March 4, 1983 I also need to see more victory in my relationship with Dan. We are going through a hard time. I am having trouble accepting how busy he is for You. I am sorry. Let me not retaliate in any way, but in loving him more.
March 7, 1983 Saturday we left the boys with Lynn and Danny for 3 hours to have time together. What a blessing it was. We resolved to follow our interest in missions, after laying out our lives afresh and seeing a few areas we could begin moving in. We trust God’s continued leading. We decided to write several missionary groups (so as to “keep moving” in the direction of missions). Danwill contact the bank regarding re-financing so we can get some cash for our necessities. We prayed and relaxed and felt closer. We had needed the time for communication.
Thank you for Anointed for Burial and for the time to read it. This couple, young in the Lord, but totally available, greatly used by your Spirit, breathtakingly. Hallelujah.
Sunday morning. I prayed about where to sit because I really wanted to worship. We put our things down, but someone took our seats, and the only seats available were even closer to the front! After tears and tears and tears during worship (I had also prayed against self consciousness in worshiping), there was mighty prophecy over Dan—“able to teach clearly” (which is his heart’s desire), “you will give bread to the hungry,” and “you will say God sustained you during this time.”
I wept and wept. We needed to hear from You so much Lord, almost more than we realized, but You knew.
Psalm 7:9…for the righteous God tests the hearts and minds.
Ps 37:3 …trust in the Lord…feed on His faithfulness
v 19 …in days of famine they shall be satisfied
v 25 …not begging bread
v 39 …the salvation of the righteous is from the Lord
…He is their strength in time of trouble
v 40 …He shall help them and deliver them…and save them
Dearest Lord Jesus, I have been experiencing anger, manifesting in impatience and yelling, which has come up during this ‘squeeze’ of me trying to juggle my home life with a part-time job–I’ve gotten into a bad habit.
I have been grieved over this ugly sin of losing control of myself. Satan has made me feel condemned—and, in the twisted way we humans think, I find myself arguing with myself that I am justified in screaming in order to get control of the situation.
But last Sunday morning I missed church, two boys sick. Dan relayed the Pastor’s message to me, and he encouraged me, and we read scripture together.
Dan said he had taken a stand against anger. One day he realized he’d been enjoying anger and making clear choices to engage in it and decided that was not how he wanted to live—I had to agree with him, his story is my story.
Now, for 2 ½ days I have been experiencing victory in Your precious name, Jesus. I have many times made the conscious willful choice to be joyful, to be loving—and have not fallen into anger.
The boys have been inside the house and ill, so I stopped my life and ministered to them which cut the stress a lot by not trying to do too much housework. Thank You, Jesus. May it please You to continue to give me this resolve to stand against the temptations to fall into anger.
Psalm 37:1 Fret not yourself because of evildoers, be not envious toward wrong doers.
Proverbs 23:17 Do not let your heart envy sinners, but live in the fear of the Lord.
Psalm 37:3-5 Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness. Delight Yourself in the Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He will do it.
*I am focusing on imperfect people, rather than on God.
*I am focusing on myself, rather than God.
*I look at others’ prosperity (my parents, my sisters, even other Christians) and then feel unhappy with my own situation.
*I am looking inward, and listening to others say: “Georgann, How do you do it with three kids?” –makes me panic and say to myself: yes—how DO I do it? And also gives me an open door to self pity.
*I get very shakey and tottery looking at these things rather than at God.
Oswald Chambers says: It is impossible for a believer, no matter what his experience, to keep right with God if he will not take the trouble to spend time with God….spend plenty of time with God; let other things go, but don’t neglect Him.
Psalm 37:9 For evildoers will be cut off. But those who wait for the Lord, they will inherit the land.
Strong’s Concordance 6960: wait means to expect, to gather together, to look patiently, tarry.
Lord, help me to wait patiently for you, and to keep my eyes fixed on You through reading my Bible daily and building my faith in You.
72- Looking Back to the 80’s from 2017 Vantage Point
As I (now age 72) am reading my journals for this blog, looking WAY back to another time, they were full of my crying out to the Lord. I was trading my brokenness for His strength. I was overwhelmed in my circumstances and knew that I needed the life of Jesus which was inside me to pour forth out of me in order to cope with the day-to-day, to make sense of everything, to keep me afloat.
I felt earnestly my responsibility of raising our boys carefully so that they would grow up to love the Lord, be strong in their walks with Him, and be prepared for the mission field, should God resume and confirm our call.
I also wanted to please God and please my husband. I had married a man who was a real man: smart, responsible, hard working, mature. He had failed in his first marriage, as had I, and we were both committed to our success as a team. He read and studied his Bible, and lived for God and family. He also adopted the ‘going to church’ mentality, which meant we all went to church together. There were lots of meetings in all the churches in the 1980’s.
Everyone we knew in Life Center Church was there every time the doors were opened, a minimum of Sunday morning, Sunday evening, and also for the Wednesday night home groups. That’s where we worshiped the Lord, that’s where our friendships were. As the boys grew up, their friends were our friends’ kids, friendships that lasted through their teen years, into adulthood, and continuing to this day. Our sons are turning 38, 37, 35, 33 this year. Even though people have moved, they keep in touch through Facebook, etc.
The following are verses that motivated me in my early walk in pursuing Jesus every day and still motivate me today. The thing is, my journals are still full of me pouring my heart out to Him.
You will seek Me and find Me when you search for me with all your heart.
I sought the Lord and He heard me and delivered me from all my fears.
But as for me, I TRUST in You, O Lord; I say, “You are my God.” My times are in Your hand.
But he who TRUSTS in the Lord, mercy shall surround him.
You are my hiding place; You shall preserve me from trouble; You shall surround me with songs of deliverance.
Behold the eye of the Lord is on those who fear Him, on those who hope in His mercy.
My message is: be glad if you are weak, insecure, not confident—that means that more than other people you will go to Jesus continuously for His strength, for His security, and for His confidence. And for your daily life you will need His perspective and His ability to persevere in you through your trials. Because you are aware of what you are not–You will be diligently seeking Him and leaning on Him, and you will receive much favor.
Psalm 147:11 The Lord delights in those who fear Him, who put their hope in His unfailing love. NIV
Psalm 149:4 For the Lord takes delight in his people; He crowns the humble with victory. NIV
Be glad if you feel that you are untalented, because in time He will unearth gold in you and use you!
Don’t wallow in what you are not. Jesus has everything we need and is the most generous Person I know. He loves to share His life. As He writes blogs and books through me, He gets the credit because I am dialoguing with Him through every paragraph! People will say: “SHE can write?? I never knew it was in her.”
As He sings through you, people will say: “I’ve sat near her in church and she really worships and loves the Lord,” and He gets the credit.
As you become strong in everyone’s sight because you are relying on Jesus for everything, those who know the real you (the insecure you who feels ineffectual and inferior) will be amazed at how the Lord shines through you.
And in all these things, He gets the attention, He gets the glory! And that is really what it is all about.
As I consider these events of my life and all of the God stories I have told so far, I am not doing justice to
Life has problems continuously. They are called trials, tests, and challenges and they end up as GOD STORIES as I stop and cry out to the Lord and bring Him into the situation. He then has an opportunity to answer me, deliver me, change my heart, hold me tight…whatever I happen to need.Continue reading “30- Navigating Gullies and Gulches”→