258 – Listening for God’s Direction

258 – Listening for God’s Direction

February 17 and 18, 1987

Dan said yesterday he wanted to call Pastor Dave to see if maybe he had a prophetic word for us that would give us some guidance. Should we continue here on this course or return home to Reno…

Today Pastor Dave called us!

Dan did not share specifics with Dave because we want to hear from the Lord, not get man’s advice. Nothing definitive transpired. He asked what he could do for us, Dan said pray. 

When my mom asked yesterday how the money situation was, I said fine.

We’re depending on God, not man. He will come through with job and provision and clear direction.

In the news from home, Pastor Dave, a former policeman, said that the youth activities area in the juvenile department of the jail is open to and welcoming the Christian message! They have so many youth on drugs they know they need outside help with the kids.

Friends of ours are selling their house and business and going into full-time ministry in a nearby town. I am stirred! Happy for them. Things are happening in Reno.

But living in Livonia has been such a refuge for me. A healing place. It’s not easy to think of letting go of it.

And the Lord opened her (Lydia’s) heart to respond to the things spoken by Paul. Acts 16:14

Open my heart to the things of the Spirit as I read Your word today!

Now while Paul was waiting for them at Athens, his spirit was being provoked within him as he was beholding the city full of idols. Acts 17:16

Paul was provoked by the many idols in the city and my spirit was greatly provoked as I watched the Transcendental Meditation video in the Cults class. I finally had to leave.

It’s still amazing to me how when I read in the Bible it relates to my life so perfectly.

257 – More Time with My Boys

257 – More Time

with My Boys

February 4, 1987

I woke up at 2:30am concerned about Stevie, feeling I’m so busy I don’t just sit and listen and play with him and his brothers. I had a few ideas on how to help each of them: an old idea that each boy could get a turn to go alone with Dan , then with me the next time, to the diner down the street, for a milkshake or something. Walk, hold hands, chat.

also: I could ask Carleen if I could bring one boy at a time to spend the morning with her boys while I am at class at Elim.

also: skip a homeschool subject once in a while to play a game with one boy.

May God help me. Why do I know He will? He always does.

Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. Psalm 37:5

The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in his way. Psalm 37:23

256 – Stay or Go Home

256 – Stay or Go Home

February 1, 1987 5am

Dan woke up with a vision of a jar with a vacuum in it—sucking his hands, rendering him helpless. It related to his friend in the mental institution. It struck fear into Dan’s heart. He felt it was definitely a warning to get out of this relationship. We obviously cannot help this friend.

I believe that Dan has been trying to save someone who does not want to be saved. And that this has put us in a place of impotency. It has clouded his present judgment. 

Such a tragic situation for this couple and for the rest of us. But our God restores.

Dan has been talking of leaving Elim in the middle of this semester. He had thought of not signing up for any classes at all so we could leave easily. As he shared this I felt peace though I was a little dismayed at moving on so soon from this wonderful place.

Show us the way, Lord.

Psalm 34:1 I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth.

7 The angel of the Lord encamps all around those who fear Him, and delivers them.

O LORD, lead me in Your righteousness because of my foes; make Your way straight before me. Psalm 5:8

246 – Repenting of a Bad Attitude

246 – Repenting of a Bad Attitude

December 27, 1986

Much repenting of my bad bad attitude, and still more to do.

I had three calls on Christmas day! Mom, Susie, and Karen. I cast my cares on Karen!! She called back the next day but I was out shopping with Tim and Stevie. She was very concerned about me and suspicious that the spirits that are bothering our neighbors were affecting us adversely—and she was frightened for me.

Dan recalled an “evil, beastie-looking thing” appearing the night before!—which he had neglected to tell me about! So we took Karen’s suggestion and prayed through the house. Then we prayed again at night.

Today was much better.

Also, I did devotions with the kids yesterday morning and asked Dan if he would join us. I turned to “do all things without grumbling or disputing” (Philippians 2:14) and the whole verse was perfect. We had all just read an Arch book about the seeds falling on various types of ground, so we prayed our hearts would be GOOD ground and would receive the Word of God.

We also laid down the law that their behavior HAD to change. As a result, the last two days have been gloriously happy and positive. It’s like a huge burden lifted!

Philippians 2:14-16 Do all things without complaining and disputing, that you may become blameless and harmless, children of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world, holding fast the word of life, so that I may rejoice in the day of Christ that I have not run in vain or labored in vain.

We are holding fast to the word of life. We are holding fast to Jesus.        

222 -Believe and Be Saved

222 – Believe and Be Saved

October 22, 1986

I have been reading my Bible and praying, more than writing in my journal. Praise God, it has been GOOD.

I have seen God taking over in me and in the circumstances!

Swindoll’s book, Improving Your Serve: When God is in control of the servant’s mind…life’s greatest joy is to give His love away. (paraphrased)

Fill me up today, Lord, moment by moment, so I can give Your love away.

Help me see the pitfalls that await me and remind me to call on You to get me up and over them and on the other side!!

And thank You for the invention of the telephone—we heard from Danny P, Auntie Bev, and my parents. So much love flowing our way…

Tim and Daniel stayed at the Pletcher’s while Dan and I took Steve and Mark to the Billy Graham movie, Cry From the Mountain. Both boys went forward when the invitation was given! Halleljuah!

Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and you will be saved, you and your household. Acts 16:31

40- Leery of Reading the Word

40- Leery of Reading the Word

February 8, 1979

Problem: Fear about reading the Word, in studying, and in doing devotions—that I will be led astray. Lack of full trust and dependence on the Holy Spirit—my heart says: remember what happened before and how far you got into a lie (when I believed as a new Christian that God was telling me that I was going to marry a particular person and I was derailed….)

Lord, I just want to hear from you...
Lord, I just want to hear from you…

Realization: I did not have awareness then in my first few months of being a new believer of my deceitful heart. I was immature. I did not know the difference between my voice building me up and the spirit of the evil one (I will be God, I will be lifted up) and the spirit of submission to the almighty Lord, the spirit of humility.

Application: Joshua 6:1-20 God gave a promise. God gave instructions. God expected obedience and God would give victory. OBEDIENCE isn’t an OPTION. Trust and obey. For me: the promise of a child who is a reward [The fruit of the womb is His reward. Ps 127:3]  –and is who is blessed. Walk by faith. Trust Him. Obey Him. ‘Don’t shout’ means to me: don’t complain, murmur, worry aloud, doubt aloud. Take your woes to Daddy and your heart should be abundant with faith in Him.

25- Our Courtship

25- Our Courtship

Our hero, Dan, having recently returned to his home town, Reno, found himself falling in love.

A back story that is relevant: The first time Al came into the place Dan was working, the way the light was shining through the windows behind him, Dan thought an angel had just entered the room. It seemed at the time like an unusual supernatural experience.

Dan was working in his brother’s shop but also looking for a full-time job. When Al realized that Dan had been in construction he invited him to relocate and to work with him in building his house in Colorado. Dan was still recovering from his divorce, so the job offer filled a need and it was indeed a life-line. Within a few months, Dan became born again. By the time the job ended and Dan felt the Lord’s leading to return home, Al and Barbara thought of Dan as a son and protectively wanted to be sure his brand new faith in God would be nourished.

Dan found refuge in our warehouse church, where he was quickly embraced. Wanting to serve, he worked at several janitorial jobs, kept the tape notebook in order, worked the transparency machine during worship, and taught a Sunday School class. The friendships he made and the many church activities became an exciting new life. In the men’s fellowship meetings he learned about being a Christian husband, teaching him many things he hadn’t known in his first marriage.

We met in October and had been becoming very good friends since then. I was learning to trust men again, after all of my cavorting as a divorcé. Continue reading “25- Our Courtship”

19-The Prodigal Daughter Runs Home

19-The Prodigal Daughter Runs Home

In my soul-searching over my dad’s slide into alcoholism, it seemed imperative that I talk to someone about my confusion and my questions as soon as possible.

Looking around at the people in my life, I beheld the merrymakers in the bars, my partying girlfriends, and the teachers I knew.

There were two women on the faculty who stood out.

When I expressed an interest in finding out more about her relationship with God, Raina*, who seemed like a very spiritual woman, invited me to dinner. After dessert she excitedly led me into a room where there were exhibited on a dresser top several small pictures depicting Mohammed, Krishna, Buddha, Jesus, and some other religious figures.

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16-Summer in Hawaii Was My Pig Pen

16-Summer in Hawaii Was My Pig Pen 

I was getting more and more entrenched in riotous living, described in various Bible translations as: foolish living, wild living, living wastefully.

…the younger son gathered everything together and went on a journey into a distant country, and there he squandered his estate with loose living. Luke 15:13 NASB

This description barely fits but it gets the point across. I was the oldest daughter, not the youngest son. The wealth that I possessed was not monetary, but consisted of decent looks, purity, and adequate intelligence. I went on a journey in 1965 to the distant country called Living for Myself –also called Rebellion Against God.

I misused the character traits and qualities my parents and my God had instilled in me. I engaged in loose living. Loose living as described on Interglot.com is defined as moral laxity.

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