224 – A Friend’s Timely Advice
November 2, 1986
Jenny had been on my mind to call for advice about my crazy, roller-coastering hormones. I had become pregnant on the honeymoon. When we celebrated our 6th anniversary, I had just turned 39 and our fourth son had been born 3 weeks earlier. I experienced only a few weeks in the 6 years where I was not pregnant or nursing. My hormones did not know how to act. I was trying to eat healthy, with no sugar or caffeine at all. I was trying to walk every day and keep my stress down.
As soon as we walked in the door from church and shopping, the phone rang. It was Pastor Dave in Reno – with Jenny! Neither had called us in New York before. Thank You, Jesus!
Jenny had had a wonderful experience after church that morning and she had been sharing it with the pastor. She had been counseling with two Japanese-speaking women and Dave knew who would really appreciate the story…the ones who hoped to go to Japan someday. We were very excited!
Three hours later Jenny called again to talk about my issue with my hormones. God, You are so faithful. It was such a help to have her understanding and support. She also had 4 children close together and wacky hormonal dips and dives. I have no one here who identifies with me on this, and Jenny was the only one in Reno who ‘got it.’ Validation that one is not c-r-a-z-y is very important.
Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. Ecclesiastes 4:10
223 – Total Commitment
October 23, 1986
Acts4:31 – and they were all filled with the Holy Spirit, and they continued to speak the word of God with freedom and boldness and courage. (Amplified)
My Bible note says that it was God’s grace that enabled the disciples to be bold and courageous, and generous. God was calling for total commitment and purity of heart and through them He did signs and wonders.
God healed, He killed (Ananias and Sapphira), He had an angel manifest to open a prison door. He had His disciples oppose the local authorites and take a stand and preach Christ. They took the risks. Because they were filled full of the Holy Spirit and could only obey God.
God loves our total commitment, everything brought before Him continually, and He gives great favor in exchange.
I see us in total commitment:
-taking the risk to leave all and come to Bible School
-receiving favor to homeschool
-the generosity of our church friends and our family
-phone calls, letters, love from friends—and prayers
-my parents devotion to us
-getting in to Dr. Ness’s medical group at the last minute
-favor with landlord
Acts 5:32 And we are witnesses of these things, and the Holy Spirit is also, whom God has bestowed on those who obey Him.
222 – Believe and Be Saved
October 22, 1986
I have been reading my Bible and praying, more than writing in my journal. Praise God, it has been GOOD.
I have seen God taking over in me and in the circumstances!
Swindoll’s book, Improving Your Serve: When God is in control of the servant’s mind…life’s greatest joy is to give His love away. (paraphrased)
Fill me up today, Lord, moment by moment, so I can give Your love away.
Help me see the pitfalls that await me and remind me to call on You to get me up and over them and on the other side!!
And thank You for the invention of the telephone—we heard from Danny P, Auntie Bev, and my parents. So much love flowing our way…
Tim and Daniel stayed at the Pletcher’s while Dan and I took Steve and Mark to the Billy Graham movie, Cry From the Mountain. Both boys went forward when the invitation was given! Halleljuah!
Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and you will be saved…. Acts 16:31
221 – Exhorted to Live in His Presence
October 15, 1986
I see that the only way we can be gracious and go with the flow is to have come through our experiences and stressful times being in continual companionship with Jesus.
I got to go to early morning chapel on campus yesterday. It was wonderful and God was present and moving.
Brother Edwards spoke of seeing the Lord’s presence manifested and His manifest presence. I forget which is which.
But as I read in Acts 2 this morning:
22 Jesus the Nazarene, a man attested to you by God with miracles and wonders and signs which God performed through Him in your midst.
25 “For David says of Him, ‘I SAW THE LORD ALWAYS IN MY PRESENCE; FOR HE IS AT MY RIGHT HAND, SO THAT I WILL NOT BE SHAKEN.”
26 ‘THEREFORE [being in His Presence] MY HEART WAS GLAD AND MY TONGUE EXULTED; MOREOVER MY FLESH ALSO WILL LIVE IN HOPE;
28 ‘YOU HAVE MADE KNOWN TO ME THE WAYS OF LIFE; YOU WILL MAKE ME FULL OF GLADNESS WITH YOUR PRESENCE.’
O Lord, My God. In your presence I will not be shaken. In Your presence my heart is glad and I have hope. In Your presence we fellowship and I am full of gladness. I love gladness!
220 – Official End of Pity Party
October 14, 1986
Father – I’m supposed to ‘forget not His benefits’ (Psalm 103:2) AND I DID FORGET!
I’m remembering that on Saturday all four boys played nicely with David in the morning and he stayed for lunch. Then after he went home and Daniel napped, I got to read Open Heart, Open Home, by Karen Mains for two hours. The other boys played so well together …Oh what a blessing!
On Sunday we had a wonderful morning of worship and teaching at Elim and then a wonderful picnic and fellowship time with the Tarpins and McAloons. Thank You.
On Monday Tracey Belcastro came over and we did her washing. I was able to give her some food and we talked and prayed uninterruptedly for almost 2 hours. Two boys went to Chris Pletcher’s and two boys napped.
Monday night Skiffs came to dinner. Sue helped me get it together while Dave (a barber in his former life before he became a student) cut the boys hair!! Praise God.
LET ME FOCUS ON THE POSITIVE PLEASE! LET ME PRAY THROUGH AND REARRANGE THE TIGHT SPOTS!!
One thing I see is that the first hours of the day all the boys want to be together with me. Perhaps we could have a really loving and friendly time, playing games, reading our books, till 10 when we have snack. Then try for math and then reading after lunch when Daniel’s in bed.
The book, Open Heart, Open Home is having a wonderful affect on me. I walked all of the kids to the library on Tuesday and let Leah and Nicole stay for lunch (usually I am too stingy to share our food, rationalizing that our income is meager and we need it for ourselves). ALL the neighborhood kids were here all afternoon. I let them inside for drinks, mediated their squabbles, played with them a bit, checked on them, talked to them—God is working through this book! Praise Jesus!
AND to top it all off, Janet and Jackie called from Reno! And Pastor Dave called also!
I call an official end to the Pity Party.
219 – Pity Party
October 14, 1986 -early Tuesday morning, day off school
All I see is their faults and mine – noisy gongs and clanging symbols.
What will God do to revive our love??
I see that I am closed to accepting help in many ways. I am trying to do it all myself.
Relax, Georgann, let loose. Let the Body of Believers, work.
I cannot see God as Big Enough to orchestrate my kids going with other kids (although no one has asked but Leslie—inviting them to a worldly movie (groan)).
And so I carry this burden of bringing up four boys alone day after day.
My desire is that Dan be more available.
But do I just need to let go and let God get more involved? — and ask for some relief?
Actually—Vivian (new neighbor) babysits every Tuesday night and Angela babysits every Friday night.
Chris Pletcher, age 13, comes over and plays GI Joes and runs around with them outside with them once a week and Nicole comes and helps with Daniel once in a while, too.
It’s just a pity party…. big groan….
218 Putting My Faith in Christ
October 12, 1986
Meeting my fears and anxieties and inadequacies through the Word of God….
Which – I told Julie—I base my life on.
It is no longer I who live now, but Christ who lives in me. Galatians 2:20
Faithful is he who calls you who also will do it. 1 Thessalonians 5:24
Ye are dead and your life is hidden in Christ with God. Colossians 3:3
A dead man is free of worry and introspection!
I put my faith in Christ in me.
Christ in you the hope of glory. Colossians 1:27
217 – Through the Holy Spirit, Like Jesus
October 8, 1986
Thinking of my heaviness, harshness, at times.
Praying, pleading, for positive attitude.
Having just finished Isaiah and begun Jeremiah last night, reflecting on the fact that God was negative, terrible, full of laws and penalties, unyielding, mean—we’re a lot like that, aren’t we, Father?
But then came Jesus and the New Testament—the new covenant.
THAT IS WHERE I WANT TO LIVE.
How can I? I ask myself –by the power of the Holy Spirit like Jesus did!!
Then Jesus, being filled with the Holy Spirit… Luke 4:1
How God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Ghost and with power: who went about doing good, and healing all that were oppressed of the devil; for God was with him. Acts 10:38
I choose Your abundant life, Jesus Christ. You are my Lord, Jesus. Let me serve You today. Let me serve my children with kindness in the fullness of Your Spirit.
216- Praising Him Makes a Difference
October 5, 1986
Last night Tim,8, and Stevie, 7, and I went to the Tab at Elim to watch a missionary movie about Rochunga Podaite, a Moora Indian in northern India. It was called Beyond the Next Mountain.* It was impactful to all of us. It was fun to have a movie night with my wonderful sons.
Dan left at 6:15 am and will not be home till 10:30 pm.
It has been quite an amazing day of walking with God, being lifted by Him. I’ve been mostly peaceful—flowing with our school day, even making it interesting and not being so hard nose.
PRAISE TO MY GOD!
It’s 9 pm and I still feel awake and interested in reading my Isaiah chapters and then Swindoll’s ‘Serve’ book. Praising lightens the load.
I do believe God’s grace has lifted me—and I do believe the continuing insistence on praising Him has lifted me. May I never stray from singing Your praises. May I live moment by moment with You, My Lord!
*In 1910 a missionary spent 5 days with the Hmar people who were called the “worst headhunters” of northern India. A few people were saved and one man believed his son could be used by God to bring the Bible to their people. It’s a great story, 1 ½ hours, on YouTube.
215 – Too Personal Too Quickly
October 4, 1986
I saw – in an instant – last night at home group–that I too quickly get very personal with people. It’s like I am saying: “I can see into you, and here’s what I see.” Awkward.
I have known that I do this, but I have gotten reinforced for it, so I thought it was a good thing. People have said I am honest and transparent. I have felt I was validated.
Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. Philippians 2:3
I see that I need to go slow and let the Holy Spirit lead me carefully. It seems I am always saying words that I would like to put back in my mouth. May that please change, Lord!
Thank You for this insight!
Trust must be built before I become too familiar with people or they just turn me off and decide I am someone to avoid because I could hurt them. That kind of person is seen as threatening and to be avoided. I miss relationships this way.
Keep cleansing me, Jesus. I want to be equipped and fitted for service to You.