202 – I Threw Myself On the Lord
July 18, 1986
During my early morning walk I prayed to be able to have discernment about the enemy’s tactics and have victory over my flesh when I find myself rising up and taking the enemy’s bait! And did I ever need that prayer….
The boys were across the street hanging out with their friends. Dan and I went to Beulah’s to pick up the kids so we could take them to the 4-H meeting. The ladies were gossiping, actually slandering someone. Praise God I kept out of it.
Then at the school where the meeting was, I became fearful and angry about something.
Then after we got home, sorrow came upon me because I had no car to use to get Dan a birthday gift.
Then disgust because the flour canister had a huge ant in it so I could not bake for him.
I THREW MYSELF ON THE LORD, CRYING OUT TO HIM FOR HELP,
Loneliness and lack of control over my life, overwhelmed me.
I almost called Karen for prayer support, because I don’t even have a prayer partner here! –amazingly, restraint came because it would have been a very unwise use of money to make the long-distance call across the country!
BUT GOD SAVED ME! without my calling anyone.
Peace came from God. My problems disappeared. We (the boys and I) would accept what we could not change and make do.
Then my mom called! GLORY! Someone who would understand!
Then my neighbor, Janet, came over and offered me her car!!
So I piled the boys in to the car and we went to the store and bought what we needed.
I had a major personal victory, and God worked mightily on my behalf! BLESS YOU, LORD!
The impact: self pity, a victim spirit, fearfulness, anger, loneliness, overwhelmingness—none of those things interfere with my relationship with the Lord if I just turn to Him and throw myself on His always-available mercy and grace.
So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most. Hebrews 4:16