258 – Listening for God’s Direction

258 – Listening for God’s Direction

February 17 and 18, 1987

Dan said yesterday he wanted to call Pastor Dave to see if maybe he had a prophetic word for us that would give us some guidance. Should we continue here on this course or return home to Reno…

Today Pastor Dave called us!

Dan did not share specifics with Dave because we want to hear from the Lord, not get man’s advice. Nothing definitive transpired. He asked what he could do for us, Dan said pray. 

When my mom asked yesterday how the money situation was, I said fine.

We’re depending on God, not man. He will come through with job and provision and clear direction.

In the news from home, Pastor Dave, a former policeman, said that the youth activities area in the juvenile department of the jail is open to and welcoming the Christian message! They have so many youth on drugs they know they need outside help with the kids.

Friends of ours are selling their house and business and going into full-time ministry in a nearby town. I am stirred! Happy for them. Things are happening in Reno.

But living in Livonia has been such a refuge for me. A healing place. It’s not easy to think of letting go of it.

And the Lord opened her (Lydia’s) heart to respond to the things spoken by Paul. Acts 16:14

Open my heart to the things of the Spirit as I read Your word today!

Now while Paul was waiting for them at Athens, his spirit was being provoked within him as he was beholding the city full of idols. Acts 17:16

Paul was provoked by the many idols in the city and my spirit was greatly provoked as I watched the Transcendental Meditation video in the Cults class. I finally had to leave.

It’s still amazing to me how when I read in the Bible it relates to my life so perfectly.

248 – His Death for Me

248 – His Death for Me

December 28, 1986

Jesus said to the disciples when He asked them to pray about what was ahead:

Pray that you may not enter into temptation. Luke 22:40

And again He said: Why are you sleeping? Rise and pray that you may not enter into temptation. v 46

I confess sleeping instead of praying all to often, Lord. I repent. Bring the grace and strength I need, PLEASE. Be faithful to Yourself because You live in me!

A couple of days ago as I was reviewing Galatians 2:20:

I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me.

A scenario popped into my mind that God was leading me on a journey—it was me walking The Way of the Cross. I was taking accusations that I deserved, taking beatings that I deserved because of sin in my life; people in the crowd were jeering from hatefulness—real people with faces—representing those whom I had spoken idle words against or had wounded or had ‘killed’ with gossip or accusations. They put the crown on me and laughed. They wounded me and pushed me and made me carry the cross—and made me get up on it—and I DESERVED to be on it.

Yet it was only like a dream because My Savior went in my place and took all of this FOR ME so I do not have to take it. I get the benefits of His substitutionary death.

In return, I give You my life to use as You see fit.

245 – ‘Tis the Season to Trust Him

245 – ‘Tis the Season to

Trust Him

December 24, 1986 – Christmas Eve Day

The pressures of a messy unorganized house, Christmas errands yet to do, a few more cards to write, bows to tie on the tree, excited children—all with colds, 3 with varying stages of flu—a husband out of work (on his 3rd day of fasting and prayer). We still have no vehicle of our own, but Praise God, the Greenman’s car is ‘ours’ till Sunday. Christmas dinner plans had to be cancelled because of our flu and theirs, but a turkey and all the trimmings were given to us by the local churches! AND we have a smoked turkey sent from California by Connie and Jerry! 

With all of this—I guess I ‘deserve’ to be ‘under the circumstances.’ (that was my flesh!!)

BUT a desperate cry to my Lord in the shower, prayers from Dan, and—I can see clearly again, and HEAR what You have to say to me!

I will encourage myself in the Lord as Dan is doing, with psalms.

Selected verses from Psalms:

Oh taste and see that the Lord is GOOD; blessed is the man who TRUSTS in Him! 34:8

The EYES of the Lord are on the righteous, and His EARS are open to their cry. 34:15

The GOODNESS of God endures CONTINUALLY. 52:1b

I will praise Your name, O Lord, for it is GOOD.

For He has DELIVERED me out of all trouble. 54:6b, 7a

Whenever I am afraid, I will TRUST in You. In God (I WILL PRAISE HIS WORD), In God I have put my TRUST; I will not fear. What can flesh do to me? 56:3-4

Be merciful to me, O God, be merciful to me! For my soul TRUSTS in You; and in the shadow of Your wings I will make my refuge, until these CALAMITIES have passed by. 57:1

Merry Christmas!

218 – Putting My Faith in Christ

218 Putting My Faith in Christ

October 12, 1986

Meeting my fears and anxieties and inadequacies through the Word of God….

Which – I told Julie yesterday—I base my life on.

It is no longer I who live now, but Christ who lives in me. Galatians 2:20

Faithful is he who calls you who also will do it. 1 Thessalonians 5:24

Ye are dead and your life is hidden in Christ with God. Colossians 3:3

A dead man is free of worry and introspection!

I put my faith in Christ in me.

Christ in you the hope of glory. Colossians 1:27

I turn from ME to YOU, Jesus. You live in me and I believe right now that You will live out this day through me. I will keep praising YOU, I will keep believing in Your faithfulness. I believe Your power will empower me to be kind and gracious. Thank You!!

216 – Praising Him Makes a Difference

216- Praising Him Makes a Difference

October 5, 1986

Last night Tim, 8, and Stevie, 7, and I went to Elim to watch a missionary movie about Rochunga Podaite, a Moora Indian in northern India. It was called Beyond the Next Mountain.* It was impactful to all of us. It was fun to have a movie night with my wonderful sons.

October 6

Dan left at 6:15 am and will not be home till 10:30 pm.

It has been quite an amazing day of walking with God, being lifted by Him. I’ve been mostly peaceful—flowing with our school day, even making it interesting and not being so hard nose.

PRAISE TO MY GOD!

It’s 9 pm and I still feel awake and interested in reading my Isaiah chapters and then Swindoll’s ‘Serve’ book. Praising lightens the load.

I do believe God’s grace has lifted me—and I do believe the continuing insistence on praising Him has lifted me. May I never stray from singing Your praises. May I live moment by moment with You, My Lord!

*In 1910 a missionary spent only 5 days with the Hmar people who were called the “worst headhunters” of northern India. A few people were saved and one man believed his son could be used by God to bring the Bible to their people. It’s a great story, 1 ½ hours, on YouTube.

* Chuck Swindoll, Improving Your Serve, 1981.

204 ~ A Continual Choice

204 – A Continual Choice

July 25, 1986

Our new friend Leslie came over and talked some more. Her deceased husband was a troubled soul, she said. She and her son are devastated. May You guard my mouth at all times by giving me wisdom and discernment, Lord!

I called the Superintendent’s office and got him! I had been stressed about our appointment and yet had not hesitated to cancel it yesterday when Leslie sat in my living room. I explained to him the last-minute cancellation. He sounded compassionate. But he also seemed stern and businesslike.

July 30

Depression and fear have been hovering around me because it feels like the Superintendent holds power over me!

I realized on my walk that I can embrace God and walk with Him or I can choose an anxious and negative attitude and darkness.

Today I will meet with the Superintendent at 9am.

I have been reading daily in Exodus. Then on Sunday at church I was convicted of not being in the Word enough, so I decided to read daily in the New Testament as well.

This morning I was dumbfounded when I read:

1 Peter:13 Submit yourselves for the Lord’s sake to every human institution, whether to a king as the one in authority…

 15 for such is the will of God that by doing right you may silence the ignorance of foolish men.

Romans 13:1 Every person is to be in subjection to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those which exist are established by God.

These verses enabled me to be humble and submissive during the important meeting, not defensive and afraid. I will trust that You will use this man and his position for the best course we are to take.

Lord, that was amazing that I got those three verses on this exact day without having any other purpose but to hear Your voice. Amazing!

Thank You for reminding me of Your viewpoint about the world’s structure and my place in it! Thank You that I am able to hear you speak and by Your grace follow Your leading!

Mr. Deloria wants Tim and Steve tested at the school to determine their proficiency in reading and math. Then he will decide if the boys will be placed in school or if our methods are working and they can continue with home education. I am a little rattled, I admit.

190 – Getting, Giving, and Forgiving

 190 – Getting, Giving, and Forgiving

May 28, 1986

One more week before we leave for New York.

Dan now has 3 moving crates for our all of our worldly goods, which will be loaded on the high school teacher’s flat bed and transported to Livonia, NY. Dan is pleased with them and with the price. One cost $5 and the other two cost $20 each.

Dan took several of our plants to Hydraulic Depot, our friend Jim’s business. Today when I called, the girl who is always such a crabby person on the phone was friendly! Dan said she was overjoyed when he brought the plants. We learned a lesson in softening people’s hearts—bless them!!

Our house on LaRue was snuggled in between 3 apartment buildings. Many of our neighbors worked at the casinos downtown, a few blocks away, and slept during the day. It was a challenge to get the boys and their friends to play quietly outside as they raced around our house, running or on their big wheels.

I apologized to the man with the orange truck who lives next door to us.  I felt the time was right as I saw him sitting on his front step reading. First I went to Dan and he prayed for me.

“Excuse me, but we’re moving and I want to be sure to apologize before we go, for the episode the other day. I know the kids get noisy and I was defensive because I work so hard at having them be quiet.” He replied,  “Well, kids ARE noisy and Mom’s ought to be defensive toward their kids.”

He was gracious and forgiving and grateful for the apology.

I was repentant and humble and sincere.

And I was relieved that he had not argued with me and sorry we had not made friends sooner.

189 – What Goes Around Comes Around and the Lord Provides

189 – What Goes Around Comes Around

and the Lord Provides

May 28, 1986

Today one of our church friends, Pam P, brought her sons to our house to play with the boys while our goal was to mend and sew. Actually, I tended the kids, changed bobbins, made popcorn, passed out popsicles, while she pinned and patched rips in Levis and sewed sleeping bag liners on the machine. Dan figured the kids might not be showering every night as we travel across the country and that liners would help preserve their sleeping bags.

Pam mentioned our clothes would be inadequate for the frigid winter that we were headed for in upstate NY. She said her husband’s uncle was a furrier and that he had given her a beautiful fur coat that was amazingly warm. She offered it to me.

She had an interesting story about the fur coat, which she felt proved that God had actually saved that coat for me!

Two years ago they tried to sell the fur coat at a garage sale and it did not sell. The proceeds of that sale paid their rent. The next month they still had no money, and wrote a check by faith which they could not cover.  An envelope arrived with money in it and a return address which they later realized was the church’s post office box number. The message inside said, “God cares for His own.” Their rent check did not bounce, and she said it really built their faith.

WE SENT THAT MONEY TO THEM! I remember clearly Dan putting $350 cash in an envelope with the note I typed! Of course I didn’t tell her, but here she was serving me in my time of need and promising me her beautiful fur coat! She said they had never told anyone, that only God knew! 

Yesterday a note and money came from Bonnie M—another person in our church we had given money to when they were in a pinch.

God is reminding me—freely freely you gave, open your hands to receive blessings NOW ! Don’t hesitate in any way to say YES to every blessing God sends your way!

When we prayed tonight, Dan teared up.

177- Be Like Jesus: Do Good and Heal the Sick

177- Be Like Jesus: Do Good and Heal the Sick

December 10, 1985 – 6am

Mark 2:23-3:5 Walk in the Spirit and do good.

            3:10 The people saw Him heal others before their eyes—“they all pressed about Him in order to touch Him and be healed.”

            3:12 Jesus must have been frustrated by the disobedience of the unclean spirits revealing His identity.

            3:13-14 He chose 12 to teach them how to preach and cast out demons

            3:25 He doesn’t not want us to be “a house divided against itself.”

            3:27 He wants the strong man bound.

            3:35 He didn’t so much deny his mother and brother, but took everyone else in who loved and Him and obeyed God.

            4:20 Be good ground for the Word, accept it, and let it bear fruit.

                   (verse 19) Don’t be distracted by affliction or by the worries of the world or the luring of deceitful riches.

            4:39 He wants us not to be intimidated by the elements. To trust Him.

Later: Mary, from next door, and I went to get the Christmas tree! They are not living in the apartment but are salvaging what they can from the ashes. She was happy to purchase our tree and the boys were ecstatic.

Sandra (young neighbor) (v.(came to make a Christmas craft. The boys like her a lot and they had fun sitting at our restaurant booth kitchen table coloring and cutting and gluing. Tomorrow we will go to Jackie’s and make popcorn balls. Next week we’ll go to my parent’s for the holidays.

172- Back on Track for Bible School – Part 2

172- Back on Track for Bible School – Part 2

December 2, 1985

The next 3 guideposts in Mahoney’s pamphlet were:

5- CIRCUMSTANTIAL EVIDENCE – we had dialogue with Elim housing personnel and they had a house for us; the office manager put Dan’s application forward to the committee even though he had not received Dan’s Bodenseehof Bible School transcripts and we were accepted by the board to become students. Also, our pastor believed in us, and our church was missions minded.

6- THE PEACE OF GOD – I had peace and readiness to cross the country with all of our worldly goods in my 8th month of pregnancy with our sons ages 4, 3, and 2.

7- PROVISION – We were slim on provision, but felt our church would step up to help us get to New York, and Dan could get a job once we were there.

I felt we had 5 and 7 but Dan never felt THE PEACE OF GOD again after the counsel of his elder friends who strongly advised him to stay.

After waiting and praying for weeks, last night I FINALLY felt right about asking Dan what he thought of Mahoney’s pamphlet. I related my thoughts and reminded him that Mahoney says: if anything comes BEFORE inward conviction, confusion results.

Dan was completely receptive to all of this! It was if the blinders came off his eyes. He related that he had just been thinking today about how much he wants to serve God. He has been doing a lot of studying about missions for his four Sunday talks about missions on Sunday nights at church. Also, Sunday morning, the building inspector CAME TO CHURCH!!! He had given the church a HARD time during inspections so we had him on the church prayer chain. Toward the end of the building project he softened a little after Dan invited him to the Dedication and he came! TODAY AFTER SERVICE HE TOLD DAN HE FELT DRUNK! Dan told him he was drunk with the Holy Spirit. He said he will definitely be back. Dan was SO encouraged by this. This is the most important business on earth, bringing others to Jesus Christ. Also, we had found out that this man has a horrible reputation around town. God touched him.

back to 5- CIRCUMSTANTIAL EVIDENCE – I felt that when the church took a collection a few months ago and GAVE us the Suburban that Dan had had his eyes on for months that it was circumstantial evidence. The car was a thank you gift to Dan for building the church and for me for letting him! The vehicle is the kind we wanted to make the drive to NY.

back to 6- THE PEACE OF GOD – Today after church we prayed together on our knees and surrendered ourselves once again to God’s will for us. We asked Him to put this together.

We are waiting, trusting, praying…