258 – Listening for God’s Direction

258 – Listening for God’s Direction

February 17 and 18, 1987

Dan said yesterday he wanted to call Pastor Dave to see if maybe he had a prophetic word for us that would give us some guidance. Should we continue here on this course or return home to Reno…

Today Pastor Dave called us!

Dan did not share specifics with Dave because we want to hear from the Lord, not get man’s advice. Nothing definitive transpired. He asked what he could do for us, Dan said pray. 

When my mom asked yesterday how the money situation was, I said fine.

We’re depending on God, not man. He will come through with job and provision and clear direction.

In the news from home, Pastor Dave, a former policeman, said that the youth activities area in the juvenile department of the jail is open to and welcoming the Christian message! They have so many youth on drugs they know they need outside help with the kids.

Friends of ours are selling their house and business and going into full-time ministry in a nearby town. I am stirred! Happy for them. Things are happening in Reno.

But living in Livonia has been such a refuge for me. A healing place. It’s not easy to think of letting go of it.

And the Lord opened her (Lydia’s) heart to respond to the things spoken by Paul. Acts 16:14

Open my heart to the things of the Spirit as I read Your word today!

Now while Paul was waiting for them at Athens, his spirit was being provoked within him as he was beholding the city full of idols. Acts 17:16

Paul was provoked by the many idols in the city and my spirit was greatly provoked as I watched the Transcendental Meditation video in the Cults class. I finally had to leave.

It’s still amazing to me how when I read in the Bible it relates to my life so perfectly.

256 – Stay or Go Home

256 – Stay or Go Home

February 1, 1987 5am

Dan woke up with a vision of a jar with a vacuum in it—sucking his hands, rendering him helpless. It related to his friend in the mental institution. It struck fear into Dan’s heart. He felt it was definitely a warning to get out of this relationship. We obviously cannot help this friend.

I believe that Dan has been trying to save someone who does not want to be saved. And that this has put us in a place of impotency. It has clouded his present judgment. 

Such a tragic situation for this couple and for the rest of us. But our God restores.

Dan has been talking of leaving Elim in the middle of this semester. He had thought of not signing up for any classes at all so we could leave easily. As he shared this I felt peace though I was a little dismayed at moving on so soon from this wonderful place.

Show us the way, Lord.

Psalm 34:1 I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth.

7 The angel of the Lord encamps all around those who fear Him, and delivers them.

O LORD, lead me in Your righteousness because of my foes; make Your way straight before me. Psalm 5:8

255 – He Must Prune Me

255 – He Must Prune Me

January 24, 1987

By God’s wonderful and bountiful grace, I was 1 ½ hours in prayer from 5-6:30am.

This seems crystal clear:

John 15:2 Every branch that does not bear fruit He takes away – anger, selfishness, egocentricity – and every branch that bears fruit He prunes it that it may bear more fruit,

I see that my ministry with children (in public school) bore fruit—but all of these succeeding years have been a pruning process to get me out of me and into Him so that MORE fruit can come to His glory and honor and use.

Although today he prunes my twigs with pain,

Yet doth his blood nourish and warm my root:

Tomorrow I shall put forth buds again

and clothe myself with fruit.      -Christina Rosetti

254 – My God is the Lord

254 – My God is the Lord

January 22, 1987

For thus says the Lord, who created the heavens, who is God,

who formed the earth and made it,

who has established it, who did not create it in vain,

who formed it to be inhabited;

I am the Lord, and there is no other.

Look to Me, and be saved, all you ends of the earth!

For I am God, and there is no other.

I have sworn by Myself;

The word has gone out of My mouth in righteousness,

and shall not return,

that to Me every knee shall bow, every tongue shall take an oath. Isaiah 45:18, 22, 23

This is God’s declaration of Himself as the only true God.

We pray to our Creator.

He did not make a wasteland.

He did not speak in secret.

He wants ALL to turn to Him and be saved.

There is no other God.

His word has gone forth from His mouth in righteousness and will not turn back.

Every knee WILL bow.

Every tongue WILL swear allegiance.

Men WILL come.

Those who were angry at Him WILL be put to shame.

Thank You for opening the door wide so all who will bow to You CAN come in.

Thank You that I came in.

Use me, that others would come in.

252 – God is Remarkable

252 – God is Remarkable

January 8, 1987

I am asking that this week, during Elim’s Week of Prayer, that my Spirit would be mightily touched by the Holy Spirit for intercession & prayerfulness.

I cannot consistently be up early for devotions every day. May God’s Holy Spirit work this grace into my life this week.

John Calvin: “No man will be fit for the Kingdom of God until, laying aside such delicacy, he learns to desire the food of the soul so earnestly that his flesh shall not hinder him.

January 9

Amazing! Remarkable!

*Elim:

Today through the Holy Spirit, Joy Dawson’s teachings on becoming an intercessor are touching both Dan and I deeply.

There was a deep filling of the Holy Spirit, and an awareness of His Presence, and a touch of God.

*Life Center (our Reno home church):

Currently the church is celebrating its 11th anniversary with fasting and prayer for the world, the city, the church, and ‘missionaries’ Dan & Georgann Lemaire’!!

*World May Digest:

highlighted Elim Bible Institute in the entire issue!

*Our house:

Dan is still out of work. He is expecting to take 1 or 2 classes this semester. I will take 1 and go to chapel often. But he needs a job to make this work.

He said we need to make a decision of staying another year or going home this summer.

You are a REMARKABLE GOD!!

244 – I Choked the Word in the Christmas Rush

244 – I Choked the Word in the Christmas Rush

December 22, 1986

I’m glad I wrote on Dec 1 and Dec 2 all of our prayer requests. I see that God is answering prayers. Thank You, Father.

I was awful for 3 days. Finally today, as I address last package that we had to take to UPS—it broke! Whatever was on me, oppressing me, from the stress of Christmas duties is gone.

Included in my overwhelming feelings were female issues, stress of getting presents purchased and wrapped, finishing our craft projects, packages prepared for mailing. I also ate a few sugar cookies and some licorice—bad. Totally worked against me.

Dan prayed, Karen called, God moved.

I read in a book by Ruth H. Calkins: “God, I resign!” “–Good, You’re Promoted!”

I resign, Lord. But I want kindness and patience NOW! (I said as I threw a tantrum)(not really)

Going to my Bible to get the Word back into me:

Love is patient, love is kind. 1 Corinthians 13:4.

… love covers all transgressions. Proverbs 10:12

And we urge you brethren, admonish the unruly, encourage the fainthearted, help the weak, be patient with all men. 1 Thessalonians 5:1

Above all keep fervent in your love for one another, because love covers a multitude of sins. 1 Peter 4:8

Remembering something I heard from the Spirit the moment the last of the packages was wrapped: “the cares of this world CHOKED the good seed.” –i.e., my concern for the trappings of Christmas choked the life of Jesus, the Word, in my life. And I’ve been miserable!

237 – The Mind of Christ

237 – The Mind of Christ

December 3, 1986

Colossians 3:12-17

And so those who have been CHOSEN OF GOD, holy and beloved,

PUT ON A HEART OF COMPASSION

KINDNESS

HUMILITY

GENTLENESS

PATIENCE

BEARING WITH ONE ANOTHER, whoever has a complaint against any one;

JUST AS THE LORD FORGAVE YOU, so also should you.

And beyond all these things

PUT ON LOVE, which is the perfect bond of unity

And let the PEACE OF CHRIST

                        RULE

in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body

AND BE THANKFUL.

LET THE WORD OF CHRIST RICHLY DWELL WITHIN YOU,

with all wisdom teaching and admonishing one another with psalms and hymns and spiritual songs,

SINGING WITH THANKFULNESS IN YOUR HEARTS TO GOD.

And whatever you do in word or deed, DO ALL in the name of the LORD JESUS,

GIVING THANKS through Him to God the Father.

Precious words. It is the mind of Christ. And that is what I want, Lord.

218 – Putting My Faith in Christ

218 Putting My Faith in Christ

October 12, 1986

Meeting my fears and anxieties and inadequacies through the Word of God….

Which – I told Julie yesterday—I base my life on.

It is no longer I who live now, but Christ who lives in me. Galatians 2:20

Faithful is he who calls you who also will do it. 1 Thessalonians 5:24

Ye are dead and your life is hidden in Christ with God. Colossians 3:3

A dead man is free of worry and introspection!

I put my faith in Christ in me.

Christ in you the hope of glory. Colossians 1:27

I turn from ME to YOU, Jesus. You live in me and I believe right now that You will live out this day through me. I will keep praising YOU, I will keep believing in Your faithfulness. I believe Your power will empower me to be kind and gracious. Thank You!!

215 – Too Personal too Quickly

215 – Too Personal Too Quickly

October 4, 1986

I saw – in an instant – last night at home group–that I too quickly get very personal with people. It’s like I am saying: “I can see into you, and here’s what I see.” Awkward.

I have known that I do this, but I have gotten reinforced for it, so I thought it was a good thing. People have said I am honest and transparent. I have felt I was validated.

Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. Philippians 2:3

I see that I need to go slow and let the Holy Spirit lead me carefully. It seems I am always saying words that I would like to put back in my mouth. May that please change, Lord!

Thank You for this insight!

Trust must be built before I become too familiar with people or they just turn me off and decide I am someone to avoid because I could hurt them. That kind of person is seen as threatening and to be avoided. I miss relationships this way.

Keep cleansing me, Jesus. I want to be equipped and fitted for service to You.

212 – More on His Love

212 – More on His Love

September 28, 1986

The Lord is showing me AGAIN that my heaviness, which is a result of analyzing myself and introspection, is putrid. I should spend my thoughts on praising and worshiping HIM. Everything else will take proper perspective and those around me will be encouraged.

Let everything that has breath praise the Lord. Psalm 150:6

Praise God for forgiveness, for the cross, for the blood shed for me, for Dan, Tim, Stevie, Markie, and Daniel….

September 29

I took a walk on the Livonia Central school grounds. Sweet communion with God. Read Philippians chapter 2 in the Phillips’ version:

Live together in harmony, live together in love, as though you had only one mind and one spirit between you.

Never act from motives of rivalry or personal vanity, but in humility think more of each other than you do of yourselves….

Do all you have to do without grumbling or arguing….

Don’t worry over anything whatever, tell God every detail of your needs in earnest and thankful prayer…and peace will keep and guard you.