The last several days have been extremely stressful, and I have not been coping very well. Busy with Mark’s birthday party and our kids’ friends’ birthday parties. Also babysitting our friends’ kids. Plus, Bebo came to visit from Chicago—just in time to coach Mark in learning to walk. I’m finding myself in and out of coping.
We are in a place of such dependence on the Lord. Dan didn’t have work yesterday or today.
*St. Mary’s Hospital wants money [for Mark’s birth]. Dan went to talk to someone there.
*Dan’s truck got a warning for mechanical defects from Highway Patrol. Dan is fixing the headlights, taillights, blinkers.
Dan has been offered a position as program director at KNIS—full time! Could mean a move to Carson City. I’m sort of shaken.
We are on the brink of an adventure, a certain step of faith.
Guest speaker at church last night and this a.m. is Anthony Campolo. He is speaking on self-denial, sacrifice, giving, meekness, peacemaking, mourning over the world condition.
He was teaching us Jesus’ heart.
I have definitely come to appreciate Dan’s sincere and anointed edification of the saints on the radio. It’s not his own personality making it up. It’s a man seeking and serving a living , loving, worthy Lord, and sincerely encouraging others to do the same.
Moving is not my idea and it sounds hard. I do not care for the small town of Carson at all.
But I lay aside these for Your perfect and blessed will. That we might be in fellowship with You, that our boys would know You and Your reality.
Campolo got onto missions in today’s message.
He asked for full surrender and full commitment. Pastor Dave asked for hands of those interested in missions.
He seemed to acknowledge Dan and I. Dan gave his testimony tonight at church and some teaching. It came off well, serious, sincere, Spirit-filled. Gene gathered everyone around us to pray for KNIS job and our lives and Pastor prayed for the missions interest to be confirmed, put together, and moved along.
ONLY BY YOU, LORD! My feet are cold; my faith is small, but I am willing and obedient.
Looking back, I am in awe that one dear friend prayed about the job offer, and our faithful Pastor picked up from the Spirit about the missions calling. God, You are amazing in how You work!
Psalm 37:1 Fret not yourself because of evildoers, be not envious toward wrong doers.
Proverbs 23:17 Do not let your heart envy sinners, but live in the fear of the Lord.
Psalm 37:3-5 Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness. Delight Yourself in the Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He will do it.
*I am focusing on imperfect people, rather than on God.
*I am focusing on myself, rather than God.
*I look at others’ prosperity (my parents, my sisters, even other Christians) and then feel unhappy with my own situation.
*I am looking inward, and listening to others say: “Georgann, How do you do it with three kids?” –makes me panic and say to myself: yes—how DO I do it? And also gives me an open door to self pity.
*I get very shakey and tottery looking at these things rather than at God.
Oswald Chambers says: It is impossible for a believer, no matter what his experience, to keep right with God if he will not take the trouble to spend time with God….spend plenty of time with God; let other things go, but don’t neglect Him.
Psalm 37:9 For evildoers will be cut off. But those who wait for the Lord, they will inherit the land.
Strong’s Concordance 6960: wait means to expect, to gather together, to look patiently, tarry.
Lord, help me to wait patiently for you, and to keep my eyes fixed on You through reading my Bible daily and building my faith in You.
80- The Holy Spirit Gives the Power to Live Obediently
August 10, 1982
The issue: much lessened income over the past few weeks necessitating cutting spending even more. No more gifts giving, only certain number of trips for Dan to Carson City, smaller food budget, possibly letting go of health insurance.
My need:attitude change regarding food. I take pride and pleasure in menu planning, cooking, and eating. It is very extremely difficult for me to die to this. Yet it is absolutely necessary. Today I spent too much at the grocery store and cannot have a physical, I guess, on Thursday.
God’s word: Psalm 78:17-20
Yet they still continued to sin against Him, to rebel against the Most High in the desert. And in their heart they put God to the test by asking for food according to their desire. Then they spoke against God. They said, “Can God prepare a table in the wilderness? Behold, He struck the rock, so that the waters gushed out, and streams were overflowing. Can He give bread also? Will He provide meat for His people?”
I do not desire to kindle Your anger by putting You to the test to provide nor do I want to be disobedient to my husband and be a poor steward of the money You provide.
So, CHANGE ME.
The Holy Spirit gives the power to live obediently. Thank You, Holy Spirit. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13
July 29, 1982 Keith Green is dead in body and yet alive with Jesus now and forever. Praise God.
I am inspired by 1 Timothy 4:1-8 I SOLEMNLY CHARGE YOU, Georgann, in the presence of God and of Christ Jesus, who is to judge the living and the dead, and by His appearing and His kingdom: Preach the word, be ready in season and out of season; reprove, rebuke and exhort, with great patience and instruction…
But you, Georgann, be sober in all things, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, fulfill your ministry.
Lord, I praise You. This is the impetus we all need: this radical Christian man’s death. I am asking You to use this to give us in the body of Christ a boost into Your will for us.
Dan and I are at another turning point in our lives. You definitely lovingly have our attention. Dan is part-time at KNIS, and doing odd jobs; thinking about working at sculpting; has a possible offer to build homes with another Christian man.
WHATEVER You want, I am willing to make my life count, and to endure the hardships that will be coming.
January 2, 1979 Since I went to the doctor two weeks ago, I have been counting contractions daily because he said six means trouble. Oh how anxious and fearful I have become.Rejoice always, be anxious for nothing, pray with thanksgiving, AND HIS PEACE WILL KEEP YOU. Philippians 4:4-7 (paraphrased)
Later: I am overcome! Slipped into the pit. Where does responsibility get practical for our baby? Do we become parents now and go home to prepare a place? Or do we continue in our role as Bible students and trust God for preparing a place? Also I am frustrated and so bored with the food. And there is more…it all makes me double-minded and easily tossed about.Continue reading “38- Appealing to the Father”→
After a short and sweet honeymoon in Santa Barbara, and time with my family, we returned to the little brick house in Reno. We continued attending our church, and Dottie organized a wonderful wedding reception for us in a park. Dan worked at his construction job, and we prepared for our adventure. After a few weeks, I began to feel symptoms of pregnancy! When I went to see my MD, he calculated that I had become pregnant on the third day of the honeymoon. We were ecstatic. We had given our family planning to the Lord, and His grace flowed to us to celebrate.
My mother, Grayce, felt we should change our plans and not go overseas. She was concerned that since I was 33, I might have a high-risk pregnancy and might not be able to find a doctor I could communicate with. Being a worrier myself, I took her seriously. Continue reading “32- Stay Home and Be Safe or Forge Ahead”→