233 – Focus on His Presence, not Fear
November 19, 1986
Fear brings a fight-or-flight response. In my case, I pretty quickly go to panic. Fears can be real or imagined.
Here is the list I had in my journal on this day. It is a continuation of the previous blog:
*fear that I am losing the boys and I’ll not regain ‘control’ once they get distracted
*fear that they will grow up and be weird
*fear someone will see the house messy
*fear the boys will be seen by others while they are fighting
*fear I will not be able to get Daniel playing happily with the toys and I will lose the boys’ interest in the school work while I am helping him
*fear people will see all of us as we really are, so often at odds, it seems.
Often I recognize the moment the fearful thought comes to me and I find myself going with it instead of holding every thought captive to the obedience of Christ.
9pm After my half hour walk, I had a good time praying with Dan. I heard myself saying: “I let go of the boys, I just want to be in Your presence, Jesus.” WHAT PEACE CAME TO ME!!
Could this be the missing link?? Please continue to speak, Lord…. what comes immediately to mind is the book about George Mueller, which I began reading last night. As a newly saved believer, when he focused on his girlfriend and was infatuated with her, he had no communication or peace or presence of God. The moment he turned away from her and chose God, God was there. Is that what happens to me, Lord? Please speak to me!
10:30pm I love these verses, thank You!
In Thy presence is fullness of joy. Psalm 16:11
God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved.; God will help her when morning dawns. Psalm 46:5
Let us come before His presence with thanksgiving, let us shout joyfully to Him with psalms. Psalm 95:2