217 – Through the Holy Spirit, Like Jesus

217 – Through the Holy Spirit, Like Jesus

October 8, 1986

Thinking of my heaviness, harshness, at times.

Praying, pleading, for positive attitude.

Having just finished Isaiah and begun Jeremiah last night, reflecting on the fact that God so often seems negative, terrible, full of laws and penalties, unyielding, even mean—we’re a lot like that, aren’t we, Father?

But then came Jesus and the New Testament—the new covenant.

THAT IS WHERE I WANT TO LIVE.

How can I? I ask myself – and I hear:

by the power of the Holy Spirit like Jesus did!!

Then Jesus, being filled with the Holy Spirit… Luke 4:1

How God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Ghost and with power: who went about doing good, and healing all that were oppressed of the devil; for God was with him. Acts 10:38

I choose Your abundant life, Jesus Christ. You are my Lord, Jesus. Let me serve You today. Let me serve my children with kindness in the fullness of Your Spirit.

216 – Praising Him Makes a Difference

216- Praising Him Makes a Difference

October 5, 1986

Last night Tim, 8, and Stevie, 7, and I went to Elim to watch a missionary movie about Rochunga Podaite, a Moora Indian in northern India. It was called Beyond the Next Mountain.* It was impactful to all of us. It was fun to have a movie night with my wonderful sons.

October 6

Dan left at 6:15 am and will not be home till 10:30 pm.

It has been quite an amazing day of walking with God, being lifted by Him. I’ve been mostly peaceful—flowing with our school day, even making it interesting and not being so hard nose.

PRAISE TO MY GOD!

It’s 9 pm and I still feel awake and interested in reading my Isaiah chapters and then Swindoll’s ‘Serve’ book. Praising lightens the load.

I do believe God’s grace has lifted me—and I do believe the continuing insistence on praising Him has lifted me. May I never stray from singing Your praises. May I live moment by moment with You, My Lord!

*In 1910 a missionary spent only 5 days with the Hmar people who were called the “worst headhunters” of northern India. A few people were saved and one man believed his son could be used by God to bring the Bible to their people. It’s a great story, 1 ½ hours, on YouTube.

* Chuck Swindoll, Improving Your Serve, 1981.

215 – Too Personal too Quickly

215 – Too Personal Too Quickly

October 4, 1986

I saw – in an instant – last night at home group–that I too quickly get very personal with people. It’s like I am saying: “I can see into you, and here’s what I see.” Awkward.

I have known that I do this, but I have gotten reinforced for it, so I thought it was a good thing. People have said I am honest and transparent. I have felt I was validated.

Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. Philippians 2:3

I see that I need to go slow and let the Holy Spirit lead me carefully. It seems I am always saying words that I would like to put back in my mouth. May that please change, Lord!

Thank You for this insight!

Trust must be built before I become too familiar with people or they just turn me off and decide I am someone to avoid because I could hurt them. That kind of person is seen as threatening and to be avoided. I miss relationships this way.

Keep cleansing me, Jesus. I want to be equipped and fitted for service to You.