266 – The Testimony of Jesus

266 – The Testimony of Jesus

April 8, 1987

The Testimony of Jesus

I would like to give a testimony before the great cloud of witnesses, The Throne, the angels—that my obedience at spending 1 hour and 45 minutes with God this morning (4:45-6:30 am) has resulted in me not being tired at bedtime (9:30 pm), my physical aggravations (canker sore which usually aches every night)(and another ailment)—haven’t really bothered me. I HAD long-suffering toward the boys (PTL) and took care of the three Durkee kids for 45 minutes this afternoon and the 2 McAloon kids for 1 hour this evening—gladly, easily, even sitting for at least 30-40 minutes chatting with one of the girls while I crocheted—I was relaxed and happy!

I spent extra time with Daniel and enjoyed him and did not begrudge the time, and later went with the boys down to the creek.

Four tales came regarding the boys behavior in the neighborhood, and I was not thrown into despair! PTL

I said some unkind things about someone to Debbie and quickly called and asked forgiveness and didn’t get under condemnation!!

Dan had to have the car towed ($25) and spend $90 on a new voltage regulator and did not get the wheels aligned and I was not upset, just compassionate.

He was gone till 5:45 pm and I didn’t panic or feel self pity for missing my walk!

I had a divine appointment with Donna (who brought us the groceries from her church back in December).

The house is picked up and the laundry done—PRAISE THE LORD!

265 – Two Different ‘Drunks’

 

265 – Two Different ‘Drunks’

April 8, 1987

After being in my class, then in chapel, and then praying so sincerely with my friends at communion, when I got home I regarded the boys differently. I felt more patient, more understanding. I also felt their sincere love for me. I remember thinking that I was willing to lay down my life to show them God’s love.

Since Shan, Elim’s pastor’s wife, called me and asked me to speak to her ladies group on homeschooling, I realized that my testimony of it stinketh. I have been very upset ever since. I have been wanting You to give me a new, beautiful testimony of Jesus in my life. Today I have hope for it! I believe we are working on it together.

And do not get drunk with wine for that is dissipation, BUT BE FILLED WITH THE SPIRIT…making melody in your heart to the Lord. Ephesians 5:18,19d

When I used to be DRUNK with wine, I remember feeling free, bold, happy, not easily offended, having no cares.

Surely being DRUNK with the Holy Spirit must be glorious—having great peace, not easily worried, not easily offended, joyful, positive, full of faith, not doubting, full of good deeds, kind in speech and manner, self controlled in thoughts and actions, long-suffering, gentle not harsh.

Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit let us also walk by the Spirit. Galatians 5:24-25

264 – Keeping It All in God’s Hands

264 – Keeping It All

in God’s Hands

April 8, 1987

On Monday Dan and I looked at our prayer list and prayed our prayer list. We could line all of these things up as pros and cons regarding going back to Reno or staying here (yes, we are still waffling), but we asked the Lord that we could just HEAR HIS VOICE CLEARLY AND KNOW HIS WILL.

WE WILL TRUST HIM WITH ALL OF THE DETAILS.

To me this is the walk of faith. Keeping everything in God’s hands. Keeping everything in prayer. Seeking His will until He reveals it to me.

Oswald Chambers*: Jesus Christ says: “I have chosen YOU!” It’s not that you have got God, but that He has got you!!…He will do with you what He is not doing with other people. Let Him have His way.

Through relationship with Jesus we find out His plan, and in the power of the Spirit we walk it out.

After chapel I stayed for communion which was heavy with Your Presence.

Jesus fervently desired to eat Passover with His disciples although He knew them so well and knew that they would fail Him and lose faith. (Luke 22:15…)

He fervently desires relationship with me, knowing my past, knowing my future.

Cheryl and Tracey and I prayed together for the power to do what He is calling us to do—and for discipline to spend time with Him so we can know His voice and so that we won’t run out in the flesh and ‘serve God’ and wipe out. We prayed also regarding our husbands. We agreed to meet back at communion next Tuesday to give account to each other of how we did with this.

* I did not reference in my journal where I got Oswald’s quote.

263 – We Receive, We Stand Strong

263 – We Receive, We Stand Strong

March 18, 1987

God continues to bless us.

Did we pass some test? Ford some river of faith?

* At the married students’ chapel service, Mike passed the hat for Dan and over $500 came in.

*In our mailbox at Elim we received several money gifts, one of which was for $300. Wally and Debbie came by our house with $100.

*Total bank deposit I will make tomorrow: $1,188.21. All from the last two days.

*Janet and Bob called on his company’s WATS line.

*Possible job: Josie (house mate) saw advertised in the Penny Saver yesterday—a job for a draftsman—in Livonia! Right up the street!

*I was able to pay all the bills. I am overwhelmed to say the least.

*Dan called Pastor Dave so when people arrive at church tonight Dave will already know the news that several ladies (Janet, Jan, Jackie, Erna, Carol) already know…that we will be most likely staying here for the time being.

Make sure that your character is free from the love of money, being content with what you have; for He Himself has said, “I WILL NEVER DESERT YOU, NOR WILL I EVER FORSAKE YOU” Hebrews 13:5

 March 19

My filling fell out last night.

Car wouldn’t start yesterday evening and the Livonia parts place was closed by then.

When Dan called today, they did not have the part.

I almost did not go to class, but I had determined last night that I must not miss what God has for me under any circumstances. Dan agreed and we stood firm. And prayed.

We decided to borrow Josie’s car. Dan and the boys drove me to Elim. Debbie had been here last night (giving us the check!) and had offered to take the boys to Thursday School (homeschool group), so we took her up on it. Dan stayed at school to study while I went to class and we both went to chapel.

Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. Ephesians 6:10

262 – Friends and Gifts

262 – Friends and Gifts

March 17, 1987

Very very interesting:

*$100 in an envelope which was taped to the steering wheel as I left home for my class at Elim this morning

*fact: Rochester is a center of Eastern religions in the US (or in New York, not sure).  But it means that our 2 years of ministry to the Japanese could happen right here in upstate New York!

*Paulette is very interested in Dan’s watercolor balloons and suggested he do posters. His work was rejected a Knopf Publishing yesterday, so this was encouraging to us both.

*Stan  suggested Dan go to Mt. Hope area in Rochester and sketch a house and then take it around the neighborhood to see if people would like to buy a rendering of their house. “Do you have a Lemaire yet??”

*gift box came from my mom today. What love and faithfulness comes from them. I told her that through much thinking and prayer we will probably stay here in NY. She choked up a little. Hope we can visit–either here or there.

*Took the boys shopping in Geneseo so they could spend their job money. It was fun. The store was empty. Praise God.

*Pauline & Tom called to invite us to dinner for Thursday. They will get a video tape for the boys. We will all love it.

*Mike & Tish arrived with $70 cash and FOOD from the Married Students’ storehouse. Praise God. Dan confessed to Mike that today was THE day his faith was being hurt by all the waiting on God. Mike said today was THE day he kept feeling CLEARLY to bring provisions to us. Amazing Holy Spirit!

*On Sunday, Dan’s mom and Karen called; Bev called last Sunday; JoAnnA called Saturday. Humbling to be so loved.

*Barry, a teacher, gave us much encouragement in our life with the Lord. His walk sounds similar.

PRAISE THE LORD. We are accepted in the beloved (our friends and family), as well as the Beloved (Father, Son, and Holy Spirit).

…to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved. Ephesians 1:6

261 – You Are Clean

261 – You Are Clean

March 3, 1987

When I woke up there was Holy Spirit conviction of sin, and much spiritual warfare going around and around me, but I got on top of the thoughts and feelings and got the victory!

I went downstairs to pray with Dan and asked him to pray for me.

We then pursued praying for the friends, nations, and families, on our list.

I was totally lifted.

I believe the warfare was to discourage me from going to Elim today.

God met me wonderfully. After a very good chapel service, with the Holy Spirit moving in worship and in conviction, I got my coat on, disappointed that there had been no call to come forward for prayer. Then I noticed that the communion service was being led in a side room by Sister Ruth (a regular Tuesday event).

So I went in, crying, and waiting on God.

Sister Ruth spoke of ‘blood’from a book by Dr. DeHaan. The blood carries food fuel and also carries garbage. “Would you want good food served to you in a garbage truck? No. But the garbage carried away in the blood does not affect the ‘food.’”

Then…without the shedding of blood there is no remission of sins.

The Spirit said to me, “His blood was shed for your cleansing of sin!”

Sister Ruth said that during chapel she had thought of Peter’s vision of ‘garbage’—when God said  to Peter: “do not call unclean what I have called clean!” Wow!

I was dealing with garbage when I woke up.

I felt God said to me: “This morning I showed you a big layout of garbage, but not to condemn you. By the blood of my Jesus, you are clean. Do NOT say you are unclean. You are CLEAN.”

Oh, what a mighty glorious wonderful God. I surely can tell ANYONE that his sins are forgiven—so great a debt of mine has been paid!

Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord. Acts 3:19

260 – I Usurped My Husband’s Authority

260 – I Usurped My Husband’s Authority

February 25, 1987

Dan said something yesterday morning as a correction to me, which was very unusual. I responded with deep hurt and CRYING! I often cry at patriotic events or heartwarming things, or from the Spirit’s moving, but this crying was from PAIN and hurt feelings.

Later I felt that Dan’s words were not the real pain, because I had to acknowledge that I had been bad mannered. But the conviction of the Spirit was DEEP. I had offended the Lord!

I had usurped Dan’s authority, which put things out of order. And I had insulted him.

An instance at chapel this week brought me clarity.

The worship leader interrupted the lady who was giving the messages and the prayer requests. It was horrid.

The Spirit of God was immediately and thoroughly quenched and everyone felt it. I’ve never seen anything like it.

Then the worship leader’s instruction to the body was sort of dumb.

If what he could not wait to share had been something good, the Holy Spirit could not honor it because the man was so out of line.

Nevertheless let each one of you in particular so love his own wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband. Ephesians 5:33

I had stepped out of respect for my husband. 

I apologized, he apologized, and we kissed and made up. We will both be more careful.

Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much. James 5:16

259 – Hattie’s Story Encouraged Our Faith

259 – Hattie’s Story Encouraged Our Faith

February 19, 1987 very late

Sister Ruth Rodriguez, my instructor at Elim, came for dinner. She is bright with the Light of the Spirit, gracious, interested, and interesting!

God spoke clearly that:

-He directs our steps

-He will provide

In other words, He will guide and He will provide!

Sister Ruth shared the story of Sister Hattie Hammond. I think it took place in the 1930’s.

The Lord told Hattie to go to a city and start a church. “Me, Lord? –a woman?”

She went, took a boarding house room, shut herself in to pray.

One day the Lord said, “Let’s take a walk.”

On a street corner at a red light she mentioned to the man standing next to her that it was a beautiful day that Jesus had given.

He rolled his eyes and groaned: “One of those.”

She went on talking.

He invited her to his home to meet his wife and have dinner.

He called in all the neighbors.

This group was the nucleus of the church!

They rented a room for a church service for $1 a week.

In the first service, the Lord said, “I want one person baptized in the Holy Spirit.”

Hattie said: “ Oh, no, Lord.” But she spoke it out to the group.

A lady walked forward covered in furs and pearls. It was THE Mrs. Dupont! She was filled with the Spirit!

The moral of the story was: TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, DO NOT LEAN ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING; ACKNOWLEDGE HIM IN ALL YOUR WAYS, AND HE WILL MAKE YOUR PATH STRAIGHT. Proverbs 3:5-6

Dan and Georgann and boys obeyed the word of the Lord, received much in blessing. They were a testimony to many, and many were saved….Amen!

258 – Listening for God’s Direction

258 – Listening for God’s Direction

February 17 and 18, 1987

Dan said yesterday he wanted to call Pastor Dave to see if maybe he had a prophetic word for us that would give us some guidance. Should we continue here on this course or return home to Reno…

Today Pastor Dave called us!

Dan did not share specifics with Dave because we want to hear from the Lord, not get man’s advice. Nothing definitive transpired. He asked what he could do for us, Dan said pray. 

When my mom asked yesterday how the money situation was, I said fine.

We’re depending on God, not man. He will come through with job and provision and clear direction.

In the news from home, Pastor Dave, a former policeman, said that the youth activities area in the juvenile department of the jail is open to and welcoming the Christian message! They have so many youth on drugs they know they need outside help with the kids.

Friends of ours are selling their house and business and going into full-time ministry in a nearby town. I am stirred! Happy for them. Things are happening in Reno.

But living in Livonia has been such a refuge for me. A healing place. It’s not easy to think of letting go of it.

And the Lord opened her (Lydia’s) heart to respond to the things spoken by Paul. Acts 16:14

Open my heart to the things of the Spirit as I read Your word today!

Now while Paul was waiting for them at Athens, his spirit was being provoked within him as he was beholding the city full of idols. Acts 17:16

Paul was provoked by the many idols in the city and my spirit was greatly provoked as I watched the Transcendental Meditation video in the Cults class. I finally had to leave.

It’s still amazing to me how when I read in the Bible it relates to my life so perfectly.

257 – More Time with My Boys

257 – More Time

with My Boys

February 4, 1987

I woke up at 2:30am concerned about Stevie, feeling I’m so busy I don’t just sit and listen and play with him and his brothers. I had a few ideas on how to help each of them: an old idea that each boy could get a turn to go alone with Dan , then with me the next time, to the diner down the street, for a milkshake or something. Walk, hold hands, chat.

also: I could ask Carleen if I could bring one boy at a time to spend the morning with her boys while I am at class at Elim.

also: skip a homeschool subject once in a while to play a game with one boy.

May God help me. Why do I know He will? He always does.

Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. Psalm 37:5

The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in his way. Psalm 37:23