114- We Are Blessed!

114- We are blessed!

November 1, 1983

I went to Dr. Ruiz and had a positive urine test! I’m pregnant! Due in June.

God, You have definitely been preparing me and as I look at You I am at peace and in joy. In September I suspected, but with Mark being sick and in the hospital I was so distracted and stressed, I could not be sure.

When I consider facing my parents and 95% of my Christian friends my blood runs cold because they will see us as foolish. SPEAK, LORD. I NEED A RHEMA FROM YOU!

HEBREWS 10:38 Now the just shall live by faith; but if anyone draws back, My soul has no pleasure in him.

Habakkuk 2:4c But the just shall live by his faith.

Dan gave me: Psalm 23:3b He leads me in the paths of righteous for HIS NAMESAKE.

It is for Jesus’ namesake that I go this way—hallelujah!

Tynale Commentary on the Bible on Psalm 23:3: The righteous one (whether an individual or a group) who belongs to God and whose trust continues in God and His promises SHALL LIVE, i.e., shall survive the present trial and receive His eternal reward. If, however, he DRAWS BACK THROUGH fear, God shall have no pleasure in him.

Dan also gave me: Psalm 128:1-4 Blessed is everyone who fears the Lord, who walks in His ways….Your wife shall be like a fruitful vine in the very heart of your house, your children like olive plants all around your table. Behold thus shall the man be blessed who fears the Lord.

Our sons were 4, 3, and 1 when I had the positive pregnancy test! And, yes, people’s mouths fell open as the word got around that baby #4 was due in June.

As I re-read this post of my journal entries, I sound a little like a kook! But Dan and I have walked by faith our entire experience with Jesus. We have wanted to hear from Him and we have wanted to please Him by obeying Him. If others did not understand us, it was hard to bear sometimes, but it was okay. He always made sure we had at least one or two people who got it –because they lived that way also, or because they wished they could live in that kind of faith and they admired us for doing it. As the years have passed, we have matured, and we still walk by faith, seeking Him, listening and waiting for His word.

111- A Letter from Susan

111- A Letter from Susan

I received this letter within a few weeks of Jeanette’s letter (blog #110). I felt it was very sweet of Jesus to balance the first one out with the second one. He is always very gentle with me.

Susan was another special friend in our church. Praise God, I had not insulted her! She packs a lot into this letter: encouragement that I had strength and wisdom, and assurance that I would give no condemnation; that I was approachable and real and would not judge her. And even an offer to babysit! This is a cherished word, even as I read it today.

July 1983

Dear Georgann, You may think it’s a little strange to get a letter like this, but I really feel like you need some encouragement and I write a lot better than I talk.

For several months I’ve had a gut feeling about going to you with worries or confusion about several things because I feel instinctively that you have a lot of strength and no-nonsense wisdom to apply to areas where I am far too emotional to be objective. I also thought of you because I felt no matter how you saw the issue, even to the point of setting me straight if necessary, that I would not be subjected to any personal condemnation.

When Bobby and I realized we had to take some drastic action to make our marriage work, we had a lot of options and a wide range of people to choose from but both felt he should talk to Dan because you two are making it in the midst of the nitty-gritty of life, rather than making it because there are no problems. And of no less importance, you are approachable and real, and we felt we would suffer the least amount of embarrassment (Christians aren’t supposed to have marital problems).

The only reason I haven’t come to you before is that I haven’t seen an opportunity to talk privately. I probably should have made an opportunity.

At any rate, I don’t think you’re seeing yourself accurately (remember our hearts deceive even ourselves) and what I see is a calm strength and depth of character that is much to be envied.

Lastly, if you want to ditch the kids for an afternoon, I have a big yard and a little dog who just adores kids.

Sincerely,

Susan

99- Chapel by the Sea and a Fleece

99- Chapel by the Sea

and a Fleece

We visited my parents and attended the church, Chapel by the Sea, that was pastored by the man who married us. I wrote this the next day:

April 18, 1983

I was worried that God was not getting through to us—that He wanted to speak to us and direct us, but we’d missed it. So I put out a little fleece before the Lord, as to whether Dan was hearing Him rightly. The answer was: YES he was.

That devil is goading me to doubt that God will make sure we get the message He is trying to give us. But Dan heard it.

I rebuke you, Doubt, in the name of Jesus Christ!

Today: Psalm 48:14 For this God is our God forever and ever. He will be our guide even unto death! Amen

We continuously seek Him.

This verse is TRUE for us. Amen

98- Golly, He’s Wrong!

98- Golly, He’s Wrong!

We attended a Navigator’s Conference:

March 31, 1983

I have been so encouraged. The workshop on “How to Make Christ the Center of Your Life” showed me He IS the center of my life. I make mistakes and fail—get off track, but He is my center point. Praise You, Lord!

“How to saturate your life with the Word: *have regular unhurried, note-taking quiet-time in the Word; memorize the word; meditate on the Word.

I am doing these.

I am okay. I am okay. Georgann is in the groove with God. This has greatly helped my deep self esteem. The devil continually says I am lacking and condemns me. But, golly. He is wrong on that point.

Thank You, Lord for letting me go to this meeting.

A wonderful verse–a wonderful encouragement to banish fear:

Psalm 1:2-3 But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and in His law he meditates day and night. He shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season, whose leaf also shall not wither; and whatever he does shall prosper.

95- Guilty of Faultfinding!

95- Guilty of Faultfinding!

A little article in Guideposts magazine by Catherine Marshall brought a big conviction!

Catherine Marshall was the wife of Peter Marshall a famous Presbyterian pastor who also served as Chaplain of the Senate in Washington DC. She is known for her writings of fiction, non-fiction, and books she edited of her husband’s sermons and prayers. Her best known books are: A Man Called Peter, which was on the NY Bestseller’s List for three years in the 1950’s, and Christy, the story of her mother’s years as a teacher of children in the Appalachians.

February 24, 1983

One day, Catherine asked the Lord if He had any special word for her that day. He told her she was to fast from faultfinding, to accept people as they were and to drop her judgment of them.

Catherine wrote that she was inclined to be a perfectionist, meaning critical of herself and others—“a habit that tends toward judgment.”

She proposed that the cessation of faultfinding leads to creativity, goodwill, mercy, better health, better relationships.

Father–I am the faultfinder of the age! It’s sickening! I judge everyone and everything. I always have an opinion. I feel I see things rightly and others quite often are misguided.

I remember: when I was about 12 my mom said, “You used to be so tactful.”

I need to be done with this very seriously detrimental traitMy God shall supply all my need to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus. Phil 4:19

You know, Lord, I wonder what Dan thinks I think of him, I find so much fault in others.  Let me try by Your divine enablement, to fast from faultfinding.

From a World MAP (missionary) magazine: do a sober self-evaluation to assess your personal resources for the Lord’s use in future fruitful endeavors.

Remembering: 2 Corinthians 12:9 My grace is sufficient for you, My strength is made perfect in weakness. This means: sufficient for me to live victoriously despite the devil’s buffeting!

March 4  Lord, You are faithful. I am realizing that what I have NOT LIKED in several people–what has really separated us–has been faultfinding! And I see that I am a chief offender.

73- A Plan with Dan and a Plan with God

73- A Plan with Dan and a Plan with God

The Plan with Dan:

This is Mark’s baby dedication. We were once again on the fast-track of God’s plan and it was challenging but it was good, and He was faithful.

July 11, 1982 Father, I know that I need to spend much more time with You. When I shared this with Dan and said I needed his help (which I have asked him for before), he said, “ok, we need to get to bed by 9:15 and be asleep by 10, then we can be up at 5am for our individual devotions.” Praise You, Lord.

We decided that either Thursday or Saturday will be for having friends over for dinner, so Monday and Tuesday can be study nights and bread baking nights. Then whichever night we are not having company can be our family night. Father I have desired this. Please work this out. Then Sunday is church and Wednesday is Bible study here or at a friend’s home. Friday Dan works late at KNIS.

I’m not sure how long this lasted, with long busy days and with kids not sleeping consistently through the night, but we kept spending time daily with God as our goal.

The Plan with God:

God has plans and purposes for His people. Mary had no clue what was in store for her when she said YES to God. She went by faith that He would be trustworthy. And He was faithful.

July 23, 1982

Sometimes I look at my life and am distressed because I am using the comparison of other lives of people who are doing great things for God.

But last night God gave me quick victory.

I felt He said: “Remember you wanted to be a missionary? Well these stresses—your husband’s long working days and lots of hours at church, imperfect living conditions, continual financial crunch—are all the same sorts of things that would be issues on the mission field. So think of yourself as God’s special missionary to the Lemaire’s and the Renoites and trust Him for your life.”

I immediately felt a sense of adventure rather than a heavy burden.