intercession over friendships has been wonderful, and turning to praying over socializing. I hope I will be able to continue. On Saturday at the KNIS picnic such a work of the Spirit had happened in me that I SAW gossip, I SAW the “traps” and stayed clear.