288 – Learning to Walk in Joy

288 – Learning to Walk in Joy

January 17, 1988

God is teaching me to walk in JOY. During the week of prayer I went forward for prayer for heaviness of heart. But I am still continually defeated by it. I finally took Dan’s suggestion and called Janet last night. He said her testimony in the Lord is growing. She proclaims:

“THE DEVIL WILL NOT STEAL MY JOY! Jesus purchased that joy with His life, death, blood, and His glorious resurrection. If I have not the Lord’s JOY, I have no strength, because THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH. I must have energy and strength. I must have joy. By my will I speak it out, I pursue JOY, I confess His Lordship!” Nehemiah 8:10

It ministered to me. I am sending her the words to the song, I Will Survive—I had asked the Lord to tell me who could really sing it unto Him. That would be my strong-in-the-Lord friend, Janet.

Dan exhorted me to wake up each morning and immediately begin praying in tongues –not to begin calculating how many hours of sleep I got, or how many times I was up with the kids, or what happened yesterday, or what’s on the agenda today. It’s a good word.

You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of JOY; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore. Psalm 16:11

For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking but of righteousness and peace and JOY in the Holy Spirit. Romans 14:17

The fruit of the Spirit is love, JOY, peace…. Galatians 5:22

287 – The Enemy Has Nothing in Me

287 – The Enemy Has Nothing in Me

January 8, 1988

Last night we went to the Week of Prayer meeting at Elim.

The prophetic word that came was: take up the cross and deny yourself daily or you will deny Me.

Dan and I danced together during the praise service—everyone in the building (it seemed) jumped and shouted! The Holy Spirit came on me in a DEEP PLACE.

There is a new President of the Bible School. He reminded us:

God took us out of the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of His beloved Son. Colossians 1:13

God disarmed the rulers and authorities – Colossians 2:1-5

The ruler of this world is coming and HE HAS NOTHING IN ME. John 14:30

God is LIGHT and in Him is no darkness AT ALL! 1 John 1:5

Brother Webster barred his soul of his past! We sat open mouthed. His point was that we need to be cleansed and keep clean and be healed so that God can use us. God needs us to go into dark places, but we cannot have darkness in us.

The dark places are the enemy’s footholds, and he must have no nook or cranny in us where he can take a stand and do battle against us from the inside! In his new position as president of the school, the devil will have NO PLACE in him, he has exposed the junk.

Darkness is: areas of hold out, rebellion, appetites, addictions, etc.

We have become accustomed to sin and we ignore its presence residing in us. No more.

I saw two areas in me that I wanted expunged! Many went forward for prayer. I love to go up for prayer!

Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. Psalm 51:2

And THANK YOU!!

278 – Still Receiving

278 – Still Receiving

September 25, 1987

I had a wonderful experience this Monday night. When I grocery shopped I kept to my carefully planned list and spent only $63. I asked God to add to our provisions for the week and Donna brought a bag of groceries in which were two meals of pasta and sauce, plus a treat to serve at the home group on Thursday night. AND Donna said they are bringing us their our old couch!

Vivian’s boyfriend gave us a large box of powdered milk, government issue.

Our Reno church sent $60.

Praise the Lord, God is good!

September 28

After church at Elim, Joan offered to pay for me to go to Women’s Leadership Retreat. I was not very interested but I did not react negatively. I have put the matter in God’s hands. It would be a hardship on Dan because Tuesday through Friday he would need to take the boys to sitters as well as prepare all of the meals. He has been working at SouthCo (a manufacturing company) long hours and many nights for over a month.  Yet, the Lord could make this a glorious blessing for all. I feel I am neutral in this. To go or not go is fine with me. Joan called again, pressing me for an answer so she could register me. She offered to call Karen to see if she would be willing to babysit.

October 2

Dan said he REALLY wanted me to go to the retreat if I had the courage. I believe I do. Everything began to fall into place. Barb will keep Tim, Karen is very glad to watch the other three boys. So, Lord, by faith I have registered and called Joan. She will pay today.

I thank You in advance by faith and I will keep it in Your hands and pray Your all-sufficient grace is on the entire four days.        

276 -Still Working Something Out with Jesus

276 – Still Working Something Out with Jesus

August 28, 1987

The pain continues over whether Tim is going to Christian or public school. Dan and I prayed yesterday before he went to work, and talked, and I don’t feel QUITE so uptight.

And Jesus cried out again with a loud voice, and yielded up His spirit. Matthew 27:50

I know my God will save me, He is faithful. He can change any situation into a blessing as He pleases. The results of putting Tim in public school, as I give up my spirit and my will, could be absolutely wonderful. It could result in relationships and conversions that lead to salvations that absolutely could not happen otherwise.

August 29

Do not be afraid, for I know that you seek Jesus who has been crucified. Matthew 28:5

The disciples were paralyzed with fear, but their fears were calmed by God.

Then Jesus said to them, Do not be afraid… Matthew 28:10

I have been praying and little by little I have received peace.

And You are saying this to me. I hear You, my Lord.

Make it real to me, Jesus. Love me in the way I need to be loved, and have it make sense to me. Encourage me by giving me unshakable faith and peace and joy. I really need You. This is a trial of my faith and I know You will be faithful.

274 – You Did It to Me

274 – You Did It to Me

August 24, 1987

On Saturday I was upset again because the neighbor kids,  Leah and David, wanted to have dinner with us. I said, raking the grass, Lord, if You want me to joyfully feed these neighborhood children, You tell me by the word of God—calculating quickly in my mind that in my devotions I was reading in the end chapters in Matthew and it wouldn’t again say to give cold water, or –I was hungry and you fed Me.

Feeling quite safe with my bargain I soon saw Dan bringing the mower in. I began to speak to him over my dismay at the neighborhood kids hanging around at mealtime. He said, Well Jesus says, “When I was hungry and you fed me……” AWWW! The verbal word!!

They stayed. I repented of my stingy bad attitude.

Tonight, reading my Bible, looking for something else, there it was:

For I was hungry, and you gave Me something to eat;

I was thirsty, and you gave Me drink;

I was a stranger, and you invited Me in;

I was sick, and you visited Me;

I was in prison, and you came to Me.

To the extent that you did it to one of these brothers of Mine, even the least of them, you did it to Me!

Matthew 25:35-36, 37-38

God, You are amazing!

272 – God Always Meets Me

272 -God Always Meets Me

August 13, 1987

I was in a deep quandary about homeschooling. I cried out to my Lord:

Be gracious to me, O Lord, for to Thee I cry ALL DAY LONG. In the day of my trouble I shall call upon Thee’ for Thou wilt answer me. There is NO ONE like Thee among the gods, O Lord; nor are there any works like Thine. Psalm 86:3,7

Mike, dean of married students, made an appointment to meet with us and came to our house. He asked us to be home group leaders. He also wanted to discuss homeschooling. Last year a homeschool family had caused havoc and ended up in court! He loves our testimony of homeschooling and he said that Elim would back our decision to homeschool UNLESS it went against the school district’s recommendations (which is what the other family had done). Here’s the rub: because of their scores on the SAT test, the district wanted Tim and Steve enrolled. I told Mike and he and Dan agreed it would be a good idea to enroll the boys in September. I was horrified.

I went to the Lord, crying, pouring out my heart to the Lord, trying to wrap my head around sending my sons away to school. (The school was in reality just a short walk across the field behind our house).

Then I went to the Word. Nothing really made clear sense in Matthew 10 and 11 that I could relate to our situation. Then the Lord met me with His words:

Matthew 12:25 Any kingdom divided against itself is laid waste; and any city or house divided against itself cannot stand.

Matt 14:25 TAKE COURAGE, IT IS I, DO NOT BE AFRAID!

We can not afford to send the boys to Christian school. So it was important that I surrender and not cause havoc in our home by my stubbornness. I needed to give in, honor my husband, and trust God for our sons’ welfare. And I needed to not be fearful but trust Him.

This brought clarity and the peace of the Holy Spirit. Not that I did not waffle in the days ahead–I did, and so did Dan.

263 – We Receive, We Stand Strong

263 – We Receive, We Stand Strong

March 18, 1987

God continues to bless us.

Did we pass some test? Ford some river of faith?

* At the married students’ chapel service, Mike passed the hat for Dan and over $500 came in.

*In our mailbox at Elim we received several money gifts, one of which was for $300. Wally and Debbie came by our house with $100.

*Total bank deposit I will make tomorrow: $1,188.21. All from the last two days.

*Janet and Bob called on his company’s WATS line.

*Possible job: Josie (house mate) saw advertised in the Penny Saver yesterday—a job for a draftsman—in Livonia! Right up the street!

*I was able to pay all the bills. I am overwhelmed to say the least.

*Dan called Pastor Dave so when people arrive at church tonight Dave will already know the news that several ladies (Janet, Jan, Jackie, Erna, Carol) already know…that we will be most likely staying here for the time being.

Make sure that your character is free from the love of money, being content with what you have; for He Himself has said, “I WILL NEVER DESERT YOU, NOR WILL I EVER FORSAKE YOU” Hebrews 13:5

 March 19

My filling fell out last night.

Car wouldn’t start yesterday evening and the Livonia parts place was closed by then.

When Dan called today, they did not have the part.

I almost did not go to class, but I had determined last night that I must not miss what God has for me under any circumstances. Dan agreed and we stood firm. And prayed.

We decided to borrow Josie’s car. Dan and the boys drove me to Elim. Debbie had been here last night (giving us the check!) and had offered to take the boys to Thursday School (homeschool group), so we took her up on it. Dan stayed at school to study while I went to class and we both went to chapel.

Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. Ephesians 6:10

262 – Friends and Gifts

262 – Friends and Gifts

March 17, 1987

Very very interesting:

*$100 in an envelope which was taped to the steering wheel as I left home for my class at Elim this morning

*fact: Rochester is a center of Eastern religions in the US (or in New York, not sure).  But it means that our 2 years of ministry to the Japanese could happen right here in upstate New York!

*Paulette is very interested in Dan’s watercolor balloons and suggested he do posters. His work was rejected a Knopf Publishing yesterday, so this was encouraging to us both.

*Stan  suggested Dan go to Mt. Hope area in Rochester and sketch a house and then take it around the neighborhood to see if people would like to buy a rendering of their house. “Do you have a Lemaire yet??”

*gift box came from my mom today. What love and faithfulness comes from them. I told her that through much thinking and prayer we will probably stay here in NY. She choked up a little. Hope we can visit–either here or there.

*Took the boys shopping in Geneseo so they could spend their job money. It was fun. The store was empty. Praise God.

*Pauline & Tom called to invite us to dinner for Thursday. They will get a video tape for the boys. We will all love it.

*Mike & Tish arrived with $70 cash and FOOD from the Married Students’ storehouse. Praise God. Dan confessed to Mike that today was THE day his faith was being hurt by all the waiting on God. Mike said today was THE day he kept feeling CLEARLY to bring provisions to us. Amazing Holy Spirit!

*On Sunday, Dan’s mom and Karen called; Bev called last Sunday; JoAnnA called Saturday. Humbling to be so loved.

*Barry, a teacher, gave us much encouragement in our life with the Lord. His walk sounds similar.

PRAISE THE LORD. We are accepted in the beloved (our friends and family), as well as the Beloved (Father, Son, and Holy Spirit).

…to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved. Ephesians 1:6

260 – I Usurped My Husband’s Authority

260 – I Usurped My Husband’s Authority

February 25, 1987

Dan said something yesterday morning as a correction to me, which was very unusual. I responded with deep hurt and CRYING! I often cry at patriotic events or heartwarming things, or from the Spirit’s moving, but this crying was from PAIN and hurt feelings.

Later I felt that Dan’s words were not the real pain, because I had to acknowledge that I had been bad mannered. But the conviction of the Spirit was DEEP. I had offended the Lord!

I had usurped Dan’s authority, which put things out of order. And I had insulted him.

An instance at chapel this week brought me clarity.

The worship leader interrupted the lady who was giving the messages and the prayer requests. It was horrid.

The Spirit of God was immediately and thoroughly quenched and everyone felt it. I’ve never seen anything like it.

Then the worship leader’s instruction to the body was sort of dumb.

If what he could not wait to share had been something good, the Holy Spirit could not honor it because the man was so out of line.

Nevertheless let each one of you in particular so love his own wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband. Ephesians 5:33

I had stepped out of respect for my husband. 

I apologized, he apologized, and we kissed and made up. We will both be more careful.

Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much. James 5:16

252 – God is Remarkable

252 – God is Remarkable

January 8, 1987

I am asking that this week, during Elim’s Week of Prayer, that my Spirit would be mightily touched by the Holy Spirit for intercession & prayerfulness.

I cannot consistently be up early for devotions every day. May God’s Holy Spirit work this grace into my life this week.

John Calvin: “No man will be fit for the Kingdom of God until, laying aside such delicacy, he learns to desire the food of the soul so earnestly that his flesh shall not hinder him.

January 9

Amazing! Remarkable!

*Elim:

Today through the Holy Spirit, Joy Dawson’s teachings on becoming an intercessor are touching both Dan and I deeply.

There was a deep filling of the Holy Spirit, and an awareness of His Presence, and a touch of God.

*Life Center (our Reno home church):

Currently the church is celebrating its 11th anniversary with fasting and prayer for the world, the city, the church, and ‘missionaries’ Dan & Georgann Lemaire’!!

*World May Digest:

highlighted Elim Bible Institute in the entire issue!

*Our house:

Dan is still out of work. He is expecting to take 1 or 2 classes this semester. I will take 1 and go to chapel often. But he needs a job to make this work.

He said we need to make a decision of staying another year or going home this summer.

You are a REMARKABLE GOD!!