253 – We Are Getting Revived

253 – We Are Getting Revived

January 14, 1987 up early

Today I begin my class at Elim, Cults and World Religions, taught by Ruth Rodriquez. I believe she is the only woman on staff here, and she requested to be addressed as Sister Ruth. I have been nervous, but quickly turning to God as I try to imagine how this will be accomplished since I feel I am already over-extended. But just now in prayer I got a confidence and peace from God that He will do it as I pray desperately about all areas and keep it all in His hands. Bless You, Father.

Woman where are they? Did no one condemn you? And she said No one, Lord. And Jesus said, Neither do I condemn you; go your way; from now on sin no more. John 8:10

As I am considering this verse, Jesus does not condemn me—ever, for any reason. I am not to denounce myself. Ever, for any reason. Just take it all to Him.

Later in the evening: I am realizing that my husband and my God have given me a beautiful gift: Tuesday and Thursday mornings away from my routine so I can be at Elim. Studying, being with adults, learning. Today, I felt a little bit like a fish out of water, but I believe I will very quickly get used to being at Elim for my class and then chapel from 11-12. Today chapel was all praising and worshipping. Nice.

January 21

So much has been happening, I cannot record it all. But the Lord is reviving Dan and I.

The verse in Haggai reminded me that our obedience and reverence for the Lord results in the Lord stirring up the spirits of those in our household. (Haggai 1:1-14)

Yesterday at chapel a man from Uganda spoke, encouraging us to not grow weary, to not be satisfied with where we are in Christ. He exhorted us to hunger for a deeper walk. Also, to lay our foundation in Jesus Christ solidly. The church in Uganda is flourishing, sin is diminishing. They are founded in CHRIST.

The stone which the builders rejected has become the chief corner stone. Psalm 118:22

Jesus said to them, “Did you never read in the Scriptures, ‘THE STONE WHICH THE BUILDERS REJECTED, THIS BECAME THE CHIEF CORNERSTONE; THIS CAME ABOUT FROM THE LORD, AND IT IS MARVELOUS IN OUR EYES’? Matthew 21:42

[Jesus as the Rock is also found in Mark 12:10; Luke 2:17; Acts 4:11; Romans 9:33; 1 Peter 2:7 and other places.]

252 – God is Remarkable

252 – God is Remarkable

January 8, 1987

I am asking that this week, during Elim’s Week of Prayer, that my Spirit would be mightily touched by the Holy Spirit for intercession & prayerfulness.

I cannot consistently be up early for devotions every day. May God’s Holy Spirit work this grace into my life this week.

John Calvin: “No man will be fit for the Kingdom of God until, laying aside such delicacy, he learns to desire the food of the soul so earnestly that his flesh shall not hinder him.

January 9

Amazing! Remarkable!

*Elim:

Today through the Holy Spirit, Joy Dawson’s teachings on becoming an intercessor are touching both Dan and I deeply.

There was a deep filling of the Holy Spirit, and an awareness of His Presence, and a touch of God.

*Life Center (our Reno home church):

Currently the church is celebrating its 11th anniversary with fasting and prayer for the world, the city, the church, and ‘missionaries’ Dan & Georgann Lemaire’!!

*World May Digest:

highlighted Elim Bible Institute in the entire issue!

*Our house:

Dan is still out of work. He is expecting to take 1 or 2 classes this semester. I will take 1 and go to chapel often. But he needs a job to make this work.

He said we need to make a decision of staying another year or going home this summer.

You are a REMARKABLE GOD!!

250 – Singing with the Lord

250 – Singing with the Lord

January 2, 1987

Last week:

*Brian (the man who is suing us) and Crystal, his wife,  came to dinner. It was very friendly.

* Dan got very sick.

*We registered the big green van and then went to Trezise’s so the boys could play on their trampoline in their barn. Mr. T is a gymnast and a gymnastics instructor. We cannot afford for the boys to have lessons at this time.

Come bless the Lord, all ye servants of the Lord, who stand by night in the house of the Lord.

Lift up your hands in the holy place, and bless the Lord, and bless the Lord. ( a song from Psalm 139)

Praising God in and for all of our troubles lifted my spirits. Praying in the Spirit before that enabled me to really praise Him.

Let me bless You today with music, singing, praise and worship. It would truly be a work of God because getting out of myself in these ways does not come naturally.

January 6

This is the Week of Prayer at Elim, the first week of the semester. There are four meetings a day 1 ½ – 2 hours long. Dan sent me off to the late afternoon meeting so I could experience a blessing.

This song struck me: Your Steadfast Love

Your Steadfast Love extends to the heavens;

Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds;

Your righteousness is like majestic mountains

And Your wisdom like the depths of the sea…and You come to me!

Filling my heart is Your lovingkindness;

I find peace in the shadow of Your wings.

I eat my fill from the abundance of Your household,

And I drink from the streams of rejoicing

You are my King, You are my King, You are My King, You are my King.

 –Ted Sandquist, 1973

My heart, O God, is steadfast, my heart is steadfast; I will sing and make music. Psalm 57:7

240 – Let Your Word Bear Fruit

240 – Let Your Word

Bear Fruit

December 8, 1986

Your boasting is not good—indeed it is most unseemly and entirely out of place…. 1 Corinthians 5:6 Amplified

You have been speaking to me about conceit and boasting!

A seed has been planted.

Let it be watered by the Word, nurtured by the Spirit.

I am willing that you should change me; I cannot change myself. Let Your Word bear fruit!!

Praises filling this house is a seed that You planted three years ago through a ‘word’ spoken by our friend, Paul: this house should be filled with praises! Let this seed bear fruit!! Water and nurture it as You have been, please, Lord Jesus. It is not in me to make it happen. I surrender it to You. Minister it to me by the Spirit’s power.

Thank You for the EARLY prayer time this morning which YOU awakened me for, and kept me wide awake. Bless You.

And one more thing:

Yesterday was awful. I saw the results of my eating Christmas cookies. I CANNOT DO IT. Sugar is like poison to me. I became overwhelmed and confused and ugly. Thank You, Lord, for showing me this EARLY in December so that I do not have to repeat last December. In our preparation for our trip to New York last summer, the lady in the nutrition store said that if I would get off sugar several of my issues would be settled. Let Your words to me bear fruit!

Eating sugar does not work for me. Beginning the previous summer I had begun fasting sugar. Whenever I cheated, I, and everyone around me, suffered from my unhappiness.

239 – Spirit Led

239 – Spirit Led

December 6, 1986

We, especially Dan, feel the ’77 Pontiac isn’t for us….through the Spirit and through circumstances.

Once we had made that decision on Thursday night and prayed, then Friday night as we were borrowing Pletcher’s car, Cheryl mentioned—“you DO have a car! Tresize’s have a van they will sell!”

That’s just what Dan had wanted, for long-range going-back-to-Reno reasons.

Then at home group last night, the Robinson’s mentioned they need a car! So maybe the ’77 Pontiac is for them.

But that means we have to spend our totaled car money on another vehicle (hopefully there will be enough!) and we won’t have extra $ for snow clothes, bills and Christmas!

Praise God—I put this ALL in Your wonderful hands.

Last night at home group, I realized that we have a group of friends in this group whose #1 goal is to serve God. They are seeking Him, seeking to hear His voice directing them, looking to Him to provide. We are not weirdos! WE FIT IN. We are growing to love them. Our prayer time was blessed.

Our needs specifically:

*snow boots TSMDG

*snow gloves TS

*snow suits SM

*Christmas tree

*ideas & time to shop for/make gifts

*$ to mail packages

*company here for Christmas dinner or somewhere to go for Christmas dinner

*car/van

*gifts for our boys

*dental appointments DGTSM

*$ for boys’ doctor appointments which are needed for the WIC program requirements MD

*more good friends for the boys with opportunities to have them here and go to their homes

*curtain rods, etc., to hang curtains, time to do it with Dan

And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19

234 – Letting Go

234 – Letting Go

November 20, 1986

You are drawing me to Yourself through hardship, awareness of my inadequacies, and the ministry you have given me with the boys.

You really desire to live through me in such a way that sweetness and life come out of my mouth.

I believe You want me to be overflowing with the Holy Spirit.

I remember Gloria Copeland’s tapes on walking in the Spirit—pray 1 hour a day in the Spirit–why is is so crazily hard to do this!!

JoAnn (new friend) yesterday said, “To remove worldliness He comes with a scourge, in order to make us a house of prayer. Then the lame and the blind will come. He shows us how defiled we are. He shows us pride. He wants us completely dependent on Him.” Interesting viewpoint. 

Last night I let go, caved in, gave it to you—regarding the money we haven’t got for food. I’m going to stop pushing and by God’s grace accept His allotment. That means I’m going to buy what I can and expect Him to provide the rest. Yesterday we got government powdered milk, cornmeal, cheddar cheese, through Joan who has a foster son and gets government help. I was going to the store to get milk, cereal, eggs, and oven cleaner. But after Joan’s visit I decided to make cornmeal mush and trust God for the oven cleaner. I have the dough for baking crackers, but I cannot bake them till the chicken grease (from it popping when I roasted the chicken yesterday) is cleaned. It smokes badly. Maybe I can clean it without cleaner, just hot water and elbow grease.

Lord, You are our provider. As we have surrendered, You are moving. Also, Joan invited us to join their family for dinner after church on Sunday. I am excited to see You bringing a new friendship, yet I am a bit discouraged to have to surrender not being able to fix what I want for my family. Letting go and letting God be in charge of that area is long overdue.

I look for Your bountiful grace to come forth into my obedience. May You please show me any other area of obedience and surrender I need to make! And let me do it easily and quickly!

Soon after this we qualified for WIC (Women, Infants and Children) and picked up our own blocks of cheddar, approved cereals, peanut butter, milk, etc. We were able to stay on the program the rest of the time we were in NY, one and a half years longer.

236 – A Dramatic November

236 – A Dramatic November

November 26, 1986

Mark and Brian were Dan’s passengers in the car accident. Mark, a single guy living at home, went back to school the next day, sore and still shaken, but uninjured. His friendship with Dan stood strong. Brian, who had been in the front seat, had suffered a concussion and had endured the worst of the impact. He was married. He was not angry or blaming Dan.

Dan and I visited Brian and Mark in their homes last night. We had good fellowship with both of them.

We went to see the driver of the Hostess Cupcake truck, Elizabeth, who was still in the hospital. She was not interested in hearing ANYTHING we had to say. She was angry, rude, and defensive. It hurt Dan that he could not make amends with her. We are praying for her.

The month of November had been very dramatic and traumatic.

Jimmy, our neighbor, former home group leader, and Dan’s very good friend, was in the hospital. Dan went to see him so often that our next pay check was slim. Dan thought he could help Jimmy recover and regain his mental and physical health and get back into the school routine. God finally gave Dan a vision that warned him to stay away, that his involvement would in the long run do no good at all. Wow! It was a real vision with a picture of a vacuum and Dan being sucked down into it. Receiving a vision from God in itself was impactful and made it seem imperative that we heed it.

Dan had never been in a serious car accident. And to be the cause of it was mind-blowing. We got lots of support, we were not standing alone.

My journal indicates that we received $1800 from the insurance company for the totaled Suburban. We also received $600 from Penny, a missionary. That meant we could pay our bills and put money toward our next vehicle.

We may trust Him fully, all for us to do;
They who trust Him wholly find Him wholly true*.

*lyrics from the song Like a River Glorious, by Frances Havergal, 1876

235 – Spinning on an Icy Road

235 – Spinning on an Icy Road

November 21, 1986

I was home with the boys hosting a potluck for our weekly Bible study group that Dan taught. The house was full of good friends and neighbors. Even now I thank the Lord for the support we had that night.

Dan and two fellow Elim students worked part-time at a construction job while taking classes at the school. That night was stormy and on the way home from work, Dan lost control of his vehicle on a slick country road and collided with a Hostess Cupcake truck. The woman driver was taken to the hospital by ambulance and one of Dan’s passengers also was injured. Our Suburban was totaled.

When Dan finally arrived at home with the distressing story of the accident and our car being towed away, we were all dumbfounded. Someone gathered us to pray.

Dan was stunned and feeling horrible about his helplessness to avoid the collision and being the cause of two people’s serious injuries.

Our downstairs neighbor and friend, Josie, who was a fellow student, drove him to the site of the crash the next day. They searched everywhere but his glasses had disappeared. Josie didn’t hesitate, but took Dan to an optometrist and bought him new eyeglasses! We received offers of loaned cars by seven different couples and two single ladies. Over the next couple of weeks we borrowed several of the loaners for a few days at a time and eventually purchased a huge green van from the Trezises.

We received sympathy and encouraging words from fellow-students, and also from neighbors and even strangers in our very small town. There were prayers at chapel by the entire student body, money gifts, meals, and humbling support.

A sorrowful thing happened. The injured passenger in Dan’s car sued us for one million dollars. A sheriff came to the house and handed me the legal document. After I closed the door, I went immediately into shock, BUT the Lord met me IMMEDIATELY! He spoke a word to me that gave me a deep peace. Later, the friend and his wife came to the house to say that they did not blame Dan and had no hard feelings against him. They said they were suing our insurance company because they saw it as a way to buy a farm and have a business. We were able to be polite, by God’s grace.

And after many months of prayers by people at the school and friends and family back in Reno, the suit went away. All praise to God.

And grateful tears are falling from my eyes as I write about it 31 years later.

233 – Focus on His Presence

 233 – Focus on His Presence, not Fear

November 19, 1986

Fear brings a fight-or-flight response. In my case, I pretty quickly go to panic. Fears can be real or imagined.

Here is the list I had in my journal on this day. It is a continuation of the previous blog:

*fear that I am losing the boys and I’ll not regain ‘control’ once they get distracted 

*fear that they will grow up and be weird

*fear someone will see the house messy

*fear the boys will be seen by others while they are fighting

*fear I will not be able to get Daniel playing happily with the toys and I will lose the boys’ interest in the school work while I am helping him

*fear people will see all of us as we really are, so often at odds, it seems.

Often I recognize the moment the fearful thought comes to me and I find myself going with it instead of holding every thought captive to the obedience of Christ.

9pm After my half hour walk, I had a good time praying with Dan. I heard myself saying: “I let go of the boys, I just want to be in Your presence, Jesus.” WHAT PEACE CAME TO ME!!

Could this be the missing link?? Please continue to speak, Lord…. what comes immediately to mind is the book about George Mueller, which I began reading last night. As a newly saved believer, when he focused on his girlfriend and was infatuated with her, he had no communication or peace or presence of God. The moment he turned away from her and chose God, God was there. Is that what happens to me, Lord? Please speak to me!

10:30pm I love these verses, thank You!

In Thy presence is fullness of joy. Psalm 16:11

God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved.; God will help her when morning dawns. Psalm 46:5

Let us come before His presence with thanksgiving, let us shout joyfully to Him with psalms. Psalm 95:2

228 – Josie’s Dilemma and Josie’s Faith

228 – Josie’s Dilemma and Josie’s Faith

November 9, 1986

Josie is looking at her marriage with clear eyes, she says, for the first time. She keeps hoping everything will work out. I am looking for a glorious healing in Jimmy, a revival of their love, and a significant ministry to other hurting people. It’s either my idea or God’s. I’m going to believe it is His and pray it.

I am learning something from Josie. She keeps clinging to God. When she is shaken, when there is darkness all around, when the circumstances are overwhelming, she keeps confessing His sovereignty and she wants His will. It is an encouragement to me.

She went to church with us and we were praising God in the morning and at night –through dance, singing, loud noisy shouts, wonderful songs and psalms—with the body of believers. It was glorious.

I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for He has clothed me with the garments of salvation, He has covered me with the robe of righteousness…. Isaiah 61:10

Let them praise His name with the dance…. Psalm 149:3a

Praise lifts the spirit of heaviness and everything looks bright and new again.

Jesus gives beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness. Isaiah 61:3 paraphrased