274 – You Did It to Me

274 – You Did It to Me

August 24, 1987

On Saturday I was upset again because the neighbor kids,  Leah and David, wanted to have dinner with us. I said, raking the grass, Lord, if You want me to joyfully feed these neighborhood children, You tell me by the word of God—calculating quickly in my mind that in my devotions I was reading in the end chapters in Matthew and it wouldn’t again say to give cold water, or –I was hungry and you fed Me.

Feeling quite safe with my bargain I soon saw Dan bringing the mower in. I began to speak to him over my dismay at the neighborhood kids hanging around at mealtime. He said, Well Jesus says, “When I was hungry and you fed me……” AWWW! The verbal word!!

They stayed. I repented of my stingy bad attitude.

Tonight, reading my Bible, looking for something else, there it was:

For I was hungry, and you gave Me something to eat;

I was thirsty, and you gave Me drink;

I was a stranger, and you invited Me in;

I was sick, and you visited Me;

I was in prison, and you came to Me.

To the extent that you did it to one of these brothers of Mine, even the least of them, you did it to Me!

Matthew 25:35-36, 37-38

God, You are amazing!

273 – Interrogation

273 – Interrogation 

August 19, 1987

Bema was an 80 year old woman who lived in a cute green house with yellow-trimmed shutters directly across the street from us. She was Leslie’s and Julie’s mother, and the boys’ friend Chris’s grandmother. The daughters would gather daily to visit with their mom on the small patio. Bema and I really liked each other and oftentimes she would venture an opinion.

Yesterday Bema brought us home from Bingo at the rest home and voiced her concerns about homeschooling. She had decided that third grade was getting over my head when I‘d only taught first grade. What about preparation time and having the kids underfoot all day, every day?

I told her that I’d taught first, second, and third grades, and said just the right things, thank the Lord. I was surprised and caught off guard, but did not get defensive.

Just then Markie fell in the street while crossing it to get to our house. Praise God. I was forced, I should say– I HAD THE OPPORTUNITY, to leave the uncomfortable situation quickly.

Later in the evening Leslie came over with more questions about homeschooling. She had been sitting with Bema and Julie on Bema’s patio, probably chitchatting about us! I felt quizzed and uncomfortable. They were prying and I was trying to act like a Christian. This small town living is having its challenges.

Their concern was the prevailing attitude of the 80’s: how can a mom be smart enough and together enough to teach her kids at home, especially when there’s a bunch of them and they are all ages. AND how audacious are you to keep your children at home when they need the socializing that school offers.

All I knew was that the Lord had led me very clearly, Dan had agreed (reluctantly at first, but then wholeheartedly) and God had given me the verse: And when he brings out his own sheep,  he goes before them; and the sheep follow him, for they know his voice.  John 10:5

We did not want the boys to follow just any voice.

I had felt assurance that Jesus was with us in this endeavor.

272 – God Always Meets Me

272 -God Always Meets Me

August 13, 1987

I was in a deep quandary about homeschooling. I cried out to my Lord:

Be gracious to me, O Lord, for to Thee I cry ALL DAY LONG. In the day of my trouble I shall call upon Thee’ for Thou wilt answer me. There is NO ONE like Thee among the gods, O Lord; nor are there any works like Thine. Psalm 86:3,7

Mike, dean of married students, made an appointment to meet with us and came to our house. He asked us to be home group leaders. He also wanted to discuss homeschooling. Last year a homeschool family had caused havoc and ended up in court! He loves our testimony of homeschooling and he said that Elim would back our decision to homeschool UNLESS it went against the school district’s recommendations (which is what the other family had done). Here’s the rub: because of their scores on the SAT test, the district wanted Tim and Steve enrolled. I told Mike and he and Dan agreed it would be a good idea to enroll the boys in September. I was horrified.

I went to the Lord, crying, pouring out my heart to the Lord, trying to wrap my head around sending my sons away to school. (The school was in reality just a short walk across the field behind our house).

Then I went to the Word. Nothing really made clear sense in Matthew 10 and 11 that I could relate to our situation. Then the Lord met me with His words:

Matthew 12:25 Any kingdom divided against itself is laid waste; and any city or house divided against itself cannot stand.

Matt 14:25 TAKE COURAGE, IT IS I, DO NOT BE AFRAID!

We can not afford to send the boys to Christian school. So it was important that I surrender and not cause havoc in our home by my stubbornness. I needed to give in, honor my husband, and trust God for our sons’ welfare. And I needed to not be fearful but trust Him.

This brought clarity and the peace of the Holy Spirit. Not that I did not waffle in the days ahead–I did, and so did Dan.

271 – Free Travel, Vending Machines and Law Suits

271 – Free Travel, Vending Machines, and Lawsuits

July 31, 1987

We just got back from two full weeks in Reno. Jan and Jim sold their vacation trailer and took up a collection at church to pay for our family’s plane tickets. WOW! We were humbled. Bob and Janet were on vacation and gave us their house to use! To top it off my parents came to town for a 3-day visit. We saw friends and family; we were loved and gave love.

August 10

We came back to Livonia to the reality of three lawsuits: Dan’s passenger, Brian; the owner of the Hostess Cupcake truck; and Elizabeth the driver of the truck.

I read in Matt 5:40 And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, let him have your coat also.

It was God’s word, and amazing that I ‘just happened’ to read it today.

But it was not very comforting.

August 14

On a family outing we stopped in a gas station along the highway. Inside the bathroom some obscene materials were offered for sale from a vending machine. I felt conscience-bound to call the corporate head of the gas station company for making the materials available.

I wrote out what I was going to say and respectfully told the top-guy my concerns.

Once I cried spontaneously (for the children who have seen this type of machine in a public place). The man I was talking to said, “I understand, believe me!” I followed up with a letter and included the gospel message. I felt so free and relieved afterward.

270 – At the End Again

270 – At the End Again

April 22, 1987

We find ourselves once again at the END.

Dan’s drafting work has ended. 

No other jobs have come up. He’s made calls to newspaper ads.

I’ve been praying for two days–You are our ONLY HOPE, Jesus–

*for a job for Dan

*for money for groceries on Friday

*for rent in 1 1/2 weeks

*for paying bills

*for Dan to get pants –he’s wearing the insulated ones his mom sent for Christmas

*for shoes for Dan–he’s wearing his dress shoes around the house

around noon…I went to prayer, felt a great need, burdened by the flesh and heavy. I needed to commune with my Savior. I asked Him to speak and help me to believe He was speaking. I saw Jesus, then the cross, then Jesus. I heard Him say: “I went to the cross and came off the cross so you could have life. I give you My life today–don’t worry about the future, even tomorrow. Give My life away. There’s more for tomorrow.”

He met me at the end, which wasn’t really the end at all.

Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” So we may boldly say: “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear. What can man do to me?” Hebrews 13:5-6

269 – Watching God Work

269 – Watching God Work

April 22, 1987

On Sunday, worship at Elim was WONDERFUL.

There was a call for prayer. The atmosphere was so anointed that I asked God what I could go up for. He told me and so I went.

We all had fun at Bob and Linda’s for Easter dinner. Cold outside, with snow on the ground, but eight little boys in the house went surprisingly well. Ages 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8!! Hers mixed in perfectly with mine.

Yesterday Jan called. She wants to come for a visit. There are horrible problems at her house. I said on the condition that she would be TOTALLY OPEN TO THE LORD, COUNSEL, PRAYER, etc.

At the dentist’s I witnessed to Sue, the dental assistant. She was interested that we wanted to tell Japanese people about Jesus! The Lord worked to set up her interest! It was amazing.

I sought out Cathy, the hygienist, and gave her a Guideposts magazine and an excellent book on becoming a Christian and getting started in a faith walk. She was not only receptive but excited.

Dan suggested I invite our neighbor Julie to the Cults class. We’re having a speaker on Thursday on Mormonism. She is considering it!!!

JULIE CALLED ME when I was getting my nerve up to ask her! GOD DID IT!!

But Jesus answered them, “My Father has been working until now, and I have been working.” John 5:17

I saw You working among us at church and at our friends’ home on Sunday, in my bold stance with Jan on Monday, in the dentist’s office on Tuesday– going before me softening the ladies’ hearts, and today working in Julie’s heart to be interested in visiting Elim and being open to hearing about her religion. Astounding! 

268 – Loud Crying to the Lord

 268- Loud Crying

to the Lord

April 18, 1987

I was led to Psalm 107:27-32 with Bible subtitle:

“to those who are overwhelmed”–

They reeled and staggered like a drunken man,

and were at their wits’ end.

Then THEY CRIED TO THE LORD IN THEIR TROUBLE,

And He brought them out of their distresses.

He caused the storm to be still,

So that the waves of the sea were hushed.

Then they were glad because they were quiet;

So He guided them to their desired haven.

Let them give thanks to the Lord for His lovingkindness,

And for His wonders to the sons of men!

Let them extol Him also in the congregation of the people,

And praise Him at the seat of the elders.

Last week, God gave me this last week when Stevie was sick with a high fever and I was reading to him:

In the days of His flesh, He offered up both prayers and supplications WITH LOUD CRYING AND TEARS TO THE ONE ABLE TO SAVE HIM from death, and was heard because of His piety. Hebrews 5:7

I feel like God is telling me that our part, when overwhelming circumstances and trials come, is loud crying and tears to the Lord, and He will hear and answer and act.

267 – We Are Being Sifted

267 – We Are Being Sifted

April 9, 1987

I drove into Lima for our home school gathering. A church marquee said:

           April 5, 1987  UNBOUND

THAT WAS MY BIRTHDAY! I feel that was for me!

Yesterday I got:

ARISE [from the depression and prostration in which circumstances have kept you; rise to a new life]!

SHINE – be radiant with the glory of the Lord;

for your light is come and the glory of the Lord is risen upon you!  Isaiah 60:1 (Amplified)

The sheriff came while we were in Lima with a summons! Dan’s passenger in the November car accident is suing our insurance company because Brian did not feel he got enough wage compensation during his recovery period. Funny thing—the people who were going to support him didn’t. I pray he will see clearly to drop the suit.

And the Lord said,[a] “Simon, Simon! Indeed, Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat.  But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren.” Luke 22:31-32

We are being sifted.

Check from Life Center in Reno for $55 which is our grocery money for TODAY’s shopping! Praise Jesus!

Bill and Carol sent $10 and a letter. Bless them!

Gregg and Cheryl gave $40 for Dan and I to go out to dinner to celebrate my birthday.