296 – More Baby Speculations

296 – More Baby Thinking

July 1, 1988

My mom had a dream that I arrived at their house HUGE. She said it looked like I had three big balloons in my tummy. In the dream I said, “Oh these are our three little girls. We are having triplets!” She said, “But Dan had a vasectomy, and we don’t have room in our house for seven children!”

She said I was VERY happy in the dream.

Paulette believes that the triplet dream means a three-fold ministry with children—that it is spiritual not physical. I believe it is physical because mom said, “We don’t have room for seven.” I BELIEVE THAT IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH US HAVING MORE CHILDREN.

July 4

There was a pillar of cloud in the sky this morning, and I felt like the Spirit was saying: “Don’t doubt God’s power.”

July 5

Abraham was 86 years old when Ishmael was born. When Abraham was 99 years old , God appeared to him.

Something in me resists a pregnancy. I feel it would be embarrassing because of my promiscuous lifestyle in the past and that it would cause people to question my integrity because Dan has had a vasectomy. I lay it down.

Not my will but Thine be done. Luke 22:42b

The note in my NIV Bible on Genesis 15:17 says that God ministered to Abraham’s need for assurance.

LORD, WOULD YOU MINISTER TO MY NEED FOR ASSURANCE?

Maybe this is Him ministering to me…Lord are you saying:

Then the Lord said to Abraham, “Why did Sarah laugh and say, ‘will I really have a child now that I am old?’ Is anything too hard for the Lord?…. Genesis 18:13

This is so outlandish and speculative, and yet I feel an excitement about bearing more children—and no fear. Lord, when I have heard from You (like when the sheriff brought the subpoena and You spoke to me) I have peace and not fear. 

295 – A Trailer, a Workshop, and a Routine

295 – A Trailer, a Workshop, and a Routine

May 10, 1988

Dan saw an Airstream travel trailer for $5,600. School at Elim was winding down and our missions program was ending. We were pretty sure we were moving on. We were not sure of our destination, but we thought a trailer or a motor home might be the way to go wherever we were going. So we began to pray and look around, all the while knowing that we could not afford to purchase anything.

May 27, 1988

I went to a Greg Harris workshop. He’s a famous speaker who is outspoken about the value of  homeschooling and it was very encouraging. What impacted me was his challenge to dads: would your children follow you into the ark as Noah’s children did? Noah was the head of the home. He had integrity, he related to the family in such a way that they would follow him (as adults) wherever he led them. Later at home, I was looking at Dan and thinking, “Yes they would follow their dad, and so would I.”

June 24, 1988

We were now on a summer schedule. Timmy was home and most days the whole neighborhood was over at our house. But I really wanted to have a family routine, chore time, and Bible time with the boys. I also really wanted Timmy to get back into the family loop. I felt God had given me a revelation after I had read Ephesians 5:15-16:

See then that you walk circumspectly, not as fools but as wise, redeeming the time, because the days are evil.

Be very careful, Georgann—be wise, not foolish. Other people’s children can and should fit into your family’s lives, but carefully make decisions about when, who, how long.

So when Tina called me about watching her sons, I carefully chose 10:30 am. Then Vivian called for me to watch Darren at 8:30 am. I said yes foolishly out of peer pressure and friendship. But I decided that from now on, that early time is a priority for breakfast, chores, Tim and Steve reading to me, me reading Bible to all of them, and keeping my homeschool log daily. I am asking God to intervene this morning to help it go well.

Later: with much prayer, and with confidence, yet with trembling, I went into the day. Darren came and we continued with our schedule. I was polite yet firm to keep him from being silly and distracting us from our Bible study and our discussion of the evils of these days. It was an excellent discussion. We went to our reading of Pilgrim’s Progress. Then writing, then listening to Tim and Steve read to me. We went outside to wait for Tim’s friend and Tina’s boys. The morning went excellently—God certainly intervened on my behalf.

And to top off the day: Pastor Judy brought me deodorant!! Later we went strawberry picking—15 quarts!

Psalm 23 He has restored my soul in Livonia. Literally, green pastures and quiet waters have ministered to me. Thank You, Lord!

308 – Carrying a Vision – part 1

308 – Carrying a Vision – part 1

Without a vision the people perish. Proverbs 29:18

This verse is only quoted in this way in the King James Version. This is how I learned the verse 43 years ago and it has been a bedrock of my faith.

Bedrock (dictionary.com) = the fundamental principles on which something is based.

[to read 25 versions of this verse, or any other verse, google: Proverbs 29:18 Bible Hub.]

Here are a few of the definitions of vision on google.

1- having a vivid mental image &&

2- relating to a dream or a trance, a supernatural experience ^^

3- the act or power of anticipating what will come or may come to be++

4- the ability to think about and plan for the future using intelligence and imagination **

5- someone’s idea or hope of how something should be done or how it will be in the future. **

 

&& Google dictionary

^^  Google dictionary

++ dictionary.com

**online Macmillan Dictionary

To me, ‘without a vision the people perish’, means that my faith stays alive, it thrives, when I am pursuing the Lord with an idea in my mind which I believe is from Him. Having a vision brings purpose to my days because rather than be confined to merely the tasks at hand in the multitudinous days of bleak and boring daily life, I have a mysterious side issue.

When we became engaged, Dan and I agreed to give our family planning to God. It was #4 type of vision. We sat on my back porch steps and thought and planned for the future, and we agreed that since I was already in my early thirties and since we had no goal but to serve God, we thought it wise to put this important topic in His hands and trust Him. By the time we celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary we had a 1 month old newborn, and our other sons had just turned 2,4, and 5.

When we became engaged in May, I had already been accepted to begin Bible School in September in England. Rather than cancel, Dan decided to join up with my vision to study for more in depth Bible knowledge . We followed the vision through the weeks of our engagement and actively pursued our goal of Dan getting accepted at the school also. We were re-routed to their school in Germany and the registrar requested his paperwork and a payment as soon as possible. We spent five months of the first half year of our marriage in a foreign country in an English-speaking Bible School. This again was #4

In Bible School in Germany we caught school’s vision to go out into all the world to share the gospel. As a new Christian I had been interested in going to Africa. But since Dan had recently been to Japan he was very interested in taking his new faith to the Japanese people. We prayed, put out a fleece, and received the vision to visit several missionaries in Japan. The Lord provided the funds and Dan took time off work. Our son Tim turned one year old in ___ and I was pregnant with our son Steve. We spent 6 weeks in Japan.

To be continued… 

294 – Fasting for Answers–Got No Answers

294 – Fasting for Answers– Got No Answers

 

May, 1988

On Day 14 we ended the fast. I journaled our daily experience. We kept our life going normally, except I took shorter, slower walks. Our energy level roller coastered, so on day 8 we began taking one teaspoon of Barley Green in water. It took care of my leg cramps and I experienced increased stamina.

I noted on Day 11:  Very tired. Slept 9:15pm until 5:30am. No walk, prayed with Dan instead. Possibly will go on diluted juice 3x a day. Dan is. I will pray. At noon, diluted apple juice gave me strength for another busy day. We had Tim’s birthday party. I had no more weakness after the juice. My face looks thin and sort of old and haggard in the mirror. Dan almost blacked out in the afternoon. It scared him. His job at Southco is very strenuous and demanding. If he stops his fast, I will. It has been wonderful doing this together.

Dan recalls: Like a lot of fasts the fruit of that time of close communion with God was not quantifiable. It was a time to seek God without distraction. We had an extraordinarily open-line to God while we were in the fast and for some time after. We did not get a download of the blueprint of what to do next. We ended it with as many questions as we had when we began it, and we had done it in order to answer those questions. But I think it answered questions we didn’t ask. God assured us of His favor, and His partnership, and His covering. We do not go alone. Faith is substance. Jesus is alive, and making Him known is paramount. I had no qualms about ending it before the target of 21 days, no condemnation, no failure, no incomplete. We did what we did, and it was a great experience. I remember we ended it because I was looking at a piece of land with a client who wanted some plans drawn, and I had squatted down to look at something. When I stood up, I went blind for about 5 seconds, no vision. I figured I was pushing it far enough.

During those two weeks I increased my babysitting days (at Jodie’s request), Dan’s Aunt Yvonne came on Amtrak for a five day visit, I taught Sunday School, Dan began his Vacation Bible School project of building Noah’s ark, we had people over for dinner twice, I took the kids on a homeschool field trip to the science museum in Rochester–getting back in time to babysit the after-school bunch. I made friends with the local ‘notorious’ devil worshiper’s mom in the Laundromat. [The teen died last week in a tragic accident.] We had friendly fellowship and with my other Laundromat friend, Barbara, we agreed to meet next week.

Rejoice with those who rejoice and weep with those who weep. Romans 12:15

293 – No Waffles Today

293 – No Waffles Today

April 24, 1988

I felt like I heard the word ‘fast’ as I was coming down the stairs to breakfast. I tried hurriedly to eat a waffle. Every bite got ‘stuck’ in my throat, and then it was hard to swallow! I gave in and hurried upstairs to lay on the bed to rest and to listen.

I spoke to Dan, sensing that I felt the Lord was saying to do an extended fasting and prayer season in order to hear what He had to say about the next few years in our preparation to go to Japan.  A friend had given me a book, Your Appointment With God, by Gwen Shaw. I began reading it and began to have a great desire to fast and to get closer to My Father, to be able to love the unlovely, and to be set free of the bands of wickedness, to be free of the burdensome yoke on me. I was not experiencing any anxiety about fasting, which was further confirmation that this was of the Spirit and not of the flesh.

Dan was VERY interested.

I wanted to stay home from church and continue reading the book and pray. But instead I asked God to speak more to me at church.

We were now attending a church in our village, Livonia Community, that was up the street and that we walked to on non-icy Sundays.

Pastor Davis spoke on spiritual warfare and took us to Daniel 10:11-12. Of course, the idea of a Daniel fast came to my mind which confirmed my desire to fast 21 days. Praise God.

Dan was in full agreement and we prayed. I whizzed up some vegetables and we had some soup and this became the first day of our fast.

Is this not the fast that I have chosen: to loose the bonds of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, to let the oppressed go free, and that you break every yoke? Is it no to share your bread with the hungry, and that you bring to your house the poor who are cast out…. Isaiah 58:6-7a

Then your light shall break forth like the morning, your healing shall spring forth speedily, and your righteousness shall go before you; the glory of the Lord shall be your rear guard. Then shall you call, and the Lord will answer; You shall cry, and He will say, ‘Here I am.’ Isaiah 58: 8-9

That was what we wanted: every yoke broken…and ANSWERS to our cries.