296 – More Baby Thinking

July 1, 1988

My mom had a dream that I arrived at their house HUGE. She said it looked like I had three big balloons in my tummy. In the dream I said, “Oh these are our three little girls. We are having triplets!” She said, “But Dan had a vasectomy, and we don’t have room in our house for seven children!”

She said I was VERY happy in the dream.

Paulette believes that the triplet dream means a three-fold ministry with children—that it is spiritual not physical. I believe it is physical because mom said, “We don’t have room for seven.” I BELIEVE THAT IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH US HAVING MORE CHILDREN.

July 4

There was a pillar of cloud in the sky this morning, and I felt like the Spirit was saying: “Don’t doubt God’s power.”

July 5

Abraham was 86 years old when Ishmael was born. When Abraham was 99 years old , God appeared to him.

Something in me resists a pregnancy. I feel it would be embarrassing because of my promiscuous lifestyle in the past and that it would cause people to question my integrity because Dan has had a vasectomy. I lay it down.

Not my will but Thine be done. Luke 22:42b

The note in my NIV Bible on Genesis 15:17 says that God ministered to Abraham’s need for assurance.

LORD, WOULD YOU MINISTER TO MY NEED FOR ASSURANCE?

Maybe this is Him ministering to me…Lord are you saying:

Then the Lord said to Abraham, “Why did Sarah laugh and say, ‘will I really have a child now that I am old?’ Is anything too hard for the Lord?…. Genesis 18:13

This is so outlandish and speculative, and yet I feel an excitement about bearing more children—and no fear. Lord, when I have heard from You (like when the sheriff brought the subpoena and You spoke to me) I have peace and not fear.