339 – Here’s My Heart, Lord

339 – Here’s My Heart, Lord

February 2, 1989 Bridgemont, SF

God led me to Proverbs 2 and I began to cry out for wisdom, insight, and understanding.

My son, if you accept my words
    and store up my commands within you,
turning your ear to wisdom
    and applying your heart to understanding—
indeed, if you call out for insight
    and cry aloud for understanding,
and if you look for it as for silver
    and search for it as for hidden treasure,
then you will understand the fear of the Lord
    and find the knowledge of God.
For the Lord gives wisdom;
    from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
He holds success in store for the upright,
    he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
for he guards the course of the just
    and protects the way of his faithful ones.

I laid out before the Lord all the pondering and the full awareness of my deceitful heart and my ability in the flesh to go on with this for 3 ½ years—but that MY TRUE DESIRES were to become pregnant. I remember well the Spirit’s prayer through me years ago: that He would use us to speak out against abortion in whatever way He chose. I felt it was very bold, very Spirit; but the Spirit was moving and it was easy to step into it—and I meant it with all my heart.

I am putting my trust in God for giving me wisdom and insight, reducing the stress in my life by speaking to me a yea or nay about this, for speaking my heart to Dan as soon as possible.

It was well and good to desire a pregnancy, even at my age, 43. The challenge was that Dan had had a vasectomy after our fourth son was born. I knew God could over-ride the surgeon’s handiwork. No doubts whatsoever. But I didn’t want my will to be done. If it truly was a God-thing, I wanted Dan to be on board and so determined to talk to him about it, again. Over the years I have learned, God doesn’t mock our wildest, craziest dreams. He is right there with us as we walk it out.

338 – New Digs

338 –New Digs

January 28, 1989 Bridgemont, SF

The blessings of this new apartment:

*We have access to a phone (downstairs).

*It is Japanese size (we are identifying with Japanese living).

*The boys are in their sleeping bags taking turns on the floor and the two couches. They love it! It feels like more adventure!

*$450 rent rather than $750 (this also includes all utilities).

*We have a Japanese neighbor.

*There is a missionary to Japan down the hall!

*The Red Room on the main floor of this wing is available for our use for entertaining and for the boys to play in!

*We have access to the indoor swimming pool.

*We will be able to have fellowship with our neighbors; the previous apartment had its own entrance and was isolated, and very dark.

*This deal may include the room and bathroom across the hall, which would answer our prayer for guest accommodations.

We were invited to be on staff at the SF Foursquare church. Praying about it. Our pastor, Mike Woodman, has spoken with Pastor Dave. We were asked to be the Missions Coordinators which includes having a care group and meetings with Mike and Joyce.

February 1

As we were beginning our day, Dan mentioned that his friend, Delmus, was born to his mother at age 53.

Also as I was looking in my concordance, the word PREGNANT electrified on the page and jumped out at me.

337 – Nighttime Fears

337 – Nighttime Fears

January 27, 1989 Bridgemont, San Francisco

Yesterday the news was that there was a strange person on the grounds.

The day before that it was that a person desperately needing a place to spend the night.

Then last night a lady’s screaming woke us up. Fear gripped me as I lay awake…and then guilt at not helping any of them.

This morning I was disappointed and angry at myself, and still fearful.

But God’s Word totally erased all of it. There is power in the Word.

Luke 10:18-19 He replied, “I saw Satan fall like lightening from heaven. I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions, and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you. Hallelujah!

I happily went alone on my morning prayer walk with the Lord.

Trial: Apprehension about our new apartment. We are moving today and sleeping in the other apartment tonight. Dan, bless his heart, cleaned the stove, the fridge, and fixed the gas leak. Our bed will be in the bathroom. Weird. This old building is strange. Very strange. We cleaned, we thanked God that we are inside for the winter. 

January 28

We moved everything in two hours and had the old apartment cleaned. The boys were a tremendous help. We got them to bed (after a Mexican treat) and GRACE came like a flood. This is the Lord’s blessing for us, and we love it.

Later: There is not enough space, even for our very meager possessions. There are a few cupboards in the kitchen but we have no dressers. So we set our eyes on the seen rather than the unseen, and trust the Lord.

We went to Babu’s and Asceda’s for lunch. 

336 – The Spring of Living Water is My Lord

336 – The Spring of Living Water is My Lord

January 17, 1989 Bridgemont, SF

Jeremiah 17:13 …the Lord, the spring of living water…

Jeremiah 2:13 …Me, the spring of living water…

John 4:10 Jesus answered her, “If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked Him and He would have given you living water.

John 7:37-38 (Jesus) …If anyone is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink. Whoever believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within. By this He meant the Spirit, whom those who believed in Him were later to receive.

My Lord Jesus, You who are LIVING WATER, rejuvenate me according to Your generous Word. I’m so glad to know You.

I read recently that as we sing praises, it is like taking a drink of living water, and we are refreshed.

335 – A Hope-filled Word

335 – A Hope-filled Word

January 8, 1989 Sunday morning, after Sunday School – at San Francisco Foursquare Church

Before church (before the previous post) I suggested to Dan that we load up the laundry, fix a snack for the kids, and expect God to provide for us to do the laundry. We also prayed he would provide lunch and dinner. 

After Sunday School, Joyce (the pastor’s wife) came over to me—Georgann, do you and Dan need food or money?!! (She was going out with her family and the guest speaker, Dick Mills, for lunch.) She gave us the key to their house, told us what foods we could eat in the fridge, and said to feel free to eat whatever was in the cupboards. She encouraged us to do our laundry because they would be gone for a few hours. She wrote out the directions–they live in a house in Daly City!

GOD USED HER AGAIN! You are amazing, God!

Then during the main service when Dick Mills asked Pastor Mike and Joyce who needed a word, she chose us first!

This was the Word of the Lord to us:

As the tide goes out, the tide comes in. There will be compensation for the last three years of trials and testing. There will be 3 years of relief for the trauma, there will be TERRIFIC, there will be equal time.

Wow! We are blessed at how much Jesus loves us. He acknowledged that we had been living on the edge! He affirmed us. He gave us hope for relief.

334 – A Comforting Word with a Kind Correction

Dear Reader – I last posted 6 weeks ago. I’m back and will resume our stories. Thanks for reading my blog. Love your comments! ~g

334 – A Comforting Word with a Kind Correction

January 8, 1989 Sunday School

A wonderful teaching from the pastor’s wife, Joyce Woodman, from Philippians 4, which I felt was directly aimed at me by the Holy Spirit, and which I will embrace immediately:

     *Because we want men to think well of us we want to broadcast what we’ve done and boast about ourselves. She suggests we keep it with Jesus. We are to keep the ‘spoiled brat’ (the flesh) in harness. I need to consistently put everything onto Christ who strengthens me.

     *The more I am crying out to Him, the more I am leaning on Him, the more I see my weaknesses and give them over to Him, He will impart His strength. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

*Worry is hoping things will turn out a certain way, but instead PRAISE—PUT EVERYTHING INTO PRAISE.

     *He wants me to be liberated from myself. Trials push me to the feet of Jesus. The key to making this work is rejoicing and praising = my part.

     *Have an attitude of receiving: NOT ‘oh, you shouldn’t have’ or ‘oh, I hate to be the one who is always receiving.’

    *Gifts are to be received as a “fragrant offering, an acceptable sacrifice, pleasing to God.”

Thank You, Jesus, for this very basic truth that will be life changing as I practice walking in it. 

 I remember several months ago in Livonia, when we were given the motor home, the owner told me that my response to the gift was to be a gracious THANK YOU, and not my words: “This is too much, it’s too hard to accept this kindness.”

I’m getting it, Jesus….