270 – At the End Again

270 – At the End Again

April 22, 1987

We find ourselves once again at the END.

Dan’s drafting work has ended. 

No other jobs have come up. He’s made calls to newspaper ads.

I’ve been praying for two days–You are our ONLY HOPE, Jesus–

*for a job for Dan

*for money for groceries on Friday

*for rent in 1 1/2 weeks

*for paying bills

*for Dan to get pants –he’s wearing the insulated ones his mom sent for Christmas

*for shoes for Dan–he’s wearing his dress shoes around the house

around noon…I went to prayer, felt a great need, burdened by the flesh and heavy. I needed to commune with my Savior. I asked Him to speak and help me to believe He was speaking. I saw Jesus, then the cross, then Jesus. I heard Him say: “I went to the cross and came off the cross so you could have life. I give you My life today–don’t worry about the future, even tomorrow. Give My life away. There’s more for tomorrow.”

He met me at the end, which wasn’t really the end at all.

Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” So we may boldly say: “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear. What can man do to me?” Hebrews 13:5-6

269 – Watching God Work

269 – Watching God Work

April 22, 1987

On Sunday, worship at Elim was WONDERFUL.

There was a call for prayer. The atmosphere was so anointed that I asked God what I could go up for. He told me and so I went.

We all had fun at Bob and Linda’s for Easter dinner. Cold outside, with snow on the ground, but eight little boys in the house went surprisingly well. Ages 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8!! Hers mixed in perfectly with mine.

Yesterday Jan called. She wants to come for a visit. There are horrible problems at her house. I said on the condition that she would be TOTALLY OPEN TO THE LORD, COUNSEL, PRAYER, etc.

At the dentist’s I witnessed to Sue, the dental assistant. She was interested that we wanted to tell Japanese people about Jesus! The Lord worked to set up her interest! It was amazing.

I sought out Cathy, the hygienist, and gave her a Guideposts magazine and an excellent book on becoming a Christian and getting started in a faith walk. She was not only receptive but excited.

Dan suggested I invite our neighbor Julie to the Cults class. We’re having a speaker on Thursday on Mormonism. She is considering it!!!

JULIE CALLED ME when I was getting my nerve up to ask her! GOD DID IT!!

But Jesus answered them, “My Father has been working until now, and I have been working.” John 5:17

I saw You working among us at church and at our friends’ home on Sunday, in my bold stance with Jan on Monday, in the dentist’s office on Tuesday– going before me softening the ladies’ hearts, and today working in Julie’s heart to be interested in visiting Elim and being open to hearing about her religion. Astounding! 

268 – Loud Crying to the Lord

 268- Loud Crying

to the Lord

April 18, 1987

I was led to Psalm 107:27-32 with Bible subtitle:

“to those who are overwhelmed”–

They reeled and staggered like a drunken man,

and were at their wits’ end.


And He brought them out of their distresses.

He caused the storm to be still,

So that the waves of the sea were hushed.

Then they were glad because they were quiet;

So He guided them to their desired haven.

Let them give thanks to the Lord for His lovingkindness,

And for His wonders to the sons of men!

Let them extol Him also in the congregation of the people,

And praise Him at the seat of the elders.

Last week, God gave me this last week when Stevie was sick with a high fever and I was reading to him:

In the days of His flesh, He offered up both prayers and supplications WITH LOUD CRYING AND TEARS TO THE ONE ABLE TO SAVE HIM from death, and was heard because of His piety. Hebrews 5:7

I feel like God is telling me that our part, when overwhelming circumstances and trials come, is loud crying and tears to the Lord, and He will hear and answer and act.

267 – We Are Being Sifted

267 – We Are Being Sifted

April 9, 1987

I drove into Lima for our home school gathering. A church marquee said:

           April 5, 1987  UNBOUND

THAT WAS MY BIRTHDAY! I feel that was for me!

Yesterday I got:

ARISE [from the depression and prostration in which circumstances have kept you; rise to a new life]!

SHINE – be radiant with the glory of the Lord;

for your light is come and the glory of the Lord is risen upon you!  Isaiah 60:1 (Amplified)

The sheriff came while we were in Lima with a summons! Dan’s passenger in the November car accident is suing our insurance company because Brian did not feel he got enough wage compensation during his recovery period. Funny thing—the people who were going to support him didn’t. I pray he will see clearly to drop the suit.

And the Lord said,[a] “Simon, Simon! Indeed, Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat.  But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren.” Luke 22:31-32

We are being sifted.

Check from Life Center in Reno for $55 which is our grocery money for TODAY’s shopping! Praise Jesus!

Bill and Carol sent $10 and a letter. Bless them!

Gregg and Cheryl gave $40 for Dan and I to go out to dinner to celebrate my birthday.