303 – Trying to Stay Positive

303 – Trying to Stay Positive

July 21, 1988

And Aaron spoke all the words which the Lord had spoken to Moses. Then he did the signs in the sight of the people. So the people believed; and when they heard that the Lord had visited the children of Israel and that he had looked on their affliction, then they bowed their heads and worshiped. Exodus 4:30

Lord, the same thing is happening to me—the signs You do help me believe—the ones in the Bible and the ones in my daily life. Thank You for being practical. Thank You that you are concerned. I do not want to take You for granted. I hear you saying, worship.

We have been very concerned that as the time draws near for us to leave that we still do not have an agency lined up that will agree to take us on and eventually SEND US overseas to Japan. We have been praying a long time about this. And then hope came today. Costa Dier (from Elim) called about our house, wanting to inquire for his son who is in Scotland and returning soon. We told him it has been rented. He asked about our plans and encouraged us to go through Elim Fellowship as our sending agency—to make application and get tentative approval NOW before we leave the area.

THIS WAS VERY VERY ENCOURAGING.

Of course, I was very concerned about the hours needed to complete the application and the time and money needed for the physicals for Dan and me. Our lives are on the clicking and clattering, diving and dipping roller coaster ride again.

Sig and Joy and Jeremy and Nadine have been with us for over a week, delightful people. Our kids love having more kids around—like when Paulette and Bob stay here with their children. They are also itinerating for their Africa vision. Sig said itinerating doesn’t always bring results—try to be with people who have a real vision for missions. Joy said to pray the specifics of what you need, but guard yourself from being overly disappointed. It sounds like a lot of hard work, Lord. Bless them!!!

They also said to keep a detailed list of the contacts we make of people who sound interested in our plan and then to send newsletters if we can afford stamps. Also, to never drop any names from the list because the person may be reading them and not just tossing them– and they may get a nudge from the Lord to pray or send support money.

When I shared the overload of our lives with Cheryl, she said, Georgann, God waits until the situation gets totally impossible and then He moves—and He is glorified!

292 – Extra Children and Fruit

292 – Extra Children and Fruit

Romans 12:13 contributing to the needs of the saints, practicing hospitality.

February 1988

Timmy was at school every day.  I taught Stevie and Markie in the mornings, while  including Daniel as much as I could.

Our housemate Vivian married Tom and he had a 4 year old son, Darren. When we or they forgot to lock it, Darren was in and out, through our shared door in the living room, hardly able to contain himself as he waited daily for the boys to be free to play. “Not time yet, Darren,” Vivian would say as she led him back into their apartment, whispering apologies so as not to disturb us. 

Diane’s three children came over after school 2 or 3 days a week.

And now we had Michael, Justin and Brandi (ages 7, 6, and 14 months). When summer came, Jodie asked if I would continue watching them, but I needed the break and wanted to re-focus on my own kids. 

Having been an elementary school teacher for 7 ½ years (grades 1st, 2nd, and 3rd) I knew how to manage them. I did long for warm enough days so that they could all go outside.

February 28, 1988

Michael and Justin received Jesus. This was a great reward for me! Fruit for my labor.

so that you will walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, to please Him in all respects, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God… Colossians 1:10

One day I lifted Brandi up by her hand to move her across the porch, and her arm came out of its socket! While I was soothing her and feeling horrible, Markie said, “Are they going to arrest you?” That did not help! I fretted until her mom came. Jodie said—“Oh, it’s happened before.”

And, horror of horrors, a couple of weeks later I did it again! Dear God!!!

286 – Pride Speaks Out of My Mouth

286 – Pride Speaks

Out of My Mouth

January 7, 1988

INSIGHT: It just occurred to me that when I do NOT understand a story about Jesus or am offended by His words to someone in the Bible—that I am being a Pharisee! If I REALLY believed He was God—anything I did not understand I would merely set aside and ask Him for insight, respectfully—because He IS GOD!!

But to scoff or judge is saying: “because I don’t understand, You are wrong, God.”

It is putting me and my intellect ABOVE Almighty God!!!!!

And then I think, “Well, I don’t respect Him when He acts in rude ways—who does He think He is?—God?” YES!

Proverbs 8:8 (wisdom speaking) All of the utterances of my mouth are in righteousness, there is nothing crooked or perverted in them.

This is referring to all the utterances of God’s mouth are righteous, not ever crooked or perverted.

And what about this:

The fear of the Lord is to hate evil; pride and arrogance and the evil way and the perverse mouth I hate. Proverbs 8:13

Well, I guess I feel like a fool. But, God does not push me away –ever!

YOU ARE GOD. You can do ANY thing You want in my life. I ask to be content with what You bring and to recognize what is not of You. I repent of the pride that has been so arrogant before You, and ask that You would make this a life-changing insight. Thank You in advance, Holy Spirit, for it.

285 – Jesus is the Only Way to God

285 – Jesus is the

Only Way to God

December 22, 1987

Mom called. She said Uncle Phil was depressed by Connie’s and my notes to him. [Connie were both very concerned that he was near death and did not know Jesus.] Mom said that he is a very religious man and to challenge his faith was not right. “We all have our own beliefs and we are all sure we’re going to heaven.”

She said she and daddy were offended by all the times I say, God loves you. “We know God loves us!”

Well, I was greatly under attack, wavering, and was greatly shaken. I prayed and cried a little. Then the mail came. Eric and Susie had sent $100.

“We were at the Pastor’s Conference and an offering was taken for a missionary’s work in Japan. Eric said he wanted to give their offering TO US for OUR work in Japan!”

What a vote of confidence from our good friends! What a statement from the Lord! I was so BLESSED! I AM on target. JESUS IS THE WAY! JESUS IS THE ONLY WAY! I WILL NOT BE SHAKEN!! We also received $153 from our Reno church friends, and $20 from Eva. 

I was up at 2am and could not go back to sleep. Worried. Prayed. I feel their denying Christ as the ‘only way’ will come to a head for them. I pray Phil understands he needs to surrender his life to Jesus.

Aunt Ginger and Uncle Phil wrote a nice letter in which they told me they will not convert from their own beliefs.

Now Phil is in the hospital with a foot nearing amputation, the circulation is so bad. Will all of this come to a head? Only God knows.

Jesus said to him, “I am the , the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.” John 14:6

277 – New Faith Territory

277 – New Faith Territory

August 31, 1987

Talked to mom, and she encouraged me to let Timmy go have the experiences that will be offered to him in the public school. She related how difficult it was for her to let us go to school, to college, to leave home!! THAT HELPED!!

And I finally got to talk to Donna’s friend, Diane. She called me four times and finally reached me at 9:30 pm! She pursued!! I was impressed.

She faced this same trauma of letting her children ‘go’ last January. They left the Christian school and went to the public school. She has nothing negative to say about it. She said the principal is a born again Christian! She and her husband have even prayed with him! He only hires teachers with high moral standards. He has strong convictions. PRAISE THE LORD! She even said to pray about Stevie going to school also because the first grade teacher is a Christian man who is excellent with the kids. So we are praying.

God, you are setting me free by loving me, leading me gently. You are explaining, comforting, encouraging me. You are wonderful. WONDERFUL…

So, Timmy was released by Dan and I to go to public school. He loved it every day. Steve stayed home with us and we hired a woman to tutor him in reading, and he excelled. The Lord provided a prayer partner who was an Elim friend, Barb. She and I prayed passionately for our sons almost every day on the phone. They both came through unscathed.

O you of little faith, why did you doubt? Matthew 14:31

I doubted because my Lord was taking me into brand new territory!

(v 32 – sort of) And when Georgann got into the boat AND TRUSTED JESUS, the wind stopped!

God always meets me when I come to Him. I just have to stay connected for the journey of faith.

272 – God Always Meets Me

272 -God Always Meets Me

August 13, 1987

I was in a deep quandary about homeschooling. I cried out to my Lord:

Be gracious to me, O Lord, for to Thee I cry ALL DAY LONG. In the day of my trouble I shall call upon Thee’ for Thou wilt answer me. There is NO ONE like Thee among the gods, O Lord; nor are there any works like Thine. Psalm 86:3,7

Mike, dean of married students, made an appointment to meet with us and came to our house. He asked us to be home group leaders. He also wanted to discuss homeschooling. Last year a homeschool family had caused havoc and ended up in court! He loves our testimony of homeschooling and he said that Elim would back our decision to homeschool UNLESS it went against the school district’s recommendations (which is what the other family had done). Here’s the rub: because of their scores on the SAT test, the district wanted Tim and Steve enrolled. I told Mike and he and Dan agreed it would be a good idea to enroll the boys in September. I was horrified.

I went to the Lord, crying, pouring out my heart to the Lord, trying to wrap my head around sending my sons away to school. (The school was in reality just a short walk across the field behind our house).

Then I went to the Word. Nothing really made clear sense in Matthew 10 and 11 that I could relate to our situation. Then the Lord met me with His words:

Matthew 12:25 Any kingdom divided against itself is laid waste; and any city or house divided against itself cannot stand.

Matt 14:25 TAKE COURAGE, IT IS I, DO NOT BE AFRAID!

We can not afford to send the boys to Christian school. So it was important that I surrender and not cause havoc in our home by my stubbornness. I needed to give in, honor my husband, and trust God for our sons’ welfare. And I needed to not be fearful but trust Him.

This brought clarity and the peace of the Holy Spirit. Not that I did not waffle in the days ahead–I did, and so did Dan.

271 – Free Travel, Vending Machines and Law Suits

271 – Free Travel, Vending Machines, and Lawsuits

July 31, 1987

We just got back from two full weeks in Reno. Jan and Jim sold their vacation trailer and took up a collection at church to pay for our family’s plane tickets. WOW! We were humbled. Bob and Janet were on vacation and gave us their house to use! To top it off my parents came to town for a 3-day visit. We saw friends and family; we were loved and gave love.

August 10

We came back to Livonia to the reality of three lawsuits: Dan’s passenger, Brian; the owner of the Hostess Cupcake truck; and Elizabeth the driver of the truck.

I read in Matt 5:40 And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, let him have your coat also.

It was God’s word, and amazing that I ‘just happened’ to read it today.

But it was not very comforting.

August 14

On a family outing we stopped in a gas station along the highway. Inside the bathroom some obscene materials were offered for sale from a vending machine. I felt conscience-bound to call the corporate head of the gas station company for making the materials available.

I wrote out what I was going to say and respectfully told the top-guy my concerns.

Once I cried spontaneously (for the children who have seen this type of machine in a public place). The man I was talking to said, “I understand, believe me!” I followed up with a letter and included the gospel message. I felt so free and relieved afterward.

264 – Keeping It All in God’s Hands

264 – Keeping It All

in God’s Hands

April 8, 1987

On Monday Dan and I looked at our prayer list and prayed our prayer list. We could line all of these things up as pros and cons regarding going back to Reno or staying here (yes, we are still waffling), but we asked the Lord that we could just HEAR HIS VOICE CLEARLY AND KNOW HIS WILL.

WE WILL TRUST HIM WITH ALL OF THE DETAILS.

To me this is the walk of faith. Keeping everything in God’s hands. Keeping everything in prayer. Seeking His will until He reveals it to me.

Oswald Chambers*: Jesus Christ says: “I have chosen YOU!” It’s not that you have got God, but that He has got you!!…He will do with you what He is not doing with other people. Let Him have His way.

Through relationship with Jesus we find out His plan, and in the power of the Spirit we walk it out.

After chapel I stayed for communion which was heavy with Your Presence.

Jesus fervently desired to eat Passover with His disciples although He knew them so well and knew that they would fail Him and lose faith. (Luke 22:15…)

He fervently desires relationship with me, knowing my past, knowing my future.

Cheryl and Tracey and I prayed together for the power to do what He is calling us to do—and for discipline to spend time with Him so we can know His voice and so that we won’t run out in the flesh and ‘serve God’ and wipe out. We prayed also regarding our husbands. We agreed to meet back at communion next Tuesday to give account to each other of how we did with this.

* I did not reference in my journal where I got Oswald’s quote.

257 – More Time with My Boys

257 – More Time

with My Boys

February 4, 1987

I woke up at 2:30am concerned about Stevie, feeling I’m so busy I don’t just sit and listen and play with him and his brothers. I had a few ideas on how to help each of them: an old idea that each boy could get a turn to go alone with Dan , then with me the next time, to the diner down the street, for a milkshake or something. Walk, hold hands, chat.

also: I could ask Carleen if I could bring one boy at a time to spend the morning with her boys while I am at class at Elim.

also: skip a homeschool subject once in a while to play a game with one boy.

May God help me. Why do I know He will? He always does.

Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. Psalm 37:5

The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in his way. Psalm 37:23

255 – He Must Prune Me

255 – He Must Prune Me

January 24, 1987

By God’s wonderful and bountiful grace, I was 1 ½ hours in prayer from 5-6:30am.

This seems crystal clear:

John 15:2 Every branch that does not bear fruit He takes away – anger, selfishness, egocentricity – and every branch that bears fruit He prunes it that it may bear more fruit,

I see that my ministry with children (in public school) bore fruit—but all of these succeeding years have been a pruning process to get me out of me and into Him so that MORE fruit can come to His glory and honor and use.

Although today he prunes my twigs with pain,

Yet doth his blood nourish and warm my root:

Tomorrow I shall put forth buds again

and clothe myself with fruit.      -Christina Rosetti