339 – Here’s My Heart, Lord

339 – Here’s My Heart, Lord

February 2, 1989 Bridgemont, SF

God led me to Proverbs 2 and I began to cry out for wisdom, insight, and understanding.

My son, if you accept my words
    and store up my commands within you,
turning your ear to wisdom
    and applying your heart to understanding—
indeed, if you call out for insight
    and cry aloud for understanding,
and if you look for it as for silver
    and search for it as for hidden treasure,
then you will understand the fear of the Lord
    and find the knowledge of God.
For the Lord gives wisdom;
    from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
He holds success in store for the upright,
    he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
for he guards the course of the just
    and protects the way of his faithful ones.

I laid out before the Lord all the pondering and the full awareness of my deceitful heart and my ability in the flesh to go on with this for 3 ½ years—but that MY TRUE DESIRES were to become pregnant. I remember well the Spirit’s prayer through me years ago: that He would use us to speak out against abortion in whatever way He chose. I felt it was very bold, very Spirit; but the Spirit was moving and it was easy to step into it—and I meant it with all my heart.

I am putting my trust in God for giving me wisdom and insight, reducing the stress in my life by speaking to me a yea or nay about this, for speaking my heart to Dan as soon as possible.

It was well and good to desire a pregnancy, even at my age, 43. The challenge was that Dan had had a vasectomy after our fourth son was born. I knew God could over-ride the surgeon’s handiwork. No doubts whatsoever. But I didn’t want my will to be done. If it truly was a God-thing, I wanted Dan to be on board and so determined to talk to him about it, again. Over the years I have learned, God doesn’t mock our wildest, craziest dreams. He is right there with us as we walk it out.

337 – Nighttime Fears

337 – Nighttime Fears

January 27, 1989 Bridgemont, San Francisco

Yesterday the news was that there was a strange person on the grounds.

The day before that it was that a person desperately needing a place to spend the night.

Then last night a lady’s screaming woke us up. Fear gripped me as I lay awake…and then guilt at not helping any of them.

This morning I was disappointed and angry at myself, and still fearful.

But God’s Word totally erased all of it. There is power in the Word.

Luke 10:18-19 He replied, “I saw Satan fall like lightening from heaven. I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions, and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you. Hallelujah!

I happily went alone on my morning prayer walk with the Lord.

Trial: Apprehension about our new apartment. We are moving today and sleeping in the other apartment tonight. Dan, bless his heart, cleaned the stove, the fridge, and fixed the gas leak. Our bed will be in the bathroom. Weird. This old building is strange. Very strange. We cleaned, we thanked God that we are inside for the winter. 

January 28

We moved everything in two hours and had the old apartment cleaned. The boys were a tremendous help. We got them to bed (after a Mexican treat) and GRACE came like a flood. This is the Lord’s blessing for us, and we love it.

Later: There is not enough space, even for our very meager possessions. There are a few cupboards in the kitchen but we have no dressers. So we set our eyes on the seen rather than the unseen, and trust the Lord.

We went to Babu’s and Asceda’s for lunch. 

336 – The Spring of Living Water is My Lord

336 – The Spring of Living Water is My Lord

January 17, 1989 Bridgemont, SF

Jeremiah 17:13 …the Lord, the spring of living water…

Jeremiah 2:13 …Me, the spring of living water…

John 4:10 Jesus answered her, “If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked Him and He would have given you living water.

John 7:37-38 (Jesus) …If anyone is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink. Whoever believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within. By this He meant the Spirit, whom those who believed in Him were later to receive.

My Lord Jesus, You who are LIVING WATER, rejuvenate me according to Your generous Word. I’m so glad to know You.

I read recently that as we sing praises, it is like taking a drink of living water, and we are refreshed.

322 – God Made the Sun Stand Still

322 – God Made the

Sun Stand Still

September 28-October 2, 1988

Phyllis was very hospitable. We stayed in a campground and visited her at her house and the church. We went to her English speaking class and to the park for lunch with her and the ladies. We met her Japanese Pastor and his wife. Every time I looked at the wife I began weeping! The crying lasted 40 minutes. I was never sure what this was about. Ask dan

This was 30 years ago. My journal notes indicate that one day we left the motorhome in the camp place and went by transit into New York City. I remember that, but not what we did that day.

October 3

After we left Phyllis, we tried to homeschool as we traveled, but we only accomplished a little. There was much spiritual warfare. Timmy was upset. The freeway was terrible, so we got off and went the side roads. There was a lot of traffic through Philadelphia. Yet Dan and I kept agreeing and God led us for sure.

Sitting in the motor home was like being on a ship during a storm, hanging on, losing footing, but persevering. Finally seeing the shore and a refuge! Dan confronted Tim to surrender his will and give up his way. They prayed. Tim received peace and joy!

My concern about being able to do our homeschooling is huge. We have concerns about the weather and the road conditions that will be coming this time of year. And, we plan to go south to see my relatives, then north and back to Livonia, then west to Reno.

Joshua 10:12 Then Joshua spoke to the Lord…

v 13 AND THE SUN STOOD STILL FOR JOSHUA!! AND THE MOON STOPPED…

God is able to rule over nature for His children!

You always meet me, You always give me hope! I just need to come to You! I will keep my trust in You!

319 – My Strength is in the Lord!

319 – My Strength is in the Lord!

September 14, 1988

The Billy Graham Crusade was held for four nights in Rochester. Timmy, age 9, went once. I’m not sure if Steve or Mark went. Dan went each night and was up front as a counselor. He had gone door-to-door handing out flyers in our village and one of our neighbors on Big Tree Street got saved. Our neighbor Leslie went with me one night and went forward. I went forward with her. Oh HAPPY DAY!

September 19

Dan called Phyllis in New Jersey. She is very excited to know the dates of our visit. When we leave next week, she will be our first stop. She said the East coast has more new Japanese immigrants and the Bay Area would have second and third generation Japanese. We are trusting the Lord for direction as to where He could use us. Our goal is to live somewhere for a year or so to get experience with be-friending Japanese people and to begin learning the language.

Deuteronomy 20:3-4 Do not be fainthearted or afraid; do not panic or be terrified by them. For the Lord your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies and to give you victory.

God met me through the Word: the people and the situations that are strained are not going to overwhelm me if I will not be afraid and if I will trust Him. He will do the behind-the-scenes warfare!

September 21

There is a last-minute list of clothes that I felt we needed. It is pretty basic stuff and it seems our finances were such that we had not been able to purchase them.

September 22

The Elim Fellowship board met AND APPROVED US!! We are now part of an organization who will help us get a placement in Japan.

I asked God to speak to me plainly today:

Joshua 1, God to Georgann:

*Do meditate on the Word day and night

*Do what is in it, i.e., make it part of your life

*Results: you will be successful and prosperous

*Caution: Don’t be terrified

*Do be strong and courageous

*Don’t be discouraged

*Promise: The Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.

316 – God Keeps Encouraging Us

316 – God Keeps Encouraging Us

August 26 – 30, 1988

The Livonia church had a dinner for us. They were especially thankful for the Vacation Bible School that Dan headed up for the children a few weeks ago. The Pletchers came home from vacation and we moved out into the motor home. We went to the Skiff’s house (fellow Elim students) for dinner and they gave us $40 toward our vision for Japan! I called Aunt Flossie and she wants us to come and visit after all. My friends and I kept praying for one another, getting together as much as we could. I will miss my prayer partners: Barb Pray, Sue, Barb Harrington, Cheryl M, Tracey. 

Numbers 21:34 Do not be afraid of (the enemy), for I have handed him over to you and his whole army and his land!

God is working with us in all of this planning. And God is working through us. We are to obey and believe and go forward without fear.

September 1

Deuteronomy 1:29 Do not be terrified. The Lord your God is going before you to tell you (where to camp and how long!). TRUST HIM.

September 2

Psalm 101:5-6 My eyes will be on the faithful in the land that they may dwell with Me.

NIV note: the faithful are those who maintain moral integrity.

Dan and I worked on the application to be missionaries with Elim Fellowship. I typed it. We now wait and pray. Later in my devotions I got: Deuteronomy 3:2 Do not be afraid…v22 The Lord your God Himself will fight for you!

September 5

Labor Day—we went to Pittsford to see the Erie Canal. The locks are so interesting. There was some activity and we were fascinated. It was a real day off –we had Dan with us the whole day and we got to take a field trip.

315 – He is Lord and I Have Faith in Him

315 – He is Lord and I Have Faith in Him

August 24, 1988

Mark 11:22 Jesus said, HAVE FAITH IN GOD. 

v 24 Whatever you ask for in prayer—believe you have received it , and it will be yours.

*I believe our possessions (50 boxes) will be shipped by the Lord’s provision to a friend or family’s place and not be a burden.

*I believe God will change Aunt Flossie’s heart and she will allow us to come and visit her (in North Carolina).

*I believe God will provide Markie’s Calvert materials – $245.

*I believe we will get along well with the Pletcher’s when they return from vacation.

August 25

It just occurred to me that we are HOMELESS!

It was a bit of a shock! But it doesn’t hurt, and I am not going to be afraid. I will praise and give thanks and keep my trust in the Lord.

It helps that I just read this about praise:

Destined for the Throne – by Paul F. Billheimer, page 121 –

To be most effective praise must be massive, continuous, a fixed habit, a full-time occupation, a diligently pursued vocation, a total way of life.

Numbers 15:41 I AM THE LORD YOUR GOD WHO BROUGHT YOU OUT OF EGYPT TO BE YOUR GOD: I AM THE LORD YOUR GOD.

Exodus 20:2 I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage.

NIV note:

As His subjects, His covenant people are to render complete submission, allegiance, and obedience to Him out of gratitude for His mercies, reverence for His sovereignty, and trust in His continuous care.

You are my Lord! I am so grateful to be out of bondage!!

314 – Determined to be Faith-Filled

314 – Determined to be Faith-Filled

August 23, 1988

We went to the library. We did our school work. Friends came over to pray. Pastor George Davis met with Dan.

Numbers 13 There were giants in the land. And those who were afraid and grumbled could not enter the land. Only Joshua and Caleb had the faith. My God does not like or bless unbelief.

Numbers 14 Moses intercedes: “Lord, everyone knows that YOU have been leading and guiding these people—if you let them die—and do not bring them into the land You have promised them, everyone will know. Display Your strength. Display Your mercy and forgiveness.”

I identified with everything I was reading daily:

That we were being obedient in going out. That we were therefore going to be safe and protected and blessed. That we would have provision because God was going to take care of us. That God would display His strength, His mercy, and His forgiveness. That we would not die but live! I needed all of this encouragement.

306 ~ Promise of Angelic Protection

306 – Promise of  Angelic Protection

July 29, 1988

Thank You, Lord. I take this for just what it says: in listening for Your voice and obeying You, we have Your blessing and protection.

Exodus 23:20-33 He is sending an angel ahead of us on our journey!

20 an angel will go ahead of us to guard us and bring us to the place God has prepared for us.

21 pay attention to him and listen to what he says: do not rebel against him! My presence is in him.

22 If we listen carefully and do what He says, God shall be an enemy to our enemies.

24 Do not bow down before other gods or worship them or follow their practices; demolish them.

25 WORSHIP THE LORD YOUR GOD AND HIS BLESSING WILL BE UPON YOUR FOOD AND WATER.

     I WILL TAKE SICKNESS AWAY FROM THE MIDST OF YOU.

26 None will miscarry or be barren,

     I WILL GIVE YOU A FULL LIFE SPAN.

27 I will send my terror ahead of you and throw into confusion every nation you encounter.

     I will make your enemies turn their backs and run.

29 Little by little I will drive them out – until you have increased enough to take possession of the land.

32 Do not make a covenant with them or with their gods.

33 Do not let them live in your land or they will cause you to sin against Me, because the worship of their gods will be a snare to you.

By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to the place he would receive as an inheritance. And he went out, NOT KNOWING where he was going. Hebrews 11:8

Just as we had ‘gone out now knowing’ on our trip from Reno to New York, and at other times in our Christian walk, this is what God was requiring/requesting at this juncture.

305 – It’s Coming Together

305 – It’s Coming Together

July 25, 1988

The Lord has provided the Pletcher’s house for us to stay in from the time we have to be out of our house for the entire two weeks until Dan is off his job at SouthCo! They are leaving on vacation August 17 and will be gone for two weeks! They have been our longest NY friends. The day after we arrived, Cheryl came by with treats for us and they quickly brought us into their family. They have been faithful and devoted friends.

My doctor turned a checkup about my ankle into a physical for the Elim Fellowship application. $136 – Praise God.

In my devotions today, God gave me a promise for our family’s health on our trip:

I am the Lord who heals you. Exodus 15:26

July 26, 1988

Insurance for the motor home is $271 for a year through a company in Lima. Thank YOU!

Another encouragement for the trip: The Lord delivered his people out of the enemy’s hand as they prayed and kept their trust in Him. Exodus chapter 17

The-Lord-is-my-banner! Exodus 17:15

Banner means: He is my hope and my refuge and my praise!

July 27, 1988

We are sending out a newsletter to our friends to advise them that we are leaving New York. Dan said to keep it short because we have so many gaps in THE PLAN!! Thank you that You know what we are undertaking better than we do and You will enlighten us as we go! I feel we are to concentrate on one step at a time.

A command: Do not be afraid! Exodus 20:20

July 28

Up at 3-4am to pray in tongues. God showed me I didn’t believe He was very reliable and why…I turned it over to Him, and I got release.

An uplifting reminder: The Lord is their strength, and He is the saving refuge of His anointed. Psalm 28:8