260 – I Usurped My Husband’s Authority

260 – I Usurped My Husband’s Authority

February 25, 1987

Dan said something yesterday morning as a correction to me, which was very unusual. I responded with deep hurt and CRYING! I often cry at patriotic events or heartwarming things, or from the Spirit’s moving, but this crying was from PAIN and hurt feelings.

Later I felt that Dan’s words were not the real pain, because I had to acknowledge that I had been bad mannered. But the conviction of the Spirit was DEEP. I had offended the Lord!

I had usurped Dan’s authority, which put things out of order. And I had insulted him.

An instance at chapel this week brought me clarity.

The worship leader interrupted the lady who was giving the messages and the prayer requests. It was horrid.

The Spirit of God was immediately and thoroughly quenched and everyone felt it. I’ve never seen anything like it.

Then the worship leader’s instruction to the body was sort of dumb.

If what he could not wait to share had been something good, the Holy Spirit could not honor it because the man was so out of line.

Nevertheless let each one of you in particular so love his own wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband. Ephesians 5:33

I had stepped out of respect for my husband. 

I apologized, he apologized, and we kissed and made up. We will both be more careful.

Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much. James 5:16

259 – Hattie’s Story Encouraged Our Faith

259 – Hattie’s Story Encouraged Our Faith

February 19, 1987 very late

Sister Ruth Rodriguez, my instructor at Elim, came for dinner. She is bright with the Light of the Spirit, gracious, interested, and interesting!

God spoke clearly that:

-He directs our steps

-He will provide

In other words, He will guide and He will provide!

Sister Ruth shared the story of Sister Hattie Hammond. I think it took place in the 1930’s.

The Lord told Hattie to go to a city and start a church. “Me, Lord? –a woman?”

She went, took a boarding house room, shut herself in to pray.

One day the Lord said, “Let’s take a walk.”

On a street corner at a red light she mentioned to the man standing next to her that it was a beautiful day that Jesus had given.

He rolled his eyes and groaned: “One of those.”

She went on talking.

He invited her to his home to meet his wife and have dinner.

He called in all the neighbors.

This group was the nucleus of the church!

They rented a room for a church service for $1 a week.

In the first service, the Lord said, “I want one person baptized in the Holy Spirit.”

Hattie said: “ Oh, no, Lord.” But she spoke it out to the group.

A lady walked forward covered in furs and pearls. It was THE Mrs. Dupont! She was filled with the Spirit!

The moral of the story was: TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, DO NOT LEAN ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING; ACKNOWLEDGE HIM IN ALL YOUR WAYS, AND HE WILL MAKE YOUR PATH STRAIGHT. Proverbs 3:5-6

Dan and Georgann and boys obeyed the word of the Lord, received much in blessing. They were a testimony to many, and many were saved….Amen!

258 – Listening for God’s Direction

258 – Listening for God’s Direction

February 17 and 18, 1987

Dan said yesterday he wanted to call Pastor Dave to see if maybe he had a prophetic word for us that would give us some guidance. Should we continue here on this course or return home to Reno…

Today Pastor Dave called us!

Dan did not share specifics with Dave because we want to hear from the Lord, not get man’s advice. Nothing definitive transpired. He asked what he could do for us, Dan said pray. 

When my mom asked yesterday how the money situation was, I said fine.

We’re depending on God, not man. He will come through with job and provision and clear direction.

In the news from home, Pastor Dave, a former policeman, said that the youth activities area in the juvenile department of the jail is open to and welcoming the Christian message! They have so many youth on drugs they know they need outside help with the kids.

Friends of ours are selling their house and business and going into full-time ministry in a nearby town. I am stirred! Happy for them. Things are happening in Reno.

But living in Livonia has been such a refuge for me. A healing place. It’s not easy to think of letting go of it.

And the Lord opened her (Lydia’s) heart to respond to the things spoken by Paul. Acts 16:14

Open my heart to the things of the Spirit as I read Your word today!

Now while Paul was waiting for them at Athens, his spirit was being provoked within him as he was beholding the city full of idols. Acts 17:16

Paul was provoked by the many idols in the city and my spirit was greatly provoked as I watched the Transcendental Meditation video in the Cults class. I finally had to leave.

It’s still amazing to me how when I read in the Bible it relates to my life so perfectly.

257 – More Time with My Boys

257 – More Time

with My Boys

February 4, 1987

I woke up at 2:30am concerned about Stevie, feeling I’m so busy I don’t just sit and listen and play with him and his brothers. I had a few ideas on how to help each of them: an old idea that each boy could get a turn to go alone with Dan , then with me the next time, to the diner down the street, for a milkshake or something. Walk, hold hands, chat.

also: I could ask Carleen if I could bring one boy at a time to spend the morning with her boys while I am at class at Elim.

also: skip a homeschool subject once in a while to play a game with one boy.

May God help me. Why do I know He will? He always does.

Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. Psalm 37:5

The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in his way. Psalm 37:23

256 – Stay or Go Home

256 – Stay or Go Home

February 1, 1987 5am

Dan woke up with a vision of a jar with a vacuum in it—sucking his hands, rendering him helpless. It related to his friend in the mental institution. It struck fear into Dan’s heart. He felt it was definitely a warning to get out of this relationship. We obviously cannot help this friend.

I believe that Dan has been trying to save someone who does not want to be saved. And that this has put us in a place of impotency. It has clouded his present judgment. 

Such a tragic situation for this couple and for the rest of us. But our God restores.

Dan has been talking of leaving Elim in the middle of this semester. He had thought of not signing up for any classes at all so we could leave easily. As he shared this I felt peace though I was a little dismayed at moving on so soon from this wonderful place.

Show us the way, Lord.

Psalm 34:1 I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth.

7 The angel of the Lord encamps all around those who fear Him, and delivers them.

O LORD, lead me in Your righteousness because of my foes; make Your way straight before me. Psalm 5:8

255 – He Must Prune Me

255 – He Must Prune Me

January 24, 1987

By God’s wonderful and bountiful grace, I was 1 ½ hours in prayer from 5-6:30am.

This seems crystal clear:

John 15:2 Every branch that does not bear fruit He takes away – anger, selfishness, egocentricity – and every branch that bears fruit He prunes it that it may bear more fruit,

I see that my ministry with children (in public school) bore fruit—but all of these succeeding years have been a pruning process to get me out of me and into Him so that MORE fruit can come to His glory and honor and use.

Although today he prunes my twigs with pain,

Yet doth his blood nourish and warm my root:

Tomorrow I shall put forth buds again

and clothe myself with fruit.      -Christina Rosetti

254 – My God is the Lord

254 – My God is the Lord

January 22, 1987

For thus says the Lord, who created the heavens, who is God,

who formed the earth and made it,

who has established it, who did not create it in vain,

who formed it to be inhabited;

I am the Lord, and there is no other.

Look to Me, and be saved, all you ends of the earth!

For I am God, and there is no other.

I have sworn by Myself;

The word has gone out of My mouth in righteousness,

and shall not return,

that to Me every knee shall bow, every tongue shall take an oath. Isaiah 45:18, 22, 23

This is God’s declaration of Himself as the only true God.

We pray to our Creator.

He did not make a wasteland.

He did not speak in secret.

He wants ALL to turn to Him and be saved.

There is no other God.

His word has gone forth from His mouth in righteousness and will not turn back.

Every knee WILL bow.

Every tongue WILL swear allegiance.

Men WILL come.

Those who were angry at Him WILL be put to shame.

Thank You for opening the door wide so all who will bow to You CAN come in.

Thank You that I came in.

Use me, that others would come in.