205 ~ Sweets and Prayers and Horses with Hairy Angles

205 – Sweets and Prayers

and Horses with Hairy Ankles

August 13, 1986

The boys missed the party and movie over at the school . It was the culmination of the summer program and I just wasn’t excited about them going and told Dan that.

They accepted our ‘no’ beautifully. Praise God. We decided to have our own party of popcorn, peanut butter cookies, and a piece of candy. We walked along Big Tree Street counting the trees near the road (61) not the ones in people’s yards.. We visited the Pletcher’s, and came home to watch Chris for 1 ½ hours while Leslie had some business to attend to. All four boys consider him their best friend and he is kind and gracious to all of them. He’s a mature only child.

August 14

Yesterday I overdosed on sugar. The after affects were the usual:


-anxiety, irritability

-craving for more

-slight headache

The adverse side-effects always get me back on the no sugar wagon–at least for a while!! I’ve got to make a break.

August 15

Yesterday, Thursday, at 10am Daniel wanted to be held, he was very fussy. I decided to sit in the rocker and hold him and pray. He fell asleep and took an early nap, but I was able to intercede for a while. I had no idea for whom I was praying, but I just asked God to intervene.

Today I got a letter from Jan, written last week, that Kyle was having surgery at noon on Thursday–but then I got a call from Janet and she said Kyle had the surgery at 10am our time!! and that it had been a great success.


I trusted You and went to the Clydesdale exhibit with the neighbors. I didn’t really want to go, but the kids did. My kids were so patient and uncomplaining. Hers were awful and complaining loudly. Embarrassingly so. 

The next day she came over to ask what I used to spank them with and about the chores the kids do!!

202 ~ I Threw Myself On the Lord

202 – I Threw Myself On the Lord

July 18, 1986

During my early morning walk I prayed to be able to have discernment about the enemy and have victory over my flesh when I find myself rising up and taking the enemy’s bait! And did I ever need that prayer….

The boys were across the street hanging out with their friends. Dan and I went to Beulah’s to pick up the kids so we could take them to the 4-H meeting. The ladies were gossiping, actually slandering someone. Praise God I kept out of it.

Then at the school where the meeting was, I became fearful and angry about something.

Then after we got home, sorrow came upon me because I had no car to use to get Dan a birthday gift.

Then disgust because the flour canister had a huge ant in it so I could not bake for him.

I THREW MYSELF ON THE LORD, making sure the boys were well occupied in the playroom.

Loneliness and lack of control over my life, overwhelmed me.

I almost called Karen for prayer support, because I don’t even have a prayer partner here! –amazingly, restraint came because it would have been a very unwise use of money.

BUT GOD SAVED ME! without my calling anyone.

Peace came from God. My problems disappeared. We (the boys and I) would accept what we could not change and make do.

Then my mom called! GLORY!

Then my neighbor, Janet, came over and offered me her car!!

So I piled the boys in to the car and we went to the store and bought what we needed.

I had a major personal victory, and God worked mightily on my behalf! BLESS YOU, LORD!

The impact: self pity, a victim spirit, fearfulness, anger, loneliness, overwhelmingness—none of those things interfere with my relationship with the Lord if I just turn to Him and throw myself on His always-available mercy and grace.

So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most. Hebrews 4:16

195- We are Welcomed and Embraced

195 – We are Welcomed

and Embraced

June 23, 1986

Soon after we arrived in Livonia, Ted Kryzinski, a student from the Bible School, arrived to greet us and tell us to call his friend, Mike, the new Dean of Married Students. We had told Mike of our arrival date and he had sent Ted to greet us. (no cell phones!) Mike invited us to dinner, so we piled into our Suburban and Ted led the way to Mike’s house in the next town. Lima was 12 miles away and was the tiny town where Elim Bible Institute was located. What a blessed welcome!

Mike’s wife, Tish, was a wonderful hostess and a great cook and also brought dinner to our house the next night!

In the morning, our landlady appeared with 6 blueberry donuts for breakfast and later our down-the-street-neighbor, Cheryl, came by with coffee cake and a cooler of juice and paper cups. Elim students Rich and Brent arrived from Lima and helped Dan unload the containers and carry the furniture and the cardboard boxes into the house. They stored the empty shipping containers on the property.

I turned the black account book we had used as a diary of our trip into a FORGET-NOT-HIS-BENEFITS journal and listed all of the letters and cards and money gifts, which arrived often from our families and our Reno church. They took special offerings for us every couple of months. Our families and friends remembered our birthdays and sent the boys $1 bills or stickers on Halloween and Valentine’s Day. We also received money gifts from our Elim married student’s group and rides to appointments (we had one car which Dan took to school and work). We were given grocery bags of food at Thanksgiving and at Christmas and other random times, often left anonymously on the doorstep. We received clothes bags of used clothes for the whole family (which we had become used to receiving in our Reno church).

The grandest blessing of all was that 90% of the students were living by faith in God and depending on Him for their jobs, rent, and school fees. We weren’t weird anymore–like the ugly duckling we had found our flock!! And that brought us a deep comfort.

We made friends with the neighbors and two boys who were cousins, David and Chris, became great friends to all 4 sons.

Our house was on Big Tree Street, aptly named. Every 10 or 15 feet there was a giant and grand old tree. There were no fences between the houses, but acres of green, green grass. At harvest time, the apples and corn and berries ripened. Often our neighbors and new school friends shared their produce with us. Our garden grew giant pumpkins, tomatoes, corn, and the blackberry bushes thrived. We planted a several rows of veggies but could not keep up with the weeds and did not have much success.

What a pumpkin! Danny 2, Steve 6, Mark 4, Tim 7.

We quickly became part of a small home school group which was part of the greater homeschool group from the Bible School. We met for weekly get togethers, celebration of holidays, crafts, fun foods, and outings to the playground.  

Gramma Fern and Auntie Yvonne came for a visit and we went to Niagara Falls. Gramma treated us all to an exciting ride on the Maid of the Mist tourist boat that went up close to the falls.

Mark, Tim, Steve on the Maid-of-the-Mist boat at Niagra Falls. Raincoats were distributed to all passengers. Danny was there also. 

191 -Goodbye to the Familiar, and Onward ho!

191- Goodbye to the Familiar and Onward ho!


First week in June, 1986 – our church friends blessed us…

John and Jan invited us to spend the week with them so we could empty out and clean our 1200 square foot house. The boys slept on Kyle’s bedroom floor. Dan and I slept in the extra room, me on a twin bed, Dan on the roll-a-way. One night Janet brought dinner for the whole group!

Auntie Bev gave us a black account book to use as a trip log and to keep a record of our expenses. She wrote: A journal of the events of the Dan Lemaire family while on an adventure across this nation to a destiny of service to our Lord! God bless your journey and each of you!

Our garage sale brought in $200. Bill and Carol had taken the kids overnight and the whole day. Bill and Joyce brought Dan and I a special dinner of Bill’s famous beef and potato pasties.

The church gave us a money gift to add to the garage sale proceeds, and we stopped downtown and sold Dan’s silver dollars to add to our cash stash.

The Suburban was packed to the hilt with kids, camping equipment, coolers, camera, and clothes. We said tearful goodbyes to our friends and headed for the freeway. We could see our church up on the hill, and one of the kids yelled goodbye, and we all yelled good bye. As we passed St. Mary’s hospital where Dan and the boys had all been born, we yelled goodbye! In another mile, Tim pointed to the area where Jackie and John and their girls lived and we yelled goodbye at the top of our lungs.

The boys were 7, 6, 4, 2 years old. They were all in car seats or boosters so they could see the scenery for the next 3,000 miles.

We all felt the pangs of separating from our excellent friends and support system, but we were geared up for adventure!

First stop, just a two-hour drive to spend the night with my high school best friend Nancy and her family. We swam in their pool and had spaghetti for dinner and waffles for breakfast.

Second stop, four days with my family in Oxnard, CA –including a trip to Disneyland! Our brother-in-law Jerry surprised us by treating us to the Disney* tickets!

*In 1986, Disneyland adult tickets were $18 and children’s tickets were $12.95. As I am editing this post, February 2018, prices increased just today: adult tickets are $119 and children’s tickets are $113.

189 – What Goes Around Comes Around and the Lord Provides

189 – What Goes Around Comes Around

and the Lord Provides

May 28, 1986

Today one of our church friends, Pam P, brought her sons to our house to play with the boys while our goal was to mend and sew. Actually, I tended the kids, changed bobbins, made popcorn, passed out popsicles, while she pinned and patched rips in Levis and sewed sleeping bag liners on the machine. Dan figured the kids might not be showering every night as we travel across the country and that liners would help preserve their sleeping bags.

Pam mentioned our clothes would be inadequate for the frigid winter that we were headed for in upstate NY. She said her husband’s uncle was a furrier and that he had given her a beautiful fur coat that was amazingly warm. She offered it to me.

She had an interesting story about the fur coat, which she felt proved that God had actually saved that coat for me!

Two years ago they tried to sell the fur coat at a garage sale and it did not sell. The proceeds of that sale paid their rent. The next month they still had no money, and wrote a check by faith which they could not cover.  An envelope arrived with money in it and a return address which they later realized was the church’s post office box number. The message inside said, “God cares for His own.” Their rent check did not bounce, and she said it really built their faith.

WE SENT THAT MONEY TO THEM! I remember clearly Dan putting $350 cash in an envelope with the note I typed! Of course I didn’t tell her, but here she was serving me in my time of need and promising me her beautiful fur coat! She said they had never told anyone, that only God knew! 

Yesterday a note and money came from Bonnie M—another person in our church we had given money to when they were in a pinch.

God is reminding me—freely freely you gave, open your hands to receive blessings NOW ! Don’t hesitate in any way to say YES to every blessing God sends your way!

When we prayed tonight, Dan teared up.

187- Trust in the Lord

187- Trust in the Lord

May 3, 1986

Dan was reading Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart…

                …..and praying about Elim.

The phone rang. It was a student who was helping find homes for new families.

…do not lean on your own understanding….

There is an upstairs apartment in Livonia, a town 9 miles from the school: $185, 4 bedrooms, safe yard!!

Even though this was an amazing deal, I was really worried about taking an upstairs apartment–I could not imagine traipsing upstairs with bags of groceries, a toddler, big wheels, sleds…


We decided NOT to lean on our own understanding. We prayed God would caution us by 5 pm Sunday, if we were not to take it.

There was no caution….

The student called back….

He had made a mistake! It’s a HOUSE with an apartment inside it—not an outside stairway! Praise God – Praise God – Praise God!

Our friend Bill offered to do the garage sale for us. But as it worked out he and his wife, Carol, took all four boys to their house on the day of our garage sale and kept them overnight. They have two boys who are our boys good friends.

We found out our church probably cannot be our non-profit organization so that people wanting to support us would get receipts.

But Fred, District Supervisor told our pastor, “we’ll work something out!”

185- When to Go?

185-When to Go?

April 14, 1986

Genesis 7:4 For after seven more days I will cause it to rain…

God tells His people what He will do…

Genesis 8:15 Then God spoke to Noah, saying, Go out of the ark…

God can make it clear when to go out—we listen and keep moving toward our destination.

April 15

Karen  and I prayed on the phone last night. Both of us were greatly encouraged in our spirits by God. She felt a major breakthrough regarding fear.

I was encouraged to focus on thankfulness of what God HAS DONE, not focus on the problem of how He still needs to provide. This is a great blessing to me. I know I must be quenching the Holy Spirit through my undisciplined negativism. In Jesus’ Name I ask POWER to change! His Spirit to change me!

We were greatly encouraged by these Bible verses about our pilgrimage to relocate to New York, our efforts to be built up in the Spirit, our goal to do God’s work in saving the lost.

Matthew18-21 And Jesus came and spoke to them, saying, “All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.

177- Be Like Jesus: Do Good and Heal the Sick

177- Be Like Jesus: Do Good and Heal the Sick

December 10, 1985 – 6am

Mark 2:23-3:5 Walk in the Spirit and do good.

            3:10 The people saw Him heal others before their eyes—“they all pressed about Him in order to touch Him and be healed.”

            3:12 Jesus must have been frustrated by the disobedience of the unclean spirits revealing His identity.

            3:13-14 He chose 12 to teach them how to preach and cast out demons

            3:25 He doesn’t not want us to be “a house divided against itself.”

            3:27 He wants the strong man bound.

            3:35 He didn’t so much deny his mother and brother, but took everyone else in who loved and Him and obeyed God.

            4:20 Be good ground for the Word, accept it, and let it bear fruit.

                   (verse 19) Don’t be distracted by affliction or by the worries of the world or the luring of deceitful riches.

            4:39 He wants us not to be intimidated by the elements. To trust Him.

Later: Mary, from next door, and I went to get the Christmas tree! They are not living in the apartment but are salvaging what they can from the ashes. She was happy to purchase our tree and the boys were ecstatic.

Sandra (young neighbor) (v.(came to make a Christmas craft. The boys like her a lot and they had fun sitting at our restaurant booth kitchen table coloring and cutting and gluing. Tomorrow we will go to Jackie’s and make popcorn balls. Next week we’ll go to my parent’s for the holidays.

174- Answered Prayer

174- Answered Prayer

December 3, 1985

Tonight Archie and Mary, our next door neighbors whose apartment burned Wednesday night a week ago, arrived at the door—full of thanksgiving for us letting them in for all of those hours while the firemen worked on the blaze—and still amazed that we had done it.

“What can we do for you?”

Eventually I had it! – A Christmas tree—they could get us a Christmas tree! Oh, Lord, how YOU DO PROVIDE FOR US! We are all so happy–them to be a blessing and us to be blessed in this way.

Mary also said that this is a time for them to clean out. They’ve both been married three times and had several sets of silverware, three irons (that all melted together), etc. She looked me right in the eye and she seemed surprised about her changing attitudes. I DEFINITELY BELIEVE THAT GOD IS AT WORK. We have prayed for them to know Him.

December 7, 1985

Praise God! Dan’s paycheck yesterday will pay the rent ($485) and the VW bus payment ($179), as well as the tithe, and a couple of other bills. There is $36 left over for Christmas presents.

Thankful that YOU are giving ORDER to our Christmas! Little by little You are providing!

Also, yesterday I saw an old teacher friend. Because of the troubles he shared with me I gave him a verse:

1 Peter 5:7-8 casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you. Be sober, vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.

He was blessed and he gave me an EXCELLENT art idea that my kids can make as Christmas gifts. PRAISE GOD.

We were in a homeschool group with 3 other families. We met every week for art and music, field trips, and fellowship. Here we are at Carol’s having our own small Christmas pageant. The angels ‘on high’ are standing on the couch, Mary and Joseph are tending baby Jesus in his cradle, the 3 wise children are wearing large gold crowns, and two shepherds are nearby. The little shepherd’s staff seems to be laying on top of the baby (doll) in the cradle–is the little shepherd asleep?

172- Back on Track for Bible School – Part 2

172- Back on Track for Bible School – Part 2

December 2, 1985

The next 3 guideposts in Mahoney’s pamphlet were:

5- CIRCUMSTANTIAL EVIDENCE – we had dialogue with Elim housing personnel and they had a house for us; the office manager put Dan’s application forward to the committee even though he had not received Dan’s Bodenseehof Bible School transcripts and we were accepted by the board to become students. Also, our pastor believed in us, and our church was missions minded.

6- THE PEACE OF GOD – I had peace and readiness to cross the country with all of our worldly goods in my 8th month of pregnancy with our sons ages 4, 3, and 2.

7- PROVISION – We were slim on provision, but felt our church would step up to help us get to New York, and Dan could get a job once we were there.

I felt we had 5 and 7 but Dan never felt THE PEACE OF GOD again after the counsel of his elder friends who strongly advised him to stay.

After waiting and praying for weeks, last night I FINALLY felt right about asking Dan what he thought of Mahoney’s pamphlet. I related my thoughts and reminded him that Mahoney says: if anything comes BEFORE inward conviction, confusion results.

Dan was completely receptive to all of this! It was if the blinders came off his eyes. He related that he had just been thinking today about how much he wants to serve God. He has been doing a lot of studying about missions for his four Sunday talks about missions on Sunday nights at church. Also, Sunday morning, the building inspector CAME TO CHURCH!!! He had given the church a HARD time during inspections so we had him on the church prayer chain. Toward the end of the building project he softened a little after Dan invited him to the Dedication and he came! TODAY AFTER SERVICE HE TOLD DAN HE FELT DRUNK! Dan told him he was drunk with the Holy Spirit. He said he will definitely be back. Dan was SO encouraged by this. This is the most important business on earth, bringing others to Jesus Christ. Also, we had found out that this man has a horrible reputation around town. God touched him.

back to 5- CIRCUMSTANTIAL EVIDENCE – I felt that when the church took a collection a few months ago and GAVE us the Suburban that Dan had had his eyes on for months that it was circumstantial evidence. The car was a thank you gift to Dan for building the church and for me for letting him! The vehicle is the kind we wanted to make the drive to NY.

back to 6- THE PEACE OF GOD – Today after church we prayed together on our knees and surrendered ourselves once again to God’s will for us. We asked Him to put this together.

We are waiting, trusting, praying…