236 – A Dramatic November

236 – A Dramatic November

November 26, 1986

Mark and Brian were Dan’s passengers in the car accident. Mark, a single guy living at home, went back to school the next day, sore and still shaken, but uninjured. His friendship with Dan stood strong. Brian, who had been in the front seat, had suffered a concussion and had endured the worst of the impact. He was married. He was not angry or blaming Dan.

Dan and I visited Brian and Mark in their homes last night. We had good fellowship with both of them.

We went to see the driver of the Hostess Cupcake truck, Elizabeth, who was still in the hospital. She was not interested in hearing ANYTHING we had to say. She was angry, rude, and defensive. It hurt Dan that he could not make amends with her. We are praying for her.

The month of November had been very dramatic and traumatic.

Jimmy, our neighbor, former home group leader, and Dan’s very good friend, was in the hospital. Dan went to see him so often that our next pay check was slim. Dan thought he could help Jimmy recover and regain his mental and physical health and get back into the school routine. God finally gave Dan a vision that warned him to stay away, that his involvement would in the long run do no good at all. Wow! It was a real vision with a picture of a vacuum and Dan being sucked down into it. Receiving a vision from God in itself was impactful and made it seem imperative that we heed it.

Dan had never been in a serious car accident. And to be the cause of it was mind-blowing. We got lots of support, we were not standing alone.

My journal indicates that we received $1800 from the insurance company for the totaled Suburban. We also received $600 from Penny, a missionary. That meant we could pay our bills and put money toward our next vehicle.

We may trust Him fully, all for us to do;
They who trust Him wholly find Him wholly true*.

*lyrics from the song Like a River Glorious, by Frances Havergal, 1876

229 – God is Real and Faithful

229 – God is Real and Faithful

November 12, 1986

God just showed me (as I am trying to do my devotions and Markie, age 4, keeps making noises in his room that I am afraid will wake up Daniel, age 2that I am getting angry in the middle of my devotions!

Dan said: “tell God you’re sorry and go on. You can’t praise God when you’re angry so you have to keep a right heart all the time. Purpose to praise and worship Him.”

This is FUNNY: I was trying to read:

So I will sing praise to Thy Name forever! Psalm 61:8

and then: Paul and Silas were in prison praising God at midnight! Acts 16:25

…they were singing when they should have HUMANLY been angry at God and been arguing with Him that they were HIS servants, doing HIS will, and needed a good night’s sleep.

Later same night: this was a day of accusations from the enemy, confusion and NOISE! I kept taking refuge in the Lord and I saw Him move, but then there I was again, being assailed constantly.

Tracey called at 1—Praise God—so I got to pray with someone.

Karen called from the west coast at 8:30 to say that GOD IS FAITHFUL. She said she was SO burdened for me today. Thank You, Lord, for being REAL. Thank you for sending good good friends who will stand with me and pray and who I can pray with in their distress.

228 – Josie’s Dilemma and Josie’s Faith

228 – Josie’s Dilemma and Josie’s Faith

November 9, 1986

Josie is looking at her marriage with clear eyes, she says, for the first time. She keeps hoping everything will work out. I am looking for a glorious healing in Jimmy, a revival of their love, and a significant ministry to other hurting people. It’s either my idea or God’s. I’m going to believe it is His and pray it.

I am learning something from Josie. She keeps clinging to God. When she is shaken, when there is darkness all around, when the circumstances are overwhelming, she keeps confessing His sovereignty and she wants His will. It is an encouragement to me.

She went to church with us and we were praising God in the morning and at night –through dance, singing, loud noisy shouts, wonderful songs and psalms—with the body of believers. It was glorious.

I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for He has clothed me with the garments of salvation, He has covered me with the robe of righteousness…. Isaiah 61:10

Let them praise His name with the dance…. Psalm 149:3a

Praise lifts the spirit of heaviness and everything looks bright and new again.

Jesus gives beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness. Isaiah 61:3 paraphrased

218 – Putting My Faith in Christ

218 Putting My Faith in Christ

October 12, 1986

Meeting my fears and anxieties and inadequacies through the Word of God….

Which – I told Julie yesterday—I base my life on.

It is no longer I who live now, but Christ who lives in me. Galatians 2:20

Faithful is he who calls you who also will do it. 1 Thessalonians 5:24

Ye are dead and your life is hidden in Christ with God. Colossians 3:3

A dead man is free of worry and introspection!

I put my faith in Christ in me.

Christ in you the hope of glory. Colossians 1:27

I turn from ME to YOU, Jesus. You live in me and I believe right now that You will live out this day through me. I will keep praising YOU, I will keep believing in Your faithfulness. I believe Your power will empower me to be kind and gracious. Thank You!!

217 – Through the Holy Spirit, Like Jesus

217 – Through the Holy Spirit, Like Jesus

October 8, 1986

Thinking of my heaviness, harshness, at times.

Praying, pleading, for positive attitude.

Having just finished Isaiah and begun Jeremiah last night, reflecting on the fact that God so often seems negative, terrible, full of laws and penalties, unyielding, even mean—we’re a lot like that, aren’t we, Father?

But then came Jesus and the New Testament—the new covenant.

THAT IS WHERE I WANT TO LIVE.

How can I? I ask myself – and I hear:

by the power of the Holy Spirit like Jesus did!!

Then Jesus, being filled with the Holy Spirit… Luke 4:1

How God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Ghost and with power: who went about doing good, and healing all that were oppressed of the devil; for God was with him. Acts 10:38

I choose Your abundant life, Jesus Christ. You are my Lord, Jesus. Let me serve You today. Let me serve my children with kindness in the fullness of Your Spirit.

214 – Praise Looses Chains

214 – Praise Looses Chains

October 3, 1986

I had a wonderful experience of  …our God inhabits the praises of His people…” (a phrase referring to Psalm 22:3)

Burdened, frustrated, overwhelmed and it was only mid-day. I went for a walk in the wind and rain and praised God determinedly and kept praising Him and acknowledging how merciful and compassionate He was. The darkness and the heaviness lifted.

I found myself hearing and welcoming some fun and creative homeschool ideas. You are wonderful and fantastic, Lord!

At home I turned some Christian music up LOUD and kept praising Him.

At home group that night I felt Dan and I were able to minister together.

Later I remembered the song by the Imperials (1979) called Praise the Lord:

“Now Satan is a liar and he wants to make us think
That we are paupers when he knows himself we’re children of the King.
So lift up the mighty shield of faith for the battle must be won,
We know that Jesus Christ has risen so the work’s already done.

Praise the Lord, for the chains that seem to bind you–

serve only to remind you–

that they drop powerless behind you–

when you praise Him.”

210 ~ It’s All About Jesus

210 – It’s All About Jesus

Sept 21, 1986

Dan keeps getting from Chapel and other services at school (like Weekend of Prayer), how MUCH Jesus loves us and WANTS to have fellowship with us. I want to know that, too, Lord.

This ministered to me this morning! [yes, it’s out of order, but this is the way it flowed for me that day]

Hebrews 12:1-7,11 in the Bible’s words and my words:

*Think about Jesus, and the hostility from sinners against Himself so that I do not grow weary in my walk and give up! 

*Fix my eyes on Jesus, remembering that He is the beginning of my faith and the One who will perfect it! 

*He endured because there was great joy awaiting Him in heaven. 

*He despised the shame but He is now in glory and receiving glory for His steadfast work of obedience. 

*Jesus is my example and there are many witnesses watching, rooting for me, cheering me on!

*Lay aside encumbrances, hangups. 

*Forsake the sin that trips me up. 

*R-u-n the race with Him, aware of His nearness! 

*Remember how much Jesus went through.

*Remember God disciplines those He loves.

*Remember discipline is good for me, just as correction is good for my children.

*Discipline is sorrowful at the time it is happening, but righteousness comes from it.

HOW DOES THIS WORK, Lord?– keep finding strength in the Lord, keep on straight paths, pursue peace, keep bitterness at bay, don’t get yourself in the rejection mode, Georgann!

208 ~ Glorious Times

208 – Glorious Times

September 20, 1986

Yesterday God called me apart!

I walked at noon toward the school but then turned and walked up the hill and into a field of waist-high wildflowers: yellow and purple. Bordering the field on one end were deciduous trees of every changing color. On my left, a quaint old red-brown farm house. I stood in the rain under my little blue Japanese umbrella and read Galatians in my Phillip’s pocket Bible. I had been needy, crying out to God. Through Galatians he reaffirmed:

* do not hold man’s approval in high regard—only God’s approval

*you are not under the law but under grace

* your righteousness is not of the law by your good deeds, but by faith in Jesus Christ

* walk in faith

It was a glorious time.

Dan wanted me to go to Elim to the prayer meeting. So I did. I’m often hesitant to go out on my own, especially driving the country roads at night.

As I drove on campus to the meeting, Tracey Belcastro had just pulled in. We walked together and sat together with her husband and interceded together and talked afterwards. She is a person I have been wanting to know. We have agreed to be prayer partners. God is gracious.

God lifted me through worship and then blessed me with a new release of my prayer language in intercessory prayer. He is so precious.

On Friday, God touched me in an interesting way: In my prayers before the home school meeting, feeling desperate for peace in place of anxiety, I felt a sensation on my head just back from my hairline moving from the right temple area, across to the left. Hmmmm. At the meeting I was freer to be me than I have been in ages—with no second thoughts or deep introspection. Praise Jesus.

207 ~ Be Selfish or Serve Others

207 – Be Selfish or Serve Others

September 6, 1986

I have become so disgusted with myself—and while repenting and broken I came upon the book by Charles Swindoll, Improving Your Serve-The Art of Unselfish Living.

I have been here before, and I am here again. Self-centered.

I’m too concerned with ME, my shower, my letters home, my Bible study, my nerves, my image, my mouth—and I have been becoming angry over so much waiting, my imperfection, kids’ imperfection, etc. Unwilling to make the real sacrifices like getting up early and working harder on having a cheerful heart.

But Lord help me to be more willing to die to myself and to be a servant. Like my husband. But especially like You. Dan is looking to You, looking to serve You. I want to, too.

Matthew 20: 25a, 28 But Jesus called them to Himself, and said, “You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them… just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many.”

1 Peter 5:2a Shepherd the flock of God which is among you, serving as overseers, not by compulsion but willingly…

Thank You that You give me attitude adjustments and do not leave me to myself. There is ALWAYS hope in Christ my Lord.

206 ~ Release and Cleansing

206 – Release and Cleansing

Sept 1, 1986

This is rewritten from a long entry in my journal:

Last week I had asked Dan to pray that if God had something to show me He would. Then yesterday at church at Elim, Brother Edwards, the president of the school, spoke of the spiritual renewal he had received over the summer break. He believed that because of it, today there will be an anointing for liberation from bondage to sin and from past crippling memories.

The Lord brought to mind some incidents in my life as a young child that made me feel dirty every time I thought of them. I joined the scores of people filing forward to the front of the church. Brother Edwards touched each one of us on the top of our head, praying as we walked by him. The prayer was a release from bondage into the wholeness of Christ.

Today in my regular devotions in Leviticus 18, I read about specific awful sins and how sin has the inevitable result of cutting us off from the people we love, and from the Lord. And yet God has made provision through the blood of Jesus for our cleansing our consciences from dead works to full restoration to Him.

Hebrews 8:12 For I will be merciful to their iniquities, and I will remember their sins no more.

Hebrews 9:13 For if the blood of goats and bulls and the ashes of a heifer, sprinkling those who have been defiled, sanctify for the cleansing of the flesh, how much more will the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered Himself without blemish to God, cleanse your conscience from dead works to serve the living God. 

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