285 – Jesus is the Only Way to God

285 – Jesus is the

Only Way to God

December 22, 1987

Mom called. She said Uncle Phil was depressed by Connie’s and my notes to him. [Connie were both very concerned that he was near death and did not know Jesus.] Mom said that he is a very religious man and to challenge his faith was not right. “We all have our own beliefs and we are all sure we’re going to heaven.”

She said she and daddy were offended by all the times I say, God loves you. “We know God loves us!”

Well, I was greatly under attack, wavering, and was greatly shaken. I prayed and cried a little. Then the mail came. Eric and Susie had sent $100.

“We were at the Pastor’s Conference and an offering was taken for a missionary’s work in Japan. Eric said he wanted to give their offering TO US for OUR work in Japan!”

What a vote of confidence from our good friends! What a statement from the Lord! I was so BLESSED! I AM on target. JESUS IS THE WAY! JESUS IS THE ONLY WAY! I WILL NOT BE SHAKEN!! We also received $153 from our Reno church friends, and $20 from Eva. 

I was up at 2am and could not go back to sleep. Worried. Prayed. I feel their denying Christ as the ‘only way’ will come to a head for them. I pray Phil understands he needs to surrender his life to Jesus.

Aunt Ginger and Uncle Phil wrote a nice letter in which they told me they will not convert from their own beliefs.

Now Phil is in the hospital with a foot nearing amputation, the circulation is so bad. Will all of this come to a head? Only God knows.

Jesus said to him, “I am the , the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.” John 14:6

280 – Behold the Children

280– Behold the Children

November 1, 1987

Tony Martorana spoke on the Flow of the Spirit that he’s been privileged to be part of. God has been using him to  help people and see God heal them. He invited all of us, especially the children, to join him for the baptism of the Holy Spirit. He suggested the parents talk to their children and offer to come up to the front with them. Steve and Mark were enthusiastic to go up. It just happened to be communion Sunday so all the kids were in the service.

Dan took the boys up and Palmer Johnson (a beloved teacher) met them. He sat on the step and talked with them and they followed him in prayer.

Timmy sitting next to me, cried. He had told me a few weeks earlier that he was having some questions about the Lord. Perhaps being in the public school setting is stirring him up. I feel he will be able to fully decide soon. Dan is going to talk to him at home.

Stevie and I went to Elim for the evening service. A missionary who served in Jamaica spoke: Jesus is entrusting you with people He cherishes and we are to treat them carefully.

He said to them, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.” Mark 10:14 

November 3

The kids and I had a good close time of prayer and talking before Timmy left for school. Then Stevie, Markie, and Daniel and I danced and sang and praised God!

I talked to Barb and we prayed for our sons in their second grade classroom. Downstairs Steve and Mark were singing a praise song where you have to scream and shout over and over!

Through the praise of children and infants you have established a stronghold against your enemies, to silence the foe and the avenger. Psalm 8:2

267 – We Are Being Sifted

267 – We Are Being Sifted

April 9, 1987

I drove into Lima for our home school gathering. A church marquee said:

           April 5, 1987  UNBOUND

THAT WAS MY BIRTHDAY! I feel that was for me!

Yesterday I got:

ARISE [from the depression and prostration in which circumstances have kept you; rise to a new life]!

SHINE – be radiant with the glory of the Lord;

for your light is come and the glory of the Lord is risen upon you!  Isaiah 60:1 (Amplified)

The sheriff came while we were in Lima with a summons! Dan’s passenger in the November car accident is suing our insurance company because Brian did not feel he got enough wage compensation during his recovery period. Funny thing—the people who were going to support him didn’t. I pray he will see clearly to drop the suit.

And the Lord said,[a] “Simon, Simon! Indeed, Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat.  But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren.” Luke 22:31-32

We are being sifted.

Check from Life Center in Reno for $55 which is our grocery money for TODAY’s shopping! Praise Jesus!

Bill and Carol sent $10 and a letter. Bless them!

Gregg and Cheryl gave $40 for Dan and I to go out to dinner to celebrate my birthday.

265 – Two Different ‘Drunks’

 

265 – Two Different ‘Drunks’

April 8, 1987

After being in my class, then in chapel, and then praying so sincerely with my friends at communion, when I got home I regarded the boys differently. I felt more patient, more understanding. I also felt their sincere love for me. I remember thinking that I was willing to lay down my life to show them God’s love.

Since Shan, Elim’s pastor’s wife, called me and asked me to speak to her ladies group on homeschooling, I realized that my testimony of it stinketh. I have been very upset ever since. I have been wanting You to give me a new, beautiful testimony of Jesus in my life. Today I have hope for it! I believe we are working on it together.

And do not get drunk with wine for that is dissipation, BUT BE FILLED WITH THE SPIRIT…making melody in your heart to the Lord. Ephesians 5:18,19d

When I used to be DRUNK with wine, I remember feeling free, bold, happy, not easily offended, having no cares.

Surely being DRUNK with the Holy Spirit must be glorious—having great peace, not easily worried, not easily offended, joyful, positive, full of faith, not doubting, full of good deeds, kind in speech and manner, self controlled in thoughts and actions, long-suffering, gentle not harsh.

Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit let us also walk by the Spirit. Galatians 5:24-25

234 – Letting Go

234 – Letting Go

November 20, 1986

You are drawing me to Yourself through hardship, awareness of my inadequacies, and the ministry you have given me with the boys.

You really desire to live through me in such a way that sweetness and life come out of my mouth.

I believe You want me to be overflowing with the Holy Spirit.

I remember Gloria Copeland’s tapes on walking in the Spirit—pray 1 hour a day in the Spirit–why is is so crazily hard to do this!!

JoAnn (new friend) yesterday said, “To remove worldliness He comes with a scourge, in order to make us a house of prayer. Then the lame and the blind will come. He shows us how defiled we are. He shows us pride. He wants us completely dependent on Him.” Interesting viewpoint. 

Last night I let go, caved in, gave it to you—regarding the money we haven’t got for food. I’m going to stop pushing and by God’s grace accept His allotment. That means I’m going to buy what I can and expect Him to provide the rest. Yesterday we got government powdered milk, cornmeal, cheddar cheese, through Joan who has a foster son and gets government help. I was going to the store to get milk, cereal, eggs, and oven cleaner. But after Joan’s visit I decided to make cornmeal mush and trust God for the oven cleaner. I have the dough for baking crackers, but I cannot bake them till the chicken grease (from it popping when I roasted the chicken yesterday) is cleaned. It smokes badly. Maybe I can clean it without cleaner, just hot water and elbow grease.

Lord, You are our provider. As we have surrendered, You are moving. Also, Joan invited us to join their family for dinner after church on Sunday. I am excited to see You bringing a new friendship, yet I am a bit discouraged to have to surrender not being able to fix what I want for my family. Letting go and letting God be in charge of that area is long overdue.

I look for Your bountiful grace to come forth into my obedience. May You please show me any other area of obedience and surrender I need to make! And let me do it easily and quickly!

Soon after this we qualified for WIC (Women, Infants and Children) and picked up our own blocks of cheddar, approved cereals, peanut butter, milk, etc. We were able to stay on the program the rest of the time we were in NY, one and a half years longer.

236 – A Dramatic November

236 – A Dramatic November

November 26, 1986

Mark and Brian were Dan’s passengers in the car accident. Mark, a single guy living at home, went back to school the next day, sore and still shaken, but uninjured. His friendship with Dan stood strong. Brian, who had been in the front seat, had suffered a concussion and had endured the worst of the impact. He was married. He was not angry or blaming Dan.

Dan and I visited Brian and Mark in their homes last night. We had good fellowship with both of them.

We went to see the driver of the Hostess Cupcake truck, Elizabeth, who was still in the hospital. She was not interested in hearing ANYTHING we had to say. She was angry, rude, and defensive. It hurt Dan that he could not make amends with her. We are praying for her.

The month of November had been very dramatic and traumatic.

Jimmy, our neighbor, former home group leader, and Dan’s very good friend, was in the hospital. Dan went to see him so often that our next pay check was slim. Dan thought he could help Jimmy recover and regain his mental and physical health and get back into the school routine. God finally gave Dan a vision that warned him to stay away, that his involvement would in the long run do no good at all. Wow! It was a real vision with a picture of a vacuum and Dan being sucked down into it. Receiving a vision from God in itself was impactful and made it seem imperative that we heed it.

Dan had never been in a serious car accident. And to be the cause of it was mind-blowing. We got lots of support, we were not standing alone.

My journal indicates that we received $1800 from the insurance company for the totaled Suburban. We also received $600 from Penny, a missionary. That meant we could pay our bills and put money toward our next vehicle.

We may trust Him fully, all for us to do;
They who trust Him wholly find Him wholly true*.

*lyrics from the song Like a River Glorious, by Frances Havergal, 1876

229 – God is Real and Faithful

229 – God is Real and Faithful

November 12, 1986

God just showed me (as I am trying to do my devotions and Markie, age 4, keeps making noises in his room that I am afraid will wake up Daniel, age 2that I am getting angry in the middle of my devotions!

Dan said: “tell God you’re sorry and go on. You can’t praise God when you’re angry so you have to keep a right heart all the time. Purpose to praise and worship Him.”

This is FUNNY: I was trying to read:

So I will sing praise to Thy Name forever! Psalm 61:8

and then: Paul and Silas were in prison praising God at midnight! Acts 16:25

…they were singing when they should have HUMANLY been angry at God and been arguing with Him that they were HIS servants, doing HIS will, and needed a good night’s sleep.

Later same night: this was a day of accusations from the enemy, confusion and NOISE! I kept taking refuge in the Lord and I saw Him move, but then there I was again, being assailed constantly.

Tracey called at 1—Praise God—so I got to pray with someone.

Karen called from the west coast at 8:30 to say that GOD IS FAITHFUL. She said she was SO burdened for me today. Thank You, Lord, for being REAL. Thank you for sending good good friends who will stand with me and pray and who I can pray with in their distress.

216 – Praising Him Makes a Difference

216- Praising Him Makes a Difference

October 5, 1986

Last night Tim, 8, and Stevie, 7, and I went to Elim to watch a missionary movie about Rochunga Podaite, a Moora Indian in northern India. It was called Beyond the Next Mountain.* It was impactful to all of us. It was fun to have a movie night with my wonderful sons.

October 6

Dan left at 6:15 am and will not be home till 10:30 pm.

It has been quite an amazing day of walking with God, being lifted by Him. I’ve been mostly peaceful—flowing with our school day, even making it interesting and not being so hard nose.

PRAISE TO MY GOD!

It’s 9 pm and I still feel awake and interested in reading my Isaiah chapters and then Swindoll’s ‘Serve’ book. Praising lightens the load.

I do believe God’s grace has lifted me—and I do believe the continuing insistence on praising Him has lifted me. May I never stray from singing Your praises. May I live moment by moment with You, My Lord!

*In 1910 a missionary spent only 5 days with the Hmar people who were called the “worst headhunters” of northern India. A few people were saved and one man believed his son could be used by God to bring the Bible to their people. It’s a great story, 1 ½ hours, on YouTube.

* Chuck Swindoll, Improving Your Serve, 1981.

177- Be Like Jesus: Do Good and Heal the Sick

177- Be Like Jesus: Do Good and Heal the Sick

December 10, 1985 – 6am

Mark 2:23-3:5 Walk in the Spirit and do good.

            3:10 The people saw Him heal others before their eyes—“they all pressed about Him in order to touch Him and be healed.”

            3:12 Jesus must have been frustrated by the disobedience of the unclean spirits revealing His identity.

            3:13-14 He chose 12 to teach them how to preach and cast out demons

            3:25 He doesn’t not want us to be “a house divided against itself.”

            3:27 He wants the strong man bound.

            3:35 He didn’t so much deny his mother and brother, but took everyone else in who loved and Him and obeyed God.

            4:20 Be good ground for the Word, accept it, and let it bear fruit.

                   (verse 19) Don’t be distracted by affliction or by the worries of the world or the luring of deceitful riches.

            4:39 He wants us not to be intimidated by the elements. To trust Him.

Later: Mary, from next door, and I went to get the Christmas tree! They are not living in the apartment but are salvaging what they can from the ashes. She was happy to purchase our tree and the boys were ecstatic.

Sandra (young neighbor) (v.(came to make a Christmas craft. The boys like her a lot and they had fun sitting at our restaurant booth kitchen table coloring and cutting and gluing. Tomorrow we will go to Jackie’s and make popcorn balls. Next week we’ll go to my parent’s for the holidays.

175- Christmas Prayers

175- Christmas Prayers

December 7, 1985

Today I must CAST MY BURDENS ON YOU AGAIN, Savior!

*the boys’ clothes – that we would ALL have very decent clothing to take and wear on our Christmas trip to my parents. Thank You, Savior.

*the boys’ gifts – that we could give them a few NICE presents that we are not ashamed but thrilled to give. Also some items for their stockings.

*a Bible for Dan – that’s what he wants for Christmas. I rebuke doubt away from this request. YOU CAN DO THIS!

*that mailed items will arrive at their destinations before Christmas – Beth, JoAnn, Karen, Vanna

*getting our vehicle very cleaned up inside-and-out for our trip to my parents’ house

*hearing from You about Elim

*fitting in home school, Christmas errands, and sanity, plus exercise and outside play for the boys

*should I try to go to the Thursday Intercessory prayer meeting beginning today at church?

*what about the Spiritual Warfare class beginning in January?

*our Christmas letter – to be printed, have postage, be addressed, and have notes on them –and mailed before Christmas

*taking the boys Christmas shopping with their $6 each

*putting away or giving away all of the clothes that have been coming to me – from JoAnn, Connie, Mom, and Virgi

*small gifts for Jan and pastors

*a dog! Carol, after we had been praying nightly on the phone, said out of the blue—you need a dog! She’s right. I could then walk in the mornings, the boys would have a play pal. Hers is big and gentle, yet barks at strangers not friends. He’s hairy, but an outside dog.

*Dan said we could support more missionaries once the $179 no longer goes out monthly for our vehicle. 

*Put walking back in my day. It is very dark from 6-6:30am.

PRAISE GOD FOR ALL OF THESE NEEDS.

They are wonderful needs to have and I am excited about HOW GOD WILL HANDLE EACH ONE.

I soundly and confidently rebuke all doubt that God can and will take care of each one.

I open my spiritual eyes to SEE ways of provision that are totally unique.

I welcome Your hand moving, and I open my hands WIDE to receive from You.

Bless You, bless You, Father. Keep speaking to Dan and I about Your desire to provide. Keep building our faith. Keep moving into our lives. Keep Yourself overflowing from us to others who need You!