290 – I’m an Overcomer!

290 – I’m an Overcomer!

January 25, 1988

I am in victory. I can tell because I have a sense of order in me, not based on the surroundings. This is being an overcomer. It’s the life I was BORN to live and have to strive so hard to hold onto!!!

I have strength and resolve to stand in the Lord with Stevie during our reading lessons. His attitude has changed dramatically to submissive, cheerful, willing, eager!! It was FUN!

Diane has an acquaintance who needs babysitting for her children: two boys (second grade and kindergarten) and a 14-month old girl.

I have been praying for playmates for my boys—could this be the answer?

And BABY has been on my mind because of the recent dreams.

Donna said: this may not be how you want to win people to the Lord but this lady needs Jesus!

I have been praying about taking Signs and Wonders class. I felt God said I would be able to CHOOSE to take the class or to take the babysitting job. Dan and I prayed. We’ll see.

Karen will babysit tonight so I will go to signs and wonders class unless more snow or more illness blocks me!! Praying for God to make it CLEAR where I belong.

January 26 

BARB COUNSELED ME TO FORGET THE SIGNS AND WONDERS CLASS AND FOCUS ON MY RESPONSIBILITIES AT HOME! 

She said: You are doing well, stay home and love your children! And take the babysitting job: you said you would take money however the Lord brought it!

She was pretty intense about it.

As iron sharpens iron, so a man sharpens the countenance of his friend. Proverbs 27:17

While praying about Barb’s exhortation, Psalm 25 flashed into my vision.

PERFECT: v. 12 Who is the man who fears the Lord? He will instruct him in the way he should choose!! Ok, keep on speaking, Lord.

Then it came to my mind that on Missionary weekend, Mr. Phillips said: people always want to know what they’re called to do for the Lord. What do you do well? That’s probably it.

That made me think immediately of  child training as something I have a lot of experience with …and I surrendered and I really meant it. Thank You, Holy Spirit!!

Darren came over after school and I already had the three Trimble kids, plus my four. With the three new kids that will be a houseful.

288 – Learning to Walk in Joy

288 – Learning to Walk in Joy

January 17, 1988

God is teaching me to walk in JOY. During the week of prayer I went forward for prayer for heaviness of heart. But I am still continually defeated by it. I finally took Dan’s suggestion and called Janet last night. He said her testimony in the Lord is growing. She proclaims:

“THE DEVIL WILL NOT STEAL MY JOY! Jesus purchased that joy with His life, death, blood, and His glorious resurrection. If I have not the Lord’s JOY, I have no strength, because THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH. I must have energy and strength. I must have joy. By my will I speak it out, I pursue JOY, I confess His Lordship!” Nehemiah 8:10

It ministered to me. I am sending her the words to the song, I Will Survive—I had asked the Lord to tell me who could really sing it unto Him. That would be my strong-in-the-Lord friend, Janet.

Dan exhorted me to wake up each morning and immediately begin praying in tongues –not to begin calculating how many hours of sleep I got, or how many times I was up with the kids, or what happened yesterday, or what’s on the agenda today. It’s a good word.

You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of JOY; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore. Psalm 16:11

For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking but of righteousness and peace and JOY in the Holy Spirit. Romans 14:17

The fruit of the Spirit is love, JOY, peace…. Galatians 5:22

283 – He is Wonderful!

283 -He is Wonderful!

December 8, 1987

We just received $500 from &&& in the mail! It came with two specifications:

*don’t tell anyone [30 years later I will still honor their request]

*it’s for Christmas only—so the boys will have lots of gifts under the tree

*it’s for food and your needs.

PRAISE THE LORD!

My first thoughts were for things that money can’t buy:

*I want a loving heart and control over my tongue

*the boys to be more manageable

*for Bema to be well

*for my dad to be well

*time to crochet all kinds of towels for Christmas gifts

I am remembering that Ben Dodzweit said, if you need money, GIVE. And we have. And it came back many-fold.

I got up really early. I had prayed for God to let me. I prayed and walked. And I was at the Laundromat by 6:45! You are wonderful! WONDERFUL!!

Blessed is that man who makes the Lord his trust….Many, O Lord my God, are Your wonderful works which You have done; and Your thoughts toward us cannot be recounted to You in order; if I would declare and speak of them, they are more than can be numbered.

Psalm 40:4a,5

279 – God’s Encouragements Abound

 279- God’s Encouragements Abound

October 27, 1987

Yesterday on my walk I had cried out—Lord, I make consistent effort yet my life is so unhappy during these days. I realized I have just been sliding along with the current, day in and day out, being busy, pedaling fast to keep up–but not expending any effort to grab hold of the Lord through gratitude or praise.

I MUST ENCOURAGE MYSELF IN THE LORD!

Today I kept on top of my attitude! IT WAS WONDERFUL!

After Tim went to school, I loaded up the three boys and we went to Steve’s tutoring at Tom and Carley’s. Then to the post office, then directly home so I could type a 15 page paper for Dan.

I kept being kind, loving, helpful, by God’s grace, and kept on top of impatience and kept it OUT of my heart. I kept submitting myself to the Lord.

I finished the paper at 4:40 just in time load all the boys in the car and drive to Elim and pick Dan up. I felt rested and joyful. Then Vivian offered to babysit so I could go back to Elim and go to class (Signs and Wonders) with Dan. Praise God!

When I went to the post office we had received a package from Jan with coloring books, sticker books, science things, and the children’s Pilgrim’s Progress!

We also received a package from my mom with Halloween party good, cute ‘spooky’ cards for the kids, and a letter from her.

Connie called, but I missed the call.

Karen called and said that Paul said that “Breakthrough is coming. School is an unbelievable strain on a man and his family but you’ll make it! and it’s worth it and your Elim experience is invaluable for you.”  Very ENCOURAGING words from the Lord. Thank You, Paul.

Therefore ENCOURAGE one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing. 1 Thessalonians 5:11

But ENCOURAGE one another day after day, as long as it is still called “Today,” so that none of you will be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin. Hebrews 3:13

278 – Still Receiving

278 – Still Receiving

September 25, 1987

I had a wonderful experience this Monday night. When I grocery shopped I kept to my carefully planned list and spent only $63. I asked God to add to our provisions for the week and Donna brought a bag of groceries in which were two meals of pasta and sauce, plus a treat to serve at the home group on Thursday night. AND Donna said they are bringing us their our old couch!

Vivian’s boyfriend gave us a large box of powdered milk, government issue.

Our Reno church sent $60.

Praise the Lord, God is good!

September 28

After church at Elim, Joan offered to pay for me to go to Women’s Leadership Retreat. I was not very interested but I did not react negatively. I have put the matter in God’s hands. It would be a hardship on Dan because Tuesday through Friday he would need to take the boys to sitters as well as prepare all of the meals. He has been working at SouthCo (a manufacturing company) long hours and many nights for over a month.  Yet, the Lord could make this a glorious blessing for all. I feel I am neutral in this. To go or not go is fine with me. Joan called again, pressing me for an answer so she could register me. She offered to call Karen to see if she would be willing to babysit.

October 2

Dan said he REALLY wanted me to go to the retreat if I had the courage. I believe I do. Everything began to fall into place. Barb will keep Tim, Karen is very glad to watch the other three boys. So, Lord, by faith I have registered and called Joan. She will pay today.

I thank You in advance by faith and I will keep it in Your hands and pray Your all-sufficient grace is on the entire four days.        

275 – Jesus Died, I Must Die

275 – Jesus Died, I Must Die

August 26 and 27 1987

Gramma Fern must have sent us a good amount of money. How to spend it was the topic of several of Dan’s and my conversations in my journals and many days of seeking the Lord’s will. We went back to seriously thinking about Christian school for Timmy—at least I did.

This confuses me, Lord, and I need to hear from You. It feels we are getting ‘tossed about’ over this!

Lord, You know the whole issue, but now Dan feels very strongly that Timmy should go to public school. I sort of stormed out of the house and headed out to the country roads. I took an hour and a half brisk walk and confessed all my pride and rebellion, pouring out my heart’s confusion and sadness.

All I could say at the end of praying and praising and seeking You was, “Lord, carry me through this.” I definitely cannot cope.

I was wanting someone to pray with about submission who could be neutral and non-judgmental and give me wisdom. Donna brought a friend she had not seen in years to our Bible study after she ran into her at her son’s soccer game. I almost opened it up, but I didn’t want a big discussion with everyone’s advice and people hearing our problems without Dan there. But this Diane had moved her kids from the Christian School to the public school! I felt in my spirit that she would have encouragement and wisdom to share.

Matthew 27:43 …He trusts in God, let Him deliver Him now if He takes pleasure in Him…

People were saying of Jesus–HA! Let God deliver this man from the cross! I feel this is happening to me—I cannot come down from the cross. There are mockings and insults all around me. I feel I let my children down because they did not do well on the SAT test. I feel foolish and misunderstood by the neighbors AND the homeschoolers.

Then it occurred to me by the Spirit that Jesus did get off the cross. And so will I.

He got off when He died!I will get off —–when I die to this!

When I can really totally say, “Thy will be done.”

And when I do not get emotionally involved in what ANYONE thinks, but only in what YOU think, Lord.

271 – Free Travel, Vending Machines and Law Suits

271 – Free Travel, Vending Machines, and Lawsuits

July 31, 1987

We just got back from two full weeks in Reno. Jan and Jim sold their vacation trailer and took up a collection at church to pay for our family’s plane tickets. WOW! We were humbled. Bob and Janet were on vacation and gave us their house to use! To top it off my parents came to town for a 3-day visit. We saw friends and family; we were loved and gave love.

August 10

We came back to Livonia to the reality of three lawsuits: Dan’s passenger, Brian; the owner of the Hostess Cupcake truck; and Elizabeth the driver of the truck.

I read in Matt 5:40 And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, let him have your coat also.

It was God’s word, and amazing that I ‘just happened’ to read it today.

But it was not very comforting.

August 14

On a family outing we stopped in a gas station along the highway. Inside the bathroom some obscene materials were offered for sale from a vending machine. I felt conscience-bound to call the corporate head of the gas station company for making the materials available.

I wrote out what I was going to say and respectfully told the top-guy my concerns.

Once I cried spontaneously (for the children who have seen this type of machine in a public place). The man I was talking to said, “I understand, believe me!” I followed up with a letter and included the gospel message. I felt so free and relieved afterward.

269 – Watching God Work

269 – Watching God Work

April 22, 1987

On Sunday, worship at Elim was WONDERFUL.

There was a call for prayer. The atmosphere was so anointed that I asked God what I could go up for. He told me and so I went.

We all had fun at Bob and Linda’s for Easter dinner. Cold outside, with snow on the ground, but eight little boys in the house went surprisingly well. Ages 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8!! Hers mixed in perfectly with mine.

Yesterday Jan called. She wants to come for a visit. There are horrible problems at her house. I said on the condition that she would be TOTALLY OPEN TO THE LORD, COUNSEL, PRAYER, etc.

At the dentist’s I witnessed to Sue, the dental assistant. She was interested that we wanted to tell Japanese people about Jesus! The Lord worked to set up her interest! It was amazing.

I sought out Cathy, the hygienist, and gave her a Guideposts magazine and an excellent book on becoming a Christian and getting started in a faith walk. She was not only receptive but excited.

Dan suggested I invite our neighbor Julie to the Cults class. We’re having a speaker on Thursday on Mormonism. She is considering it!!!

JULIE CALLED ME when I was getting my nerve up to ask her! GOD DID IT!!

But Jesus answered them, “My Father has been working until now, and I have been working.” John 5:17

I saw You working among us at church and at our friends’ home on Sunday, in my bold stance with Jan on Monday, in the dentist’s office on Tuesday– going before me softening the ladies’ hearts, and today working in Julie’s heart to be interested in visiting Elim and being open to hearing about her religion. Astounding! 

265 – Two Different ‘Drunks’

 

265 – Two Different ‘Drunks’

April 8, 1987

After being in my class, then in chapel, and then praying so sincerely with my friends at communion, when I got home I regarded the boys differently. I felt more patient, more understanding. I also felt their sincere love for me. I remember thinking that I was willing to lay down my life to show them God’s love.

Since Shan, Elim’s pastor’s wife, called me and asked me to speak to her ladies group on homeschooling, I realized that my testimony of it stinketh. I have been very upset ever since. I have been wanting You to give me a new, beautiful testimony of Jesus in my life. Today I have hope for it! I believe we are working on it together.

And do not get drunk with wine for that is dissipation, BUT BE FILLED WITH THE SPIRIT…making melody in your heart to the Lord. Ephesians 5:18,19d

When I used to be DRUNK with wine, I remember feeling free, bold, happy, not easily offended, having no cares.

Surely being DRUNK with the Holy Spirit must be glorious—having great peace, not easily worried, not easily offended, joyful, positive, full of faith, not doubting, full of good deeds, kind in speech and manner, self controlled in thoughts and actions, long-suffering, gentle not harsh.

Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit let us also walk by the Spirit. Galatians 5:24-25

263 – We Receive, We Stand Strong

263 – We Receive, We Stand Strong

March 18, 1987

God continues to bless us.

Did we pass some test? Ford some river of faith?

* At the married students’ chapel service, Mike passed the hat for Dan and over $500 came in.

*In our mailbox at Elim we received several money gifts, one of which was for $300. Wally and Debbie came by our house with $100.

*Total bank deposit I will make tomorrow: $1,188.21. All from the last two days.

*Janet and Bob called on his company’s WATS line.

*Possible job: Josie (house mate) saw advertised in the Penny Saver yesterday—a job for a draftsman—in Livonia! Right up the street!

*I was able to pay all the bills. I am overwhelmed to say the least.

*Dan called Pastor Dave so when people arrive at church tonight Dave will already know the news that several ladies (Janet, Jan, Jackie, Erna, Carol) already know…that we will be most likely staying here for the time being.

Make sure that your character is free from the love of money, being content with what you have; for He Himself has said, “I WILL NEVER DESERT YOU, NOR WILL I EVER FORSAKE YOU” Hebrews 13:5

 March 19

My filling fell out last night.

Car wouldn’t start yesterday evening and the Livonia parts place was closed by then.

When Dan called today, they did not have the part.

I almost did not go to class, but I had determined last night that I must not miss what God has for me under any circumstances. Dan agreed and we stood firm. And prayed.

We decided to borrow Josie’s car. Dan and the boys drove me to Elim. Debbie had been here last night (giving us the check!) and had offered to take the boys to Thursday School (homeschool group), so we took her up on it. Dan stayed at school to study while I went to class and we both went to chapel.

Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. Ephesians 6:10